Well Well Well, guess what? it's X'mas again? have i been a bad boy this year?? ( i clearly have been) The year is almost over and its time to reflect again. . .Many things happened this year, a lot of things beyond my control and a lot more that was in my control but i screwed up! Now its time to recap the top 10 most happening or (unhappening) stuff that had happen.
Firstly the 5 nicest stuff that have happened ^3^
1. Met Rene noona in Korea! =)
2. Form the 小丸子 brotherhood in Korea! and other more friends after that!
3. T-express... my first roller coaster ride!
4. addiction to K-POP!!!
5. last but not least... i think i found her. . . someone i wanna be with...
Next the top 5 things to never remember -_-"
1. Got drunk in Korea ( pls nv remind me again)
2. Got to know some pig
3. Clique destroyed! ) not like i really care now or even then )
4. Almost broke my fucking left knee! ouch!
5. Trust is an easily broken thing.. every year its the same shit
Every year i aim for the same thing... to have a X'mas trees with nice lights, freezing weather sitting by the fire place hugging onto her... can santa pls tell me when it will happen? Since last year, i clearly rmb that you left out my present... when i even told u what to give me as u got lots of ppl to settle and so as to not confuse u, i told u what i wanted... and u forgot ( shake head) ... last year i wanted u to make the 4D number to my favour but it never did happen... this year... can i pls have a chance to be with her? Please Santa... i need something simple... something that won't cause u a single cent... LOVE!
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
Monday, October 19, 2009
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
She'll be loved ??
Currently addicted to Kpop... stuffing my ipod with videos of SNSD, 2NE1, Kara, Brown Eyed Girls, 4 Minutes and some others too... Since my return from korea, its been 20 days. Why does 20 days feels so long? i wonder how Noona is doing there, hope she's fine... =D
Again, have i been decieved by my never ending flickering heart?? why don't i miss Noona like 20 days ago? Time has again destroyed my time, distance is playing games with me, My life is a joke... tonight i think i offended my best friend, she ask me to die alone... perhaps i have nothing i want to hold on. If i were to die now, will i have regrets? will i have a last wish granted? what will i want?
Behind my mask, you can see an empty soul, behind my skin, lies a rotten corpse, deep inside my heart, it cold and tore apart in many many little pieces, will someone in angelic wings come mend it with needles and thread?
Am i going to spend my life wasted? i wanna inject myself with mercury, i die a blue death due to heavy metal poisoning...
why is the itunes playing " you raise me up" ?
you raise me up so can stand on mountains? i got no mountains in life i want to conquer
you raise me up to wake on stormy seas ? i cannot swim for shit
I'm useless?
Time to time i ponder... what is love... today i realise after almost 2 years, i don't know love,
6th days ago would be our 2nd year tgt, if we were tgt. . . . . . Thanks for destroying me with me once and for all..
I loved You. . . . . .
Again, have i been decieved by my never ending flickering heart?? why don't i miss Noona like 20 days ago? Time has again destroyed my time, distance is playing games with me, My life is a joke... tonight i think i offended my best friend, she ask me to die alone... perhaps i have nothing i want to hold on. If i were to die now, will i have regrets? will i have a last wish granted? what will i want?
Behind my mask, you can see an empty soul, behind my skin, lies a rotten corpse, deep inside my heart, it cold and tore apart in many many little pieces, will someone in angelic wings come mend it with needles and thread?
Am i going to spend my life wasted? i wanna inject myself with mercury, i die a blue death due to heavy metal poisoning...
why is the itunes playing " you raise me up" ?
you raise me up so can stand on mountains? i got no mountains in life i want to conquer
you raise me up to wake on stormy seas ? i cannot swim for shit
I'm useless?
Time to time i ponder... what is love... today i realise after almost 2 years, i don't know love,
6th days ago would be our 2nd year tgt, if we were tgt. . . . . . Thanks for destroying me with me once and for all..
I loved You. . . . . .
Thursday, October 1, 2009
Sometimes it's better to just play dead
click click click, i saw something or rather someone... i've not been in contact with for the longest of times... i saw some pictures, i start to think, i start to ponder, i start to regret... why muz i fucking go see her profile? i'm glad thot... that ass looks so fucking ugly as usual... as if he's cursed! HAHA! but i guess i gotten over the fact that they are together... but still, i'll not give them my blessing...
when life turns to the depth of hell, she leave me, when it stays there, she dissappeared on me, now when i finally love somebody, she's freaking far away, and then i see this!? can i please reset time? i can still do so much, i can correct the mistakes, i can save my life and live with no regrets.
