Fucking hell... just 2 more weeks... hahahaha... can't forgot a lot of shit... buddies and idiots that juz pisses ppl out... unfortunately alot of ppl kinda piss me off... Maybe in 1 bunk og 15 other ppl... 5 are idiots, 5 are assholes... and the last 5 are the people u can clink with.... not to mention a lot of idiots....
Why i kena this kind of vocation?? AMMO store man??
Saturday, September 18, 2010
Saturday, July 31, 2010
Reporting for duty....
Sometimes... i wish i don't get overly attached to the things in life.. making it all difficult to part and stuff... Tmr is my 1st day at my "new job" and i'm very sure i won't like or enjoy it but anyway... what the heck... lets get it done and over with.
Here are somethings i'm gonna miss in Lhub. (The standing are all random)
1. Standing up from my seat and disturbing PG saying... "omg, those are not eczema patches, that's aids, OH NO!"
2. laughing the way the faith walks, cup a fart... wtf..XD. Finally after some many freaking years, i found someone who i can talk to open heartedly. This time i must cherish!
3. seeing how jaslyn laughs at certain things. DAMN CUTE. Hopefuly no one bullys her~~ coz she probably won't always retaliate and no one can share her burdens~~
4. taking a ruler and 'fighting' with lauren, singing in the toilet... making everyone sians~~~
5. Coffee and bj talk with mark over beer. Hey, bro we need to go to vietnam for a holiday very soon~~
6. Summer cannot entertain me with the weird stuff she says, FYI she;s highly entertaining
7. Going over for free ass touching session and free tea session with Jo. ( come come... letting u touch my ass for free ice-cream is totally worth it. *WINK*)
8. Having fishhead steamboat with selected few. ( Mr Koh, Pls stop taking the last piece of vegetable. Can't u just have the fish??)
I conclude the work at Lhub to be full of SHIT and the ppl there taking the lot of shit to be very shitty. However, i still love them so i suppose my new fetish is SCAT.
"Hold on ok??? i know u cannot handle it and time to time u crumble, but it aches me to seeing u cry so don't cry again ok... even if i can't be there.. i can still sense it ( i'm some kind of guru) ... i'll be missing u the most~~~~~ this time.. dun say its someone else that i miss the most coz my stupid brain and heart tells me it you... =P
Here are somethings i'm gonna miss in Lhub. (The standing are all random)
1. Standing up from my seat and disturbing PG saying... "omg, those are not eczema patches, that's aids, OH NO!"
2. laughing the way the faith walks, cup a fart... wtf..XD. Finally after some many freaking years, i found someone who i can talk to open heartedly. This time i must cherish!
3. seeing how jaslyn laughs at certain things. DAMN CUTE. Hopefuly no one bullys her~~ coz she probably won't always retaliate and no one can share her burdens~~
4. taking a ruler and 'fighting' with lauren, singing in the toilet... making everyone sians~~~
5. Coffee and bj talk with mark over beer. Hey, bro we need to go to vietnam for a holiday very soon~~
6. Summer cannot entertain me with the weird stuff she says, FYI she;s highly entertaining
7. Going over for free ass touching session and free tea session with Jo. ( come come... letting u touch my ass for free ice-cream is totally worth it. *WINK*)
8. Having fishhead steamboat with selected few. ( Mr Koh, Pls stop taking the last piece of vegetable. Can't u just have the fish??)
I conclude the work at Lhub to be full of SHIT and the ppl there taking the lot of shit to be very shitty. However, i still love them so i suppose my new fetish is SCAT.
"Hold on ok??? i know u cannot handle it and time to time u crumble, but it aches me to seeing u cry so don't cry again ok... even if i can't be there.. i can still sense it ( i'm some kind of guru) ... i'll be missing u the most~~~~~ this time.. dun say its someone else that i miss the most coz my stupid brain and heart tells me it you... =P
Sunday, July 18, 2010
Tonight i am going find some reason why i am still single.
HERE GOES
1. I am very warm thanks to the lipids in my body and since its singapore and being 'too' warm is not a good thing.
2. all the good woman are married /attached.
3. Then there are those who have been hurt by others.
4. The man to woman ratio in the world happens to be 1 : 4. But we all know where they are from and we dun want them... NEVER!
5. This is the woe of some unfortunate man : being born short.
6. Karma : coz daddy isn't bill gates.
7. Being Asian... the girl that u like happens to be a SPG (Sarong party girl).
8. You just dun happen to look like 1 of the handsome / cute, Koreans singers / actor.
9. This is a killer (i love you but u do not share the same religious values as me)
10. You not the one.
Have i listed enough?? i can go on forever you know?? but lets not do it... and spare jack tonight. ^3^
1. I am very warm thanks to the lipids in my body and since its singapore and being 'too' warm is not a good thing.
2. all the good woman are married /attached.
3. Then there are those who have been hurt by others.
4. The man to woman ratio in the world happens to be 1 : 4. But we all know where they are from and we dun want them... NEVER!
