Have you ever thot of karma?? its just like the justin timberlake song, what goes around comes around, hmmm...if you do not believe in karma....here's a very good analogy...everything u ever earn in your life will eventually be lost when u die....such is karma...
When i was in sec one...i presuade this gal to leave her bf coz her bf is a damn ah beng and always getting her into trouble...for her own good...i talk to her about this and eventually she leave him...after sometime i got together with her...a moment of curiosity i guess...but as fast as we got together...soon we broke up over very minor issues which was compelety dumb but the worst has yet to come...being both young and hard-headed we both didn't give in..and being an asshole...yes i was an asshole then...i scolded her a very unpopular word then 'BITCH'...unlike now its was not a nice word to use then and that made her cried...all the gals in the class was against me and i felt like a complete jerk for two months...this was the start of all the karma i had to repay....FUCK! ( i'm really sorry for what i've done but i dare not apologise to u in ur face...it will always be a regret in my life and even if i see u again...i still would not have the courage to go up and apologise...but i hope someday i can do so...i really do...I"M SORRY..)
This is a chain of relationship karma...and the softest part of me is LOVE...something i was weak against...never did i believe in karma until this happens...my second gf was when i was 17...i repeated my 'N' levels and got into a completely new environment where all my friends were in sec 5 but i was in sec 4,being new to the class...i kept to myself most of the time...i was sitting with another retainee at that time(we sat in 2s) but i soon changed sit with another gal...and my sit was next to my ex...that's when i noe her...i think i was acting cool at that time and she kept trying to crack me up by talking to me and teaching me maths which i suck at...she's not the prettiest but one of the most kind hearted i must say and her family background is kind of sad...kind hearted gals also make me have a special kind of bond to me thus i'm more attracted by innner beauty...she would call me everyday at first i would happily pick up but after some time...it got a little irritating and i ignore her calls...the results was 17 miss calls in 20 mins...then i finally realise that she like me...o.O
what a shock to me...and when i want to go steady with her...its was only slight feeling...but eventually i really feel in love with her deeply...only too realise that i'm not suitable for her...i'm pretty much always bullying her...making fun of her and she didn't want her bf to be liddat thus we broke up...i was sad coz i didn't noe the truth after some time later...she stole my first kiss...
=( soon i realise that this is my fault again...i didn't noe what she wanted...
Karma happens here... my 3rd GF...the one that i loved the most...i like her since primary 6 and well i did confess...throughout the years i seen her a few times and each time i saw her...the 'first love' kind of feeling occurs..ur heart beats faster, u think about her all the time and yes...she made me felt all of that... Some time in AUG 2007...i went for supper with DJ ( dong jian...my one and only best fren in sec...there was 2...the other turned gay and before that he backstabbed us thus he shall not be considered) after that we went for a walk...since we had supper at bedok interchange, i thot of going to temasek primary (the old one) which was also my primary school...and we walk to that...(primary schools bring back lots of memories as i love the class and frenz i had then...6F...awwww....with my ex in there too...) i sms her while walking into the private houses area and ask if she wanted to chat...she agreed and i met under her block chai chee blk 61...so there's me,dj and her, Candace...
i forgot what we chatted about...but that nite onwards, i took dj that i'm gonna court her...for its that very special kind of feeling that she gives me...soon we went for our first date...movie date to be exact...sakae sushi and the movie was 'ALONE' after that we went out regularly and soon to each other's house...amking potato salad...playing guitar or rather she teach me how to play the guitar...until one movie...out first kiss...lips to lips..."balls of fury"...half way through the show i just went ahead to kiss her and she reacted back...( the beginning of all my miseries) i thot i had the girl of my dreams...but after 2 days... she said that she do not want to be in a relationship bcoz she do not noe how to handle a relationship...but i know that she has feeling for me so i was persistent and keep trying to get her back....not this once but for at least 4-5 times...she's very insecure and some of the things that happen next was pretty psychotic...
1. SMS cannot reply later than 3 minutes
2. cannot say good night
3. cannot say that i want to go home when i'm at her place
4.cannot look at other gals...glare also cannot...if accidently look at other gals then get really to be slaughtered
its was so and so unspoken rulez that eventually i gave up everything just to keep her by my side... i neglected my frenz...studies and sometime work to be with her...(my partner would be more important than anything in my heart) in the end everything was left there hanging...until the night when she took me she like someone else...i lied to myself that as long as she love me..i will still accept her if she stops contacting the asshole...however she refuse to do so...and i know that it was over by then...gone...and the reason for all the previous attemps of trying to break up was bcoz... 1. i'm shorter than her...(which i can't fucking control) 2. i cannot lead her ( i'm not a christian)...how the hell i'm suppose to know about a christain marriage?? and u also nv ever once tell me what u want...and my fault was that i never did ask...but even if i did...knowing her, she will not say or tell the truth....she will just use a lame excuse to get it through with....i know u too well...( i know u so well until i dun noe u anymore) isn't this karma...i treat u good yet u dun treasure...2nd gf...
u run with some fucking asshole...juz like when i presuade my 1st ex to end it with her bf... so now do anyone still have doubts in karma??? but hey candace...i dun hate u...juz wanted u to know............
PLS DO MORE GOOD DEEDS....and for the asshole who stole her away...karma will soon come after u...u juz wait....WHAHHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!! (from karma) curse u bastard!
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