I'm still in korea, i dun wanna come back... noona misses me and i miss her too... can i give it my all for her? its foolish on my part, i'm just the 'brother' and whatever i do.. nv will stand? is it even love? i'm sure i feel this way a couple of times before... worst still it was my cousin perhaps... why are we cousin? everything is so fucking forbidden in my life!
when life turns to the depth of hell, she leave me, when it stays there, she dissappeared on me, now when i finally love somebody, she's freaking far away, and then i see this!? can i please reset time? i can still do so much, i can correct the mistakes, i can save my life and live with no regrets.
I'm still in korea, i dun wanna come back... noona misses me and i miss her too... can i give it my all for her? its foolish on my part, i'm just the 'brother' and whatever i do.. nv will stand? is it even love? i'm sure i feel this way a couple of times before... worst still it was my cousin perhaps... why are we cousin? everything is so fucking forbidden in my life!
Saturday, September 26, 2009
Happy?
How can a person be happy when he spend ALL his life drown in his own world and all he listens to, are sad music? i "woke up" one day, sulking from my music playlist, isn't there anything happy to listen besides sad melodies and breaking up songs? The other were love songs, slow jazz and metal full of hatred.
How low can i sink now? i went to work yesterday telling myself that i need to move on with my life , i shall not complain anymore, it's up to me to improve my life, time to try lots of things out? even if it tired me out? Once and for all i want to settle this, when i go into the army next year, i'm so going to tell all my injuries and report them one by one but i'm still able to exercise, i'm going to prove it. However to make it all work out, i need the support of my friends. Going to exercise alot is never easy, emo-ing alone is.
I'm gonna earn alot of money, i let fate drag me along too far, its time i break through. this time i need it to be a master of my life, no more empty bank account at the end of the month, no more saving money, no more getting laugh at over my weight but height i cannot do anything. insoles perhaps?
I hereby challenge LIFE, come on! BRING IT ON!
How low can i sink now? i went to work yesterday telling myself that i need to move on with my life , i shall not complain anymore, it's up to me to improve my life, time to try lots of things out? even if it tired me out? Once and for all i want to settle this, when i go into the army next year, i'm so going to tell all my injuries and report them one by one but i'm still able to exercise, i'm going to prove it. However to make it all work out, i need the support of my friends. Going to exercise alot is never easy, emo-ing alone is.
I'm gonna earn alot of money, i let fate drag me along too far, its time i break through. this time i need it to be a master of my life, no more empty bank account at the end of the month, no more saving money, no more getting laugh at over my weight but height i cannot do anything. insoles perhaps?
I hereby challenge LIFE, come on! BRING IT ON!
Thursday, September 24, 2009
It's a miracle! Almost so perfect ^^
Last night, i was revitalize! its was her on Fb, yes! we had a nice chat of course, my image was still pretty good! whahahahaha!! she can survive without the internet, that's not good, whenever i'm hook up, it's her i think of! i'm one step closer to noona. YEAH!!
Boom...! today L.O.V.E is in the air! i feel not so lost today, a clear path was shown by the cupids to me!
Little cupids, will you guide me to her and let me stay there forever?
A Picture of her, No one know i got this, so lets keep it a secret =)
Boom...! today L.O.V.E is in the air! i feel not so lost today, a clear path was shown by the cupids to me!
Little cupids, will you guide me to her and let me stay there forever?
A Picture of her, No one know i got this, so lets keep it a secret =)can you feel the heartache tonight?
I visited a land, few thousand miles away from mine, 2901.43 miles to be exact, far away in a land that i never been before, i found something that will last me a life time, a memory, a story to tell, a tale that might be forgotten. Perhaps, perhaps its was fate that brought me that, it was fate that drawn me to her and fate is now the cruel factor that leave me torn and broken apart.