5. This is the woe of some unfortunate man : being born short.
6. Karma : coz daddy isn't bill gates.
7. Being Asian... the girl that u like happens to be a SPG (Sarong party girl).
8. You just dun happen to look like 1 of the handsome / cute, Koreans singers / actor.
9. This is a killer (i love you but u do not share the same religious values as me)
10. You not the one.
Have i listed enough?? i can go on forever you know?? but lets not do it... and spare jack tonight. ^3^
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
Corportate Bastard...
Today i am going to blog about something very serious... How to survive in a corporate...
1. Observation...
Whenever you arrive at your work place.. The 1st person you know will be your supervisor for he/she will be the one to guide you... 1st act dumb and observe... don't produce results 1st.. wait and see how they react when you make a mistake and when they ask you to do something and you ask them back how to do it even if its something simple...
Reason : This will tell you what kind of people your supervisor is, if they are perfectionist or not... when they show you how its done, they will curse and swear at the previous person in your post who did the thing before and did not do a good job ( this only applies if you think that the previous person did a okay job yet they complain, if that is not the case... the previous guy really sucked ).
Also the way they talk... do they go all out to explain?? or just briefly and you are on your own... Only the patient ones all go out... the gan chiong ones will never do that... Normally inpatient people need the work done fast and sweet with no mistakes and also their temper is NOT VERY GOOD... Always ask the patient ones for guidance... only they can tolerate you ( lets face it, you new on the job, you know nothing and you are very much irritating )... so no one hates you on your first day and you won't start sneezing/ headache/ diarrhea when they curse you at night...
2. Taking sides
Usually its the battle of the sexes... If you work in a male environment, quarrel will be less since everyone is easy going... less gossip and whining but when its the other case... enjoy getting caught in the crossfire when they aim arrows / bullets / bombs openly at one another or even someone from another department...
Woman always try to amend the system, pick trouble with the system and create a new one but only gets you confuse with it... men live with the system and worship it even if it truly thinks Big Time... woman get killed by it...
3. The smart ones
The smart people are those who shut up, YES, its not those who openly raise up ideas in meeting but those who live with the way things are and even if they do make changes, they keep quiet about it and never ever brag about it seeking unwanted attention... Attention is the number one killer...WHY?? Here's why...
When they need help.. they look for u.... u help them coz you're acting Mr. Nice Guy obviously ( deep down you wish all these dumb faggots die )... and what do you get?? more people needing help with even the simplest stuff and you are unable to finish your own work coz you are too busy helping others... fuck...
Secondly, The management starts to take note of who is Mr FOI (full of ideas) and who is a potential for promotion which also means taking up a leadership role... But here's the catch... you get a promotion with no pay rise.. WHY??? Its always seems that when the market is bad then they need new ideas ( even the higher ups are lazy... its the truth... secondly they dun wanna get into hot soup by changing things when they are working fine..CAREER SUICIDE that why someone always get a promotions, YOU CORPORATE SCAPEGOAT! ) thus since times are bad... they will probably say...
" CONGRATULATION ON YOUR PROMOTION TO (*Insert Rank here*) BUT WE ARE SORRY TO INFORM YOU THAT TIMES ARE BAD AT THE MOMENT, WE REGRET TO TELL YOU THAT A PAY RISE AT THE MOMENT WILL NOT BE POSSIBLE, WE WILL REVISE AT THE NEXT QUARTER OF THE YEAR, SORRY FOR THE INCONVENIENCE CAUSED, WE HOPE TO SEE ACHIEVEMENTS FROM YOU "
See!! nicely settled, more work, no extra pay... wait there's more.. When you don't deliver since now you are the STAR of the team... you soon become a shooting star... quickly diminished in another term... YOU'RE AXED. *CHOP*
The quiet person does a little more work ( just a little coz no ones knows that he's capable) but yet has his/her job and bonuses yearly More importantly no one hates them, they dun gets curse at night or even when they are working...
Try to stay alive now . . . Play Nice....
1. Observation...
Whenever you arrive at your work place.. The 1st person you know will be your supervisor for he/she will be the one to guide you... 1st act dumb and observe... don't produce results 1st.. wait and see how they react when you make a mistake and when they ask you to do something and you ask them back how to do it even if its something simple...
Reason : This will tell you what kind of people your supervisor is, if they are perfectionist or not... when they show you how its done, they will curse and swear at the previous person in your post who did the thing before and did not do a good job ( this only applies if you think that the previous person did a okay job yet they complain, if that is not the case... the previous guy really sucked ).
Also the way they talk... do they go all out to explain?? or just briefly and you are on your own... Only the patient ones all go out... the gan chiong ones will never do that... Normally inpatient people need the work done fast and sweet with no mistakes and also their temper is NOT VERY GOOD... Always ask the patient ones for guidance... only they can tolerate you ( lets face it, you new on the job, you know nothing and you are very much irritating )... so no one hates you on your first day and you won't start sneezing/ headache/ diarrhea when they curse you at night...
