The time is 3.41 am...and i'm not asleep yet despite xiu zhen asking me to go and sleep...but how can i ever waste a saturday nite sleeping?? its just morally not right...saturdays are meant to have fun...not sleep...i hate to sleep but i have been sleeping alot lately...who sound so oxymoron you may ask...reason is that...sleep is a need not a want...for that who dun noe...if u do not sleep for more a certain period of time...u will start to halluncate and that is going to be the start of your insanity...CONGRATS...clap clap...
So...now is 3.45am and i got nothing blog about...why?? bcoz i didn't encounter anything fun today or the past few days at all...on friday i went to sim lim to collect my laptop and went bugis to shop alone...bought a 10 dollars watch...wanted to buy clothes but nothing caught my eye...then emo-ly went home alone...i enjoy taking bus rides on late nights...especially when the bus is almost vacant...listen to my music and emo...feels damn right...seriously..what happen to my life?? my brother, Alvyn ytd was insulting me...saying it sucks to be me...why?? he said bcoz i cannot let go out my ex....so i can't get another girlfriend thus i'm stucked and fucked up...
he 's right...i'm still searching for the special kind of feeling that can make me feel that i'm loving someone again...but now...i'm on the verge of believeing that it might never happen again...
its either the fact that i've changed or that i can't let go of her...whoever says that time can heal stuff are great decievers as well...from my point of view....time can only bury things...it cannot heal things...so if u're force to give me the one you love...and if the person tells you that it takes time to let go...tell the person to fucking go and knock the damn wall...for it will never happen...a good method would be that..you start to hate the person....
Hatred makes wonders...lame but true...
Heard of the song 'No More Lonely Nights'...tonight the song will be one more lonely night plus lots of rains....for the sky is soaked in red tonight... 1 more month till my birthday and i start to remind myself that for 21 years i've been spending all my birthdays alone...how i wish someone special can spend it with me...i wonder if 'she' will sms me happy birthday this year...not looking forward to my birthday this year and every other years to come...for i've been reminded that i have accomplish nothing in my god damn life yet... ( i wish i can hear her voice tonight but it seems that it will never happen, my life became fucked the day she left and no one's fixing it, mayb i dun deserve to love again)
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