Was it love? Maybe it was due to the fact that i might never see her again, maybe it was because I'm starting to get use to her saying Ann-Yeong (good night) to me before i go to bed. My dumb dumb heart felt something as i was about to leave, it was a heart filled with heartache and misery and the feeling of missing someone, i wanna hear her voice again!! i wanna share alot of things to her and now, all i have is my email which she has yet to reply. On the day i came back, i couldn't stand that feeling of missing someone, never thot that i 'll feel so miserable again after losing candace.
But i can do nothing, i cannot say i wanna abandon my life here and go search for her, she has her life there and worst part, this is one sided. Many things tell me its not gonna be possible for me, but i tried so long and so hard for my dead heart to finally love and admire someone, should i just give up? i still have a long long way to go in life and she? she is near the marriage age. is 6 years gonna be a barrier and then there's the language barrier, height barrier or even looks.
how fair is life to me? i'm poor, short and ugly plus fat and someone else might just have the opposite. i live in a country where i have to serve a 2 life jail life where others could have gone so far with that time? i'm no longer young and i have accomplish nothing?
I don't wanna give up but even my buddy tells me to be realistic. what is reality? a world feels with misery? i wanna live in my own fantasy, to have a dream or even mulitple dreams, i need to be ensure that i might get results, i don't wanna risk it all, if i fail i need a back up plan but that is not applicable in love.
what is l.o.v.e ? love is being lost over various emotions, a path of confusing and hurt, a road where the ending is usually the end of many other things and i have to endure this torment? I board the bus feeling lonely and miserable, i would like some companion, i use to love bus journeys, now i dread about going onto a bus... i need it.. i need a companion. i need her.
Perhaps all these are just lies conjured up in my life to love again, come to think of it, candace has move on, maybe she's still with that guy maybe she's not, perhaps its my turn to forgive myself, to let go of myself, to help myself, WHAT IS IT!? WHAT IS THE ANSWER!?!?!? DO I PITY MY SELF!?!?!?
Fuck it! i love her now... even if it doesn't last or even if its just a crush!? i HATE myself!
BANG!!! AI YA!!
Was it love? Maybe it was due to the fact that i might never see her again, maybe it was because I'm starting to get use to her saying Ann-Yeong (good night) to me before i go to bed. My dumb dumb heart felt something as i was about to leave, it was a heart filled with heartache and misery and the feeling of missing someone, i wanna hear her voice again!! i wanna share alot of things to her and now, all i have is my email which she has yet to reply. On the day i came back, i couldn't stand that feeling of missing someone, never thot that i 'll feel so miserable again after losing candace.
But i can do nothing, i cannot say i wanna abandon my life here and go search for her, she has her life there and worst part, this is one sided. Many things tell me its not gonna be possible for me, but i tried so long and so hard for my dead heart to finally love and admire someone, should i just give up? i still have a long long way to go in life and she? she is near the marriage age. is 6 years gonna be a barrier and then there's the language barrier, height barrier or even looks.
how fair is life to me? i'm poor, short and ugly plus fat and someone else might just have the opposite. i live in a country where i have to serve a 2 life jail life where others could have gone so far with that time? i'm no longer young and i have accomplish nothing?
I don't wanna give up but even my buddy tells me to be realistic. what is reality? a world feels with misery? i wanna live in my own fantasy, to have a dream or even mulitple dreams, i need to be ensure that i might get results, i don't wanna risk it all, if i fail i need a back up plan but that is not applicable in love.
what is l.o.v.e ? love is being lost over various emotions, a path of confusing and hurt, a road where the ending is usually the end of many other things and i have to endure this torment? I board the bus feeling lonely and miserable, i would like some companion, i use to love bus journeys, now i dread about going onto a bus... i need it.. i need a companion. i need her.
Perhaps all these are just lies conjured up in my life to love again, come to think of it, candace has move on, maybe she's still with that guy maybe she's not, perhaps its my turn to forgive myself, to let go of myself, to help myself, WHAT IS IT!? WHAT IS THE ANSWER!?!?!? DO I PITY MY SELF!?!?!?
Fuck it! i love her now... even if it doesn't last or even if its just a crush!? i HATE myself!
BANG!!! AI YA!!
Friday, September 4, 2009
A fucked up person that i've known for 22 years...
Why am i so fucked up... ??
Am i being difficult... yes
What do i want... i dunno
Will i change... hard to say
I starting to ponder how my mind works... why must it be so fucked up... i know the things i say and do, hurts her but something changed along... even if she is still the same person, somethings cannot be done in the same way again... many times i tell myself that i should be a whole lot nicer to her but i cannot...