2. Taking sides
Usually its the battle of the sexes... If you work in a male environment, quarrel will be less since everyone is easy going... less gossip and whining but when its the other case... enjoy getting caught in the crossfire when they aim arrows / bullets / bombs openly at one another or even someone from another department...
Woman always try to amend the system, pick trouble with the system and create a new one but only gets you confuse with it... men live with the system and worship it even if it truly thinks Big Time... woman get killed by it...
3. The smart ones
The smart people are those who shut up, YES, its not those who openly raise up ideas in meeting but those who live with the way things are and even if they do make changes, they keep quiet about it and never ever brag about it seeking unwanted attention... Attention is the number one killer...WHY?? Here's why...
When they need help.. they look for u.... u help them coz you're acting Mr. Nice Guy obviously ( deep down you wish all these dumb faggots die )... and what do you get?? more people needing help with even the simplest stuff and you are unable to finish your own work coz you are too busy helping others... fuck...
Secondly, The management starts to take note of who is Mr FOI (full of ideas) and who is a potential for promotion which also means taking up a leadership role... But here's the catch... you get a promotion with no pay rise.. WHY??? Its always seems that when the market is bad then they need new ideas ( even the higher ups are lazy... its the truth... secondly they dun wanna get into hot soup by changing things when they are working fine..CAREER SUICIDE that why someone always get a promotions, YOU CORPORATE SCAPEGOAT! ) thus since times are bad... they will probably say...
" CONGRATULATION ON YOUR PROMOTION TO (*Insert Rank here*) BUT WE ARE SORRY TO INFORM YOU THAT TIMES ARE BAD AT THE MOMENT, WE REGRET TO TELL YOU THAT A PAY RISE AT THE MOMENT WILL NOT BE POSSIBLE, WE WILL REVISE AT THE NEXT QUARTER OF THE YEAR, SORRY FOR THE INCONVENIENCE CAUSED, WE HOPE TO SEE ACHIEVEMENTS FROM YOU "
See!! nicely settled, more work, no extra pay... wait there's more.. When you don't deliver since now you are the STAR of the team... you soon become a shooting star... quickly diminished in another term... YOU'RE AXED. *CHOP*
The quiet person does a little more work ( just a little coz no ones knows that he's capable) but yet has his/her job and bonuses yearly More importantly no one hates them, they dun gets curse at night or even when they are working...
Try to stay alive now . . . Play Nice....
Monday, April 12, 2010
거짓말
Currently my favorite Korean word : 거짓말...
Nothing in this world... mean anything to me... If i was lonely and alone... i rather be dead... Time is a double edge blade.. some times u want thing to be over quick... but you want your life to be long...
I found a job... that means I'll be working for 24/7... hope the people there are nice to me!! Just want to stay out of office politics... No young girls to prey on... oh shit... i mean befriend!! ( BIG SMILE ^3^)
Another chapter to began... guess I'm turning into a full pledge white collar...
Gimme a chance to let me at least try ok?? dun shut me up because of how i look...
Nothing in this world... mean anything to me... If i was lonely and alone... i rather be dead... Time is a double edge blade.. some times u want thing to be over quick... but you want your life to be long...
I found a job... that means I'll be working for 24/7... hope the people there are nice to me!! Just want to stay out of office politics... No young girls to prey on... oh shit... i mean befriend!! ( BIG SMILE ^3^)
Another chapter to began... guess I'm turning into a full pledge white collar...
Gimme a chance to let me at least try ok?? dun shut me up because of how i look...
Monday, March 22, 2010
why am i not?
Why am i not musically talented??? i have a guitar with no strings and there's still many language i want to learn but i just don't have the money... I guess having a dream and living it is totally different... luckily the stuff that i set can be accomplished...
I count my days now... how long have i slack... i ask myself... turns out to be a lot... after meeting her ytd... i realise that i'm beginning to become super boring... its use to be grey now its black...
My black black heart~~~ (sing along session...) why won't u offer more... why won't you make it easier on me . . . . ~ ~ ~ ~ !
I count my days now... how long have i slack... i ask myself... turns out to be a lot... after meeting her ytd... i realise that i'm beginning to become super boring... its use to be grey now its black...
My black black heart~~~ (sing along session...) why won't u offer more... why won't you make it easier on me . . . . ~ ~ ~ ~ !
Thursday, March 18, 2010
TKR
I'm counting the days for a new... TKR...
fuckin shit... its killing me... btw... TKR is total knee replacement..
Or its just my nerves being press against whenever i bend my knees...
NOT COOL...
I don't understand... why am i born into this family...?? not so American / Australia family??? Its not that i dun love my family but i just wonder why...
Out of everywhere a small dot like Singapore??? where the weather is hot and the people are not even laid back and we're a freaking aging population...
Why strike rich... we all know that doing pure honest work is not the way to do it... it has been proven... EVERYWHERE... people who are nice and all goes bankrupt... people who are not " nice " makes a run for it and they manage to escape with their partners money and succeed somewhere else.. returning 10 years later as a tycoon... see what i mean???
i wanna be evil for that reason... *smiles*...
fuckin shit... its killing me... btw... TKR is total knee replacement..
