why am i not?

Why am i not musically talented??? i have a guitar with no strings and there's still many language i want to learn but i just don't have the money... I guess having a dream and living it is totally different... luckily the stuff that i set can be accomplished...


I count my days now... how long have i slack... i ask myself... turns out to be a lot... after meeting her ytd... i realise that i'm beginning to become super boring... its use to be grey now its black...

My black black heart~~~ (sing along session...) why won't u offer more... why won't you make it easier on me . . . . ~ ~ ~ ~ !

TKR

I'm counting the days for a new... TKR...

fuckin shit... its killing me... btw... TKR is total knee replacement..

Or its just my nerves being press against whenever i bend my knees...

NOT COOL...

I don't understand... why am i born into this family...?? not so American / Australia family??? Its not that i dun love my family but i just wonder why...

Out of everywhere a small dot like Singapore??? where the weather is hot and the people are not even laid back and we're a freaking aging population...

Why strike rich... we all know that doing pure honest work is not the way to do it... it has been proven... EVERYWHERE... people who are nice and all goes bankrupt... people who are not " nice " makes a run for it and they manage to escape with their partners money and succeed somewhere else.. returning 10 years later as a tycoon... see what i mean???

i wanna be evil for that reason... *smiles*...

Post 151 - a new milestone in life...

I am still alive... but not very much... then again... is it even possible to be like me??

Post #150

Ok this is my 150 post and to mark that mile stone, i would like to tell everyone that. . . . .

I'M GOING NUTS... CONGRATZ EVERYONE...

Dreams are the best... i wanna sleep for a long time but i still want to wake up thou...

Over the last week, i dream that i had girlfriends!! YEAH!! not 1, not 2 but 3! on 3 different occasions...

since that is the case... its been bugging me ever since... when can i ever have that feeling again???

But i'm waiting for the right 1? i can't possible aim at everyone right? what if everyone just runs away? HAHAHAHAHA!!!

But then again what if 'she' has already appear but i just haven't realize... and now i got no money to ask anyone out for dates....

HAHAHAHA!!! SAD!

不对leh

我开始觉得心里有一点不平衡，

想一想， 我有两年，手没有人牵过了。

看到他人成双成对， 看了就眼红。 他妈的。

Fucking hard to blog in chinese... wtf... i see a circle infront... EMO is the signboard...

What is love... do we live for it? can we live without it? do appearance plays a part of it?? wealth??

I'm poor, fat and short... any takers... but i can promise that if i love u... it will be for a long long time....

不对leh... why liddat de... i'm suppose to portrait that i'm very happy... or at least to fake everyone... but i cannot.... there are many things not plan... and since its not plan... who gonna plan it? i didn't plan to plan it thus i cannot start to plan it as i dun have plans to plan anything in the first place... know what i mean??

I dun wanna go out... i dun wanna have fun... i want to fucking work... but what?? i dunno... i'm just fucking bored... ok? nothing is meaningful to me.. what is a meaningful job??

bloody hell shoot me...