Firstly, there really isn't much of a topic between us... it just for the sake of doing something we gathered... i use to talk 'crap' in a certain way with her but now it is impossible to do so... i can't do back the same things i always do... just doesn't feel right anymore...
Awkward and silence is the 2 things to describe it... to being with... if we don't click very well... there really isn't much for us to say... secondly... there's something about girls who are attached that keeps me away from them... The problem lies with me... i think i've got a huge piece of rock on my chest and that i have no strength to remove it...
I hope that if she reads this post , she would understand... but then again.. she probably won't know it's her and whatever i am saying...
I wanna apologize... but i just can't say this out...
can i say it here instead!?
I'm SORRY! but i dunno whether i will change or not...
I'm too complicated to know myself...
Am i being difficult... yes
What do i want... i dunno
Will i change... hard to say
I starting to ponder how my mind works... why must it be so fucked up... i know the things i say and do, hurts her but something changed along... even if she is still the same person, somethings cannot be done in the same way again... many times i tell myself that i should be a whole lot nicer to her but i cannot...
Firstly, there really isn't much of a topic between us... it just for the sake of doing something we gathered... i use to talk 'crap' in a certain way with her but now it is impossible to do so... i can't do back the same things i always do... just doesn't feel right anymore...
Awkward and silence is the 2 things to describe it... to being with... if we don't click very well... there really isn't much for us to say... secondly... there's something about girls who are attached that keeps me away from them... The problem lies with me... i think i've got a huge piece of rock on my chest and that i have no strength to remove it...
I hope that if she reads this post , she would understand... but then again.. she probably won't know it's her and whatever i am saying...
I wanna apologize... but i just can't say this out...
can i say it here instead!?
I'm SORRY! but i dunno whether i will change or not...
I'm too complicated to know myself...
Monday, August 24, 2009
4 letters that will last Eternally..
Guess, and the answer is TIME, counting down my days to schedule wedding, my ideal job, my dream home, my holidays and even the country that i want to stay in. I must say.. one life time to accomplish it, is just not even... there is just some much i want, is it call greed, NO. i want to achieve it by my own means but i guess, i can only do so much.
I need more time, i have yet to travel the world, yet to do a lot of things, why am i condemn in this pathetic place, if i was both somewhere better with more opportunities, life would be different, so much different.
Who the fuck decides where am i born? stupid people go around thinking and preaching, god is fair. stupid.. is it far for u to be born in war torn countries... try telling that to them and see what happens to u. do u believe in ghost? do u believe in god? you might have encounter some thing freaky and explainable. If it's good the word to describe it is GOD, if it is bad then the word is Ghost / Satan / Evil. You see many ways to describe something bad very little to something good. why? because humans have the thinking that its already good, if i change it, it might become bad. so lets not touch it.
I SAY SHALLOW. so pls fuck off...
I need more time, i have yet to travel the world, yet to do a lot of things, why am i condemn in this pathetic place, if i was both somewhere better with more opportunities, life would be different, so much different.
Who the fuck decides where am i born? stupid people go around thinking and preaching, god is fair. stupid.. is it far for u to be born in war torn countries... try telling that to them and see what happens to u. do u believe in ghost? do u believe in god? you might have encounter some thing freaky and explainable. If it's good the word to describe it is GOD, if it is bad then the word is Ghost / Satan / Evil. You see many ways to describe something bad very little to something good. why? because humans have the thinking that its already good, if i change it, it might become bad. so lets not touch it.
I SAY SHALLOW. so pls fuck off...
Monday, August 10, 2009
No more
I sense it, can you? a new nation of suicidal youth? well, in japan, there have been ppl meeting up tgt to commit suicide. actually the word commit suicide.. hmmm... why commit, is it a crime? well it is if you fail to take your life in sg, now even the government decides on ur life. True slaves for life.
Anyway, the reason for this entry is because of what i saw on msn just now. Everyone's Pm is emo. hurt, jealousy, hatred and guilt took up 95% of everyone nick, 4% didn't have a nick and 1% was all happy and stuff. seriously... not joking only 1 % were happy. tells alot about how people are feeling nowadays.