Or its just my nerves being press against whenever i bend my knees...
NOT COOL...
I don't understand... why am i born into this family...?? not so American / Australia family??? Its not that i dun love my family but i just wonder why...
Out of everywhere a small dot like Singapore??? where the weather is hot and the people are not even laid back and we're a freaking aging population...
Why strike rich... we all know that doing pure honest work is not the way to do it... it has been proven... EVERYWHERE... people who are nice and all goes bankrupt... people who are not " nice " makes a run for it and they manage to escape with their partners money and succeed somewhere else.. returning 10 years later as a tycoon... see what i mean???
i wanna be evil for that reason... *smiles*...
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
Post 151 - a new milestone in life...
I am still alive... but not very much... then again... is it even possible to be like me??
Monday, March 8, 2010
Post #150
Ok this is my 150 post and to mark that mile stone, i would like to tell everyone that. . . . .
I'M GOING NUTS... CONGRATZ EVERYONE...
Dreams are the best... i wanna sleep for a long time but i still want to wake up thou...
Over the last week, i dream that i had girlfriends!! YEAH!! not 1, not 2 but 3! on 3 different occasions...
since that is the case... its been bugging me ever since... when can i ever have that feeling again???
But i'm waiting for the right 1? i can't possible aim at everyone right? what if everyone just runs away? HAHAHAHAHA!!!
But then again what if 'she' has already appear but i just haven't realize... and now i got no money to ask anyone out for dates....
HAHAHAHA!!! SAD!
I'M GOING NUTS... CONGRATZ EVERYONE...
Dreams are the best... i wanna sleep for a long time but i still want to wake up thou...
Over the last week, i dream that i had girlfriends!! YEAH!! not 1, not 2 but 3! on 3 different occasions...
since that is the case... its been bugging me ever since... when can i ever have that feeling again???
But i'm waiting for the right 1? i can't possible aim at everyone right? what if everyone just runs away? HAHAHAHAHA!!!
But then again what if 'she' has already appear but i just haven't realize... and now i got no money to ask anyone out for dates....
HAHAHAHA!!! SAD!
Sunday, March 7, 2010
不对leh
我开始觉得心里有一点不平衡，
想一想， 我有两年，手没有人牵过了。
看到他人成双成对， 看了就眼红。 他妈的。
Fucking hard to blog in chinese... wtf... i see a circle infront... EMO is the signboard...
What is love... do we live for it? can we live without it? do appearance plays a part of it?? wealth??
I'm poor, fat and short... any takers... but i can promise that if i love u... it will be for a long long time....
不对leh... why liddat de... i'm suppose to portrait that i'm very happy... or at least to fake everyone... but i cannot.... there are many things not plan... and since its not plan... who gonna plan it? i didn't plan to plan it thus i cannot start to plan it as i dun have plans to plan anything in the first place... know what i mean??
I dun wanna go out... i dun wanna have fun... i want to fucking work... but what?? i dunno... i'm just fucking bored... ok? nothing is meaningful to me.. what is a meaningful job??
bloody hell shoot me...
想一想， 我有两年，手没有人牵过了。
看到他人成双成对， 看了就眼红。 他妈的。
Fucking hard to blog in chinese... wtf... i see a circle infront... EMO is the signboard...
What is love... do we live for it? can we live without it? do appearance plays a part of it?? wealth??
I'm poor, fat and short... any takers... but i can promise that if i love u... it will be for a long long time....
不对leh... why liddat de... i'm suppose to portrait that i'm very happy... or at least to fake everyone... but i cannot.... there are many things not plan... and since its not plan... who gonna plan it? i didn't plan to plan it thus i cannot start to plan it as i dun have plans to plan anything in the first place... know what i mean??
I dun wanna go out... i dun wanna have fun... i want to fucking work... but what?? i dunno... i'm just fucking bored... ok? nothing is meaningful to me.. what is a meaningful job??
bloody hell shoot me...
Monday, February 22, 2010
Last night i found some interesting notes inside my Ipod... so why not show it then...
Every tears i shed are for the moments i have to spend wihtout you by my side.
The moon light shines on me but what i see is nopt my shadow but a blurry image of you hugging me.
If pain is being without you... would you come back and cure me now?
The rain pours down on me as i stare at my shadow reflected from the street lights wishing the rain could wash away the feeling of missing you.
Sibei EMO.... i am turning from bad to worse...
Every tears i shed are for the moments i have to spend wihtout you by my side.
The moon light shines on me but what i see is nopt my shadow but a blurry image of you hugging me.
If pain is being without you... would you come back and cure me now?
The rain pours down on me as i stare at my shadow reflected from the street lights wishing the rain could wash away the feeling of missing you.
Sibei EMO.... i am turning from bad to worse...
Friday, February 19, 2010
A list of something...
Today i went to dug up a book which refreshes my memories of somethings... it was fun... and maybe i will keep it for further reference just in case i forget how to feel again... but anyway...
Today's my first day of work... kinda stress myself to not slack and work hard... wasn't very good at it but still got a little lucky... phew... money money come in...
I need to make a list of things... like which Korean idol i love the most... oh what the hell might as well do it now...
Best voice : Taeyeon, Jea , BIG MAMA, Kim Yeon Ji
Most Bitchy : Jessica , Lee Hyori.... hehehe XD
Total Whiner : Son GaIn, Hyuna
The More you look, the cuter they get : TIFFANY ( mega crush on her now) , Seohyun, Nicole, Hyuna
Most hated as in really should be gone for good : HyoYeon, Amber ( stop recruiting men into girl groups!!)
Most addicting song : Wedding dress, If, Can you hear me, Byul
WEE!!! life is great for koreans... fucking hell i'm not in korea!
Today's my first day of work... kinda stress myself to not slack and work hard... wasn't very good at it but still got a little lucky... phew... money money come in...
I need to make a list of things... like which Korean idol i love the most... oh what the hell might as well do it now...
Best voice : Taeyeon, Jea , BIG MAMA, Kim Yeon Ji
Most Bitchy : Jessica , Lee Hyori.... hehehe XD
Total Whiner : Son GaIn, Hyuna
The More you look, the cuter they get : TIFFANY ( mega crush on her now) , Seohyun, Nicole, Hyuna
Most hated as in really should be gone for good : HyoYeon, Amber ( stop recruiting men into girl groups!!)
Most addicting song : Wedding dress, If, Can you hear me, Byul
WEE!!! life is great for koreans... fucking hell i'm not in korea!
Saturday, February 13, 2010
Star
I'm sorry... if you didn't remind me... I would have just left you out... many times in life this happens and will continue... we don't cherish what we have and that is you in this case... You like to scold me right!? on msn and in life... saying how important i'm to you... but i didn't cherish... well... its just that no matter how close... guys and girls still have a gap and i'm not a person who shares alot... so it impossible for you to understand me well.. You still want a go? SI EMO KIA...
You nv did snooke me or left me behind did u? i dun rmb when it happened that you did ignored me... my hobby is irritating you... glad to say that... i can only say that life made us who we are and fate isn't on our side to further our friendship much... it always stuck there... deep down... i think we know that there's little we understand about each other...but still if i could rewind time... I'll still wanna make fun of u on the 1st day in class... u si ah lian...
I hope i didn't irritate you (I'm sure did) too badly or was rude to you... i'm a nice and polite person... but looks for unforgiving on me... i got the gift of the gab... but a super emo personality! I hope i can meet again soon... coz chances are sacred now since we grad.... we dun have a place to meet anymore... sobs... pls dun poke fun of me with her... later she siam me again... then i how?
Good Bye GF...
You nv did snooke me or left me behind did u? i dun rmb when it happened that you did ignored me... my hobby is irritating you... glad to say that... i can only say that life made us who we are and fate isn't on our side to further our friendship much... it always stuck there... deep down... i think we know that there's little we understand about each other...but still if i could rewind time... I'll still wanna make fun of u on the 1st day in class... u si ah lian...
I hope i didn't irritate you (I'm sure did) too badly or was rude to you... i'm a nice and polite person... but looks for unforgiving on me... i got the gift of the gab... but a super emo personality! I hope i can meet again soon... coz chances are sacred now since we grad.... we dun have a place to meet anymore... sobs... pls dun poke fun of me with her... later she siam me again... then i how?
Good Bye GF...
Friday, February 12, 2010
Times up
Hello hello, my poly life is finally behind me... I still cannot believe it... feels so unreal but i guess unlike my secondary school days, i don't have the feeling of missing everyone since we were always in different class... the only group that i got more involved with were the HAPPY PILLS... despite i always kena bully and they take me for granted... everything else is fine... but i cannot stand people asking me to shut up... ( that's just way rude ) and i was trying to entertain... if i dun speak... it would be boring wouldn't it? i can do that...
I can't say i was a very good friend... i've been a horrible one to some others... i let some others down but i guess that's just me... i still cherish my friends... but i know in life... if there's a start, there will be an end... same thing to life.. u born and eventually one day... u're gonna leave the world... i want to make my life to have as many happy memories as much as possible...
I can say i made 1 best friends... we're also joking around... being lame... u know who u're! Thx mate... katong laksa soon...
words cannot express my feelings now...
I can't say i was a very good friend... i've been a horrible one to some others... i let some others down but i guess that's just me... i still cherish my friends... but i know in life... if there's a start, there will be an end... same thing to life.. u born and eventually one day... u're gonna leave the world... i want to make my life to have as many happy memories as much as possible...
I can say i made 1 best friends... we're also joking around... being lame... u know who u're! Thx mate... katong laksa soon...
words cannot express my feelings now...
Saturday, February 6, 2010
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
So?
Today i had a day off... no school...
I slept at home all day... it was not fun...
I'm pondering between a office job or my sales job...
NS when will u come exactly... i need to plan out my life
I decided to go for driving lessons...