I emo-ed for like 2 weeks, meaningless meaningless life, life nv fail to demoralise me. tearing my little heart piece by piece. I want to grow wings all of a sudden and fly away to somewhere i can call home. be it a desert or island in the middle of no where. Where i can fully relax myself and not worry bout the world.
Who invented money, what a bastard. curse u! stealing is fun! lets all steal instead.
Anyway, the reason for this entry is because of what i saw on msn just now. Everyone's Pm is emo. hurt, jealousy, hatred and guilt took up 95% of everyone nick, 4% didn't have a nick and 1% was all happy and stuff. seriously... not joking only 1 % were happy. tells alot about how people are feeling nowadays.
I emo-ed for like 2 weeks, meaningless meaningless life, life nv fail to demoralise me. tearing my little heart piece by piece. I want to grow wings all of a sudden and fly away to somewhere i can call home. be it a desert or island in the middle of no where. Where i can fully relax myself and not worry bout the world.
Who invented money, what a bastard. curse u! stealing is fun! lets all steal instead.
Thursday, July 30, 2009
Sg is -_-
Well Well Well... last night i tried to download a very retro song from the internet, 爱你不是爱给别人看 and guess what... it was no where to be found... wtf!? cannot go by torrent, website like sogou also dun have... in the end... thx to real player... i download a flv file... WEE!!! but then... the conversion part was a sucker... took me 20 mins to find a good and free converter... in which i quickly converted the file to AAC... just in case... KNN... the internet is sucky in retro stuff...
Life is a rollercoaster... but i want mine to be all ups... can i ? never the less... i want a quiet and peaceful life... doing the things i want to... ignoring the people i want to... being less hypocritical in life even if its fun... i still wanna try drugs... at least once...
Marilyn Manson, (Coma White) : A pill that makes you numb, A pill that makes you dumb... A pill that makes you anybody else.
Ain't pills great... My life has reach a point where i'm starting to drown in the gray area... i see no future.. am i discarded? i think i'm by my own self... BANG! BANG! shit...!! i'm shoot in the heart... twice in the same wound? both physically and emotionally?? juz let me die....
LALALA!! SPLASH SPLASH... i love to play with water and then drown someone in it... watching the person struggle is kinda fun... LALALA!
Ok... random...so random... what is my blog still existing? world mystery that can never be solved....
Life is a rollercoaster... but i want mine to be all ups... can i ? never the less... i want a quiet and peaceful life... doing the things i want to... ignoring the people i want to... being less hypocritical in life even if its fun... i still wanna try drugs... at least once...
Marilyn Manson, (Coma White) : A pill that makes you numb, A pill that makes you dumb... A pill that makes you anybody else.
Ain't pills great... My life has reach a point where i'm starting to drown in the gray area... i see no future.. am i discarded? i think i'm by my own self... BANG! BANG! shit...!! i'm shoot in the heart... twice in the same wound? both physically and emotionally?? juz let me die....
LALALA!! SPLASH SPLASH... i love to play with water and then drown someone in it... watching the person struggle is kinda fun... LALALA!
Ok... random...so random... what is my blog still existing? world mystery that can never be solved....
Thursday, July 9, 2009
1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9
See those numbers above... they are called choices... i can try all but only choose 1... but the thing is that the numbers will also choose me... only 1 is destine for me... life is full of ups and lows and there is also the middle... One min u're king of the world... next...The king of the damn... or u can juz be plain simple and retarded...
Tick tock tick tock... dong dong dong...! the clock strikes 12... u start staring into the distant... black mist covered the field of flowers in front of u... the girls who always stands there around this time isn't longer there... you turn your head and what's facing u is another high and dilapidated wall... soon to crumble... that is your past... just look up... the light is shining in your face... you can't turn back you can't go straight... what do u do... Suddenly a hand reaches towards you...
Skin so soft... a gentle touch, you can't see her face but you felt the warmth that she radiates.. you're getting addicted... you try to search for her face... you pull her close... her smile captivates you... angel wings revealed themselves infront of u... a sight so majestic that even the withered flowers came back alive...
L.O.V.E
This was meant to be... is this the beganing... but... it feel like the end as well... she had to go... you're holding her back but you have yet to try... how do u say? how would u react? she tries to leave... you hold on tighter... she looks into your eyes... your tears rolled down your face... are these tears of hope or sorrow...? you began to ponder... She kisses you on your forehead...
you let go and she was gone... forever...