After 3 years... its finally over... I'm glad...
But not for the things I'll miss out... some people that i like will never see again...
Some that i dun like or dun like me... good for u and me...
More importantly... I am going to miss some of you...
I slept at home all day... it was not fun...
I'm pondering between a office job or my sales job...
NS when will u come exactly... i need to plan out my life
I decided to go for driving lessons...
After 3 years... its finally over... I'm glad...
But not for the things I'll miss out... some people that i like will never see again...
Some that i dun like or dun like me... good for u and me...
More importantly... I am going to miss some of you...
Sunday, January 31, 2010
This is just way WRONG. . . . .
I went home last night.... only to see this ( image below) what the hell is wrong with my bro... luckily its not the maid who did it... phew... huge sign of relieve... =)
Saturday, January 30, 2010
Friday, January 29, 2010
Never forget your roots
In life.. we're clouded by many things, lies, power and money. But we should never let go of our dreams and ambitions... no this isn't another motivation talk...
When i was young i was very short (now i'm just short) ... the adults would tell me that i would grow taller as time passes and mommy have a secret peanut root recipe that she assures us that we ( 3 brothers ) will grow taller ( she didn't say how much -_-" )... i wonder if it has to do with the sequence that who gets to drink it first but then... this is what happened...
A (elder bro) - 174
E (second bro) - 161
S ( youngest bro) - 158
Something is seriously wrong mom... did u dope da ge's soup only and gave me and stan plain water plus soy sauce instead!?!?!?
Life's never fair anyway.... so lets not dwell in the past...
Looking forward or rather thinking back about my dreams and stuff... i suppose i miss many things... suddenly i rmb this one...
Back when i was 18-19... i was in indonesia for 2 month staying with bro richard( cousin) everyday we would, go to his factory and then the driving range ( Golf ) . There's this area that we always drive pass that has lots of private housing.
On this very fateful day,i swear! an angel ascend from the heavens in the form of an indo chinese girl... There she stood... ( actually she was in a daze standing in the front porch of her house ) But her angelic face i cannot forget... Then i swore to brush up my indonesia and find an indo girl friend... well... IT NEVER DID HAPPEN.. YET...
The things is that i totally forgot bout it till now... dreams are so far fetch... but it is achievable ( giving lots of false hope here) ... rmb kids if Barney Stinson ( google this... this rocks) can do any girl... so can U!
When i was young i was very short (now i'm just short) ... the adults would tell me that i would grow taller as time passes and mommy have a secret peanut root recipe that she assures us that we ( 3 brothers ) will grow taller ( she didn't say how much -_-" )... i wonder if it has to do with the sequence that who gets to drink it first but then... this is what happened...
A (elder bro) - 174
E (second bro) - 161
S ( youngest bro) - 158
Something is seriously wrong mom... did u dope da ge's soup only and gave me and stan plain water plus soy sauce instead!?!?!?
Life's never fair anyway.... so lets not dwell in the past...
Looking forward or rather thinking back about my dreams and stuff... i suppose i miss many things... suddenly i rmb this one...
Back when i was 18-19... i was in indonesia for 2 month staying with bro richard( cousin) everyday we would, go to his factory and then the driving range ( Golf ) . There's this area that we always drive pass that has lots of private housing.
On this very fateful day,i swear! an angel ascend from the heavens in the form of an indo chinese girl... There she stood... ( actually she was in a daze standing in the front porch of her house ) But her angelic face i cannot forget... Then i swore to brush up my indonesia and find an indo girl friend... well... IT NEVER DID HAPPEN.. YET...
The things is that i totally forgot bout it till now... dreams are so far fetch... but it is achievable ( giving lots of false hope here) ... rmb kids if Barney Stinson ( google this... this rocks) can do any girl... so can U!
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
FOOD!
Someday i gonna be so sick of food... infact today is a good day but it just doesn't seems to be happening... i ate and ate and ate the entire day... woke up late for adv mat... was thinking of going for 3rd meeting coz that was lab but as usual... when something is about to end... my beloved brain will start to filter out stuff for me
( brain washing of the heart in process)
whoaaaa... u see ah.... so late le... u go or dun go also the same de la... go school to makan la ... at least can siam staying at home... can ask your frenz to pon with u too...
( brain washing of the heart completed )
thus today i went to sch to join amelia, dan and hui ling juz to makan... went into the canteen and have to decide what to eat.... recently always eat at the food haven canteen... anymore really will go to heaven... assuming that there's 10 stores... maybe only 3 can eat... wanted to eat economical rice but 3 years le... still the same dishes....
( SHOUT OUT TO VENTOR) siao ah.... 你不 sianz huh!?!?! 我吃得很 sianz 了阿 !!!
then dan say go to eat ayam penyet... i was thinking of having ayam gulai... but when i queue up... the person infront ordered ayam penyet... then i was like.... wow.... lets eat ayam penyet instead...
dear amelia who was having alot of cravings over her western food... saw our food when she came to the table and then... she wanted to eat ayam penyet too!! but then soon another person came with fish and chips and immediately i could tell she wanted to eat that... not to mention suki yaki in thursday was well..
soon they psycho everyone to pon class... then for some reason...we went to peggy's for steamboat... the butter that was used to grill was a killer... well.. at least for me it was.. the other was enjoying it... i was trying to catch my breathe and not puke in her hse... (-_-")
Then i rmb that mom's gonna cook katsu curry tonight.. wtf??? again... meal every 2 hrs interval is a little too extreme
I ate when i got home...struggling to shove it down my throat... took a nap soon... next thing i know... its was ard 10 when i woke up... play some nonsense game.... then mom came home... insisting that i eat the mee soto she bought... well... that's another one down my stomach then...
for those who are saying what a pig i am... be sure to know that i'm currently having the runs... too much food.. i can see my belly protruding out more than usual today.... ouch!!!
( brain washing of the heart in process)
whoaaaa... u see ah.... so late le... u go or dun go also the same de la... go school to makan la ... at least can siam staying at home... can ask your frenz to pon with u too...
( brain washing of the heart completed )
thus today i went to sch to join amelia, dan and hui ling juz to makan... went into the canteen and have to decide what to eat.... recently always eat at the food haven canteen... anymore really will go to heaven... assuming that there's 10 stores... maybe only 3 can eat... wanted to eat economical rice but 3 years le... still the same dishes....
( SHOUT OUT TO VENTOR) siao ah.... 你不 sianz huh!?!?! 我吃得很 sianz 了阿 !!!
then dan say go to eat ayam penyet... i was thinking of having ayam gulai... but when i queue up... the person infront ordered ayam penyet... then i was like.... wow.... lets eat ayam penyet instead...
dear amelia who was having alot of cravings over her western food... saw our food when she came to the table and then... she wanted to eat ayam penyet too!! but then soon another person came with fish and chips and immediately i could tell she wanted to eat that... not to mention suki yaki in thursday was well..
soon they psycho everyone to pon class... then for some reason...we went to peggy's for steamboat... the butter that was used to grill was a killer... well.. at least for me it was.. the other was enjoying it... i was trying to catch my breathe and not puke in her hse... (-_-")
Then i rmb that mom's gonna cook katsu curry tonight.. wtf??? again... meal every 2 hrs interval is a little too extreme
I ate when i got home...struggling to shove it down my throat... took a nap soon... next thing i know... its was ard 10 when i woke up... play some nonsense game.... then mom came home... insisting that i eat the mee soto she bought... well... that's another one down my stomach then...
for those who are saying what a pig i am... be sure to know that i'm currently having the runs... too much food.. i can see my belly protruding out more than usual today.... ouch!!!
Sunday, January 24, 2010
it finally came...
well well well.... finally when i listen to chinese emo songs... i stop relating them to my past... i still enjoy them... but i do not put myself in their shoes... unless its gonna be about unable to find true love... or someone to love...
Around the globe... there must be a her worthy of my heart to yearn for... someone that fries my brain out with romantic ideas if winning her over... perhaps it isn't the time yet... or she maybe around but i have yet to realise....
Maybe i got very good friends that i made in school and i neglected them... the idea of having many friends is not appealing to me... as i need quite abit of time to myself... but i won't reject them... if girls have GFF/BFF then guys have brothers... not the blood related type but those even closer... it a world out there and men have it the hard way...
i sat on the bus home after work... felt kinda sad... thinking how come i've been working for so long and yet still so poor... some people have it the easy way... some the extremely difficult like me... i'm still grateful for my parents trying their best to support us through the thick and thins... but how can i ever repay them for how much they sacrifice for us.... u see life isn't fair.. we live too shortly for anything to happen...
i need to work hard after i grad... earn lots before i go into my "conscription".. get my life out of the fucking hell hole once and for all... god damn it~
Around the globe... there must be a her worthy of my heart to yearn for... someone that fries my brain out with romantic ideas if winning her over... perhaps it isn't the time yet... or she maybe around but i have yet to realise....
Maybe i got very good friends that i made in school and i neglected them... the idea of having many friends is not appealing to me... as i need quite abit of time to myself... but i won't reject them... if girls have GFF/BFF then guys have brothers... not the blood related type but those even closer... it a world out there and men have it the hard way...
i sat on the bus home after work... felt kinda sad... thinking how come i've been working for so long and yet still so poor... some people have it the easy way... some the extremely difficult like me... i'm still grateful for my parents trying their best to support us through the thick and thins... but how can i ever repay them for how much they sacrifice for us.... u see life isn't fair.. we live too shortly for anything to happen...
i need to work hard after i grad... earn lots before i go into my "conscription".. get my life out of the fucking hell hole once and for all... god damn it~
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
어쩌다
How come my hand always so itchy?? I go and click on her profile and see things that saddens me...
It been always 2 years and well... they are still tgt and happier as ever...
I been used, stepped on and most obviously discarded...
I began to realize that looks doesn't matter... coz in that department.... i easier lead in any area...