Tick tock tick tock... dong dong dong...! the clock strikes 12... u start staring into the distant... black mist covered the field of flowers in front of u... the girls who always stands there around this time isn't longer there... you turn your head and what's facing u is another high and dilapidated wall... soon to crumble... that is your past... just look up... the light is shining in your face... you can't turn back you can't go straight... what do u do... Suddenly a hand reaches towards you...
Skin so soft... a gentle touch, you can't see her face but you felt the warmth that she radiates.. you're getting addicted... you try to search for her face... you pull her close... her smile captivates you... angel wings revealed themselves infront of u... a sight so majestic that even the withered flowers came back alive...
L.O.V.E
This was meant to be... is this the beganing... but... it feel like the end as well... she had to go... you're holding her back but you have yet to try... how do u say? how would u react? she tries to leave... you hold on tighter... she looks into your eyes... your tears rolled down your face... are these tears of hope or sorrow...? you began to ponder... She kisses you on your forehead...
you let go and she was gone... forever...
Monday, July 6, 2009
It's that time of the year again...
I'm still waiting for someone special to celebrate my birthday with me... someone who will plan something secretive for me and make me go with a big surprise... however, even if it's just some simple dinner and a night at home watching a movie together would be fine... am i asking for much? i dun think so... 22 in 9 hrs time... this wish will not come true again this year...
I am simple and do not need much to survive. Just a little more to light up my days...
I am simple and do not need much to survive. Just a little more to light up my days...
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
Fly Fly into the Moon...
I want to return to the quiet days where I'm all alone...
I loved the way when we're together... I hated the day we parted...
I seek for the excitement of falling in love... I found disappointment when I realize that none were like you...
I want you... but i don't want your replacement...
Maybe to me you were the one... I hope i can be someone the one...
I love the thing i do with you... I hope i can do things that i haven done with someone else and find new hope...
I look into your eyes that night and you caught my heart along with my soul... i have yet to find another pair of eyes that are as mesmerizing as yours...
I listen to 80's rock for those songs spoke off how my long for you... i listen to metal to feed the demon that is inside of me...
Sometimes i still walk past your place once in a while... hoping that i can see your face again... it been more than a year since i heard of your voice...
Are you still with him? is this fate that i end myself with just you... if this is fate... can i have another go?
Or am i wanting to get back to you cause i fail at trying to court someone else... i still remember how my heartaches every moment when you left...
Felt like a car crash... felt like a fatal stab into the heart... felt like getting buried alive...
I gave you roses... you return me tears... my own tears...
i sacrifice my all for you...you sacrifice me for him...
I still cannot understand why... I though our love is possible to overcome all...
The remedy will be the meeting of you... will i crumble? will i collapse? will i prevail?
My wings are tore off my back.... i flew above you as your guardian angel but no more....
I'm an insect in a container with the lip closed... and thrown into the sea...
I float from day to day wanting for someone to release me... like a genie in a bottle...
I loved the way when we're together... I hated the day we parted...
I seek for the excitement of falling in love... I found disappointment when I realize that none were like you...
I want you... but i don't want your replacement...
Maybe to me you were the one... I hope i can be someone the one...
I love the thing i do with you... I hope i can do things that i haven done with someone else and find new hope...
I look into your eyes that night and you caught my heart along with my soul... i have yet to find another pair of eyes that are as mesmerizing as yours...
I listen to 80's rock for those songs spoke off how my long for you... i listen to metal to feed the demon that is inside of me...
Sometimes i still walk past your place once in a while... hoping that i can see your face again... it been more than a year since i heard of your voice...
Are you still with him? is this fate that i end myself with just you... if this is fate... can i have another go?
Or am i wanting to get back to you cause i fail at trying to court someone else... i still remember how my heartaches every moment when you left...
Felt like a car crash... felt like a fatal stab into the heart... felt like getting buried alive...
I gave you roses... you return me tears... my own tears...
i sacrifice my all for you...you sacrifice me for him...
I still cannot understand why... I though our love is possible to overcome all...
The remedy will be the meeting of you... will i crumble? will i collapse? will i prevail?
My wings are tore off my back.... i flew above you as your guardian angel but no more....
I'm an insect in a container with the lip closed... and thrown into the sea...