What kind of charm does a 30 plus man have on a 20 plus lady??
Somethings i cannot explain anymore...
God played a serious joke on me through my whole life... lift me to the higher of the peaks and dump me back into the depths of hell...
EUGENE TEO! pls spare yourself and forget about it already... this life aint no fairy tale and you jolly well know it... do not waste seek an tree when you're swimming in a forest... just look around... if a rose with thorns pricked you... then go for a much more gentle and warming sunflower...
if you can save yourself... you can finally be liberated of this damn curse...
Tears won't save you tonight.. nothing will... every drop of alcohol awakens your consciousness...
The cycle of suffering is starting to continue... from where i left behind 2 years ago..
2 bloody years.... not entire a very long period but more or less depressing... a lot of things have happen and i got use to life without you...
I dun know if i still love you... but i dun miss you anymore all that much... i juz need a confirmation from my heart...
heart can you pls release the grip... i cannot bare living my life like this... Its really time to move on....
From today onwards... NO MORE... 7 forbidden letters in my life... C.A.N.D.A.C.E..dun let the words connect.. dun never ever let them hinder your life or even cloud your judgment..
She just a part of history in your life... not gonna be a part of it in the future...
Heartless and cruelty she leave you in a lurch... you were left to pick up the pieces from scratch and your brother is fucking right... you have to MOVE ON...
I'm sick and tired of thinking about you... perhaps its right for you to totally evanescence in my life... perhaps you know what might happen if we continue to keep in contact or even if it is his idea of you doing...
I wish you can find your happiness... and perhaps in him... ( but deep down fucking not.. if i can choose to kill someone... you jolly well know it will be him)
I must now live for myself... not anymore for you.. never again...
dumping all our memories... dumping all the hugs and kisses.. dumping all our belongings...
Good Bye. . . . . . . . . . . . . .
It been always 2 years and well... they are still tgt and happier as ever...
I been used, stepped on and most obviously discarded...
I began to realize that looks doesn't matter... coz in that department.... i easier lead in any area...
What kind of charm does a 30 plus man have on a 20 plus lady??
Somethings i cannot explain anymore...
God played a serious joke on me through my whole life... lift me to the higher of the peaks and dump me back into the depths of hell...
EUGENE TEO! pls spare yourself and forget about it already... this life aint no fairy tale and you jolly well know it... do not waste seek an tree when you're swimming in a forest... just look around... if a rose with thorns pricked you... then go for a much more gentle and warming sunflower...
if you can save yourself... you can finally be liberated of this damn curse...
Tears won't save you tonight.. nothing will... every drop of alcohol awakens your consciousness...
The cycle of suffering is starting to continue... from where i left behind 2 years ago..
2 bloody years.... not entire a very long period but more or less depressing... a lot of things have happen and i got use to life without you...
I dun know if i still love you... but i dun miss you anymore all that much... i juz need a confirmation from my heart...
heart can you pls release the grip... i cannot bare living my life like this... Its really time to move on....
From today onwards... NO MORE... 7 forbidden letters in my life... C.A.N.D.A.C.E..dun let the words connect.. dun never ever let them hinder your life or even cloud your judgment..
She just a part of history in your life... not gonna be a part of it in the future...
Heartless and cruelty she leave you in a lurch... you were left to pick up the pieces from scratch and your brother is fucking right... you have to MOVE ON...
I'm sick and tired of thinking about you... perhaps its right for you to totally evanescence in my life... perhaps you know what might happen if we continue to keep in contact or even if it is his idea of you doing...
I wish you can find your happiness... and perhaps in him... ( but deep down fucking not.. if i can choose to kill someone... you jolly well know it will be him)
I must now live for myself... not anymore for you.. never again...
dumping all our memories... dumping all the hugs and kisses.. dumping all our belongings...
Good Bye. . . . . . . . . . . . . .
Friday, January 15, 2010
Mixed Feelings
In less than a month's time... it will be all over... no more travelling to woodlands... no more pbl... NO MORE FRIENDS?? i guess it inevitable... in my 3 years i made a hell lot of friends and lose some due to dumb stuff and my 'awesome' personality...
I still want to constantly see some of them and i do know that when its all over.... its all over... so now i got 3 more weeks to go to 'heartless' mode so i won't miss them... i hate the feeling of missing someone and i got no reason to even see them... they probably reject me even if i ask them out...
FYI... most of them or rather all that i will miss are girls...
Time to move on with our life... i wish everyone all the best in everything you do... be it finding a rich spourse... working in the wet market or even committing suicide...
May all of you be successful...
I still want to constantly see some of them and i do know that when its all over.... its all over... so now i got 3 more weeks to go to 'heartless' mode so i won't miss them... i hate the feeling of missing someone and i got no reason to even see them... they probably reject me even if i ask them out...
FYI... most of them or rather all that i will miss are girls...
Time to move on with our life... i wish everyone all the best in everything you do... be it finding a rich spourse... working in the wet market or even committing suicide...
May all of you be successful...
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