I float from day to day wanting for someone to release me... like a genie in a bottle...
Monday, June 22, 2009
Romantic pharses??
Now folks... you think that you're romantic? you lover love to hear your mushy sweet talking? Think again... i'm gonna expose you now...
you Shine in the night skies - i see ghost
Wind in your hair - your hair very messy
skin as smooth as milk - your 're fat ( skin expand )
cherry like lips - pathetic small mouth...cannot open bigger and eat faster is it...
your eyes sparkles under the light - you better see an optician...
I love the way you look tonight - i hate the way you look on every other nights...
you are my one and only - this is the 14th girl i say this to already...
i wanna be there for your in every moment of your life - i'm a stalker... beware...
would you marry me? - erm.. wanna take up the full time maid post with no pay in my house?
i long to hold you every night before i sleep - but when i wake up... i wish it is another i'm holding on to...
fate brought us together - why i so suay know u?
i don't wana live a life without you - coz u pay for my bills and expenditure...
When i look in your eyes... i see love - when i look downwards... i see sex...
I live to love you - so if you catch me fooling around... it not me... it's the dead me... you cannot blame me...
Okay... i can only think of this much for now....
you Shine in the night skies - i see ghost
Wind in your hair - your hair very messy
skin as smooth as milk - your 're fat ( skin expand )
cherry like lips - pathetic small mouth...cannot open bigger and eat faster is it...
your eyes sparkles under the light - you better see an optician...
I love the way you look tonight - i hate the way you look on every other nights...
you are my one and only - this is the 14th girl i say this to already...
i wanna be there for your in every moment of your life - i'm a stalker... beware...
would you marry me? - erm.. wanna take up the full time maid post with no pay in my house?
i long to hold you every night before i sleep - but when i wake up... i wish it is another i'm holding on to...
fate brought us together - why i so suay know u?
i don't wana live a life without you - coz u pay for my bills and expenditure...
When i look in your eyes... i see love - when i look downwards... i see sex...
I live to love you - so if you catch me fooling around... it not me... it's the dead me... you cannot blame me...
Okay... i can only think of this much for now....
Friday, June 19, 2009
Sage Mode...
Ommmm... I have seen it all... i do not have any mortally bounds to this earth anyone. I seek trouble not... trouble finds me not... I do not have a problem.. problems do not have me in it... I'm neither smart nor dumb.. i just simply live on the sidewalk of life where i'm not involved...
Sure i get lonely sometimes but i miss being alone more than anything in the world... I began pondering if the existence of me is to view the world and compare myself in it.. I'm the standard for i do not care of anytyhing... i do not love or hate...
Basically if i dun care... nothing happens.. fair enough? poking heads into something is just not my style... life sure be free and easy with nothing to it. If a person has lots of friends, sure he/she will have lots of fun, company but however, lots of trouble as well... I have none of that... no love problems, family problems, friends problem... why??
It's really easy... i have no expectation from any of them... if you want to go then bye bye... sure.. you will be miss... but just a little... not more than 5 mins... All same to my family, friends and love...
My world is dark and gloomy but i love it... i need a break from life as usual... gimme a break... i think i'm cutted out to survive on my own... 你们永远不会明白孤独的快乐.
Sure i get lonely sometimes but i miss being alone more than anything in the world... I began pondering if the existence of me is to view the world and compare myself in it.. I'm the standard for i do not care of anytyhing... i do not love or hate...
Basically if i dun care... nothing happens.. fair enough? poking heads into something is just not my style... life sure be free and easy with nothing to it. If a person has lots of friends, sure he/she will have lots of fun, company but however, lots of trouble as well... I have none of that... no love problems, family problems, friends problem... why??
It's really easy... i have no expectation from any of them... if you want to go then bye bye... sure.. you will be miss... but just a little... not more than 5 mins... All same to my family, friends and love...
My world is dark and gloomy but i love it... i need a break from life as usual... gimme a break... i think i'm cutted out to survive on my own... 你们永远不会明白孤独的快乐.
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
mask of the serial killer...
Can anyone please explain my fatigue? My brain is half dead... we have enough sleep i guess... i need a life... the sudden intention to grab and hug girls on the streets are increasing day by day...
Finally the inner demon is taking over... the emo will become the evil for good... nopez i dun need you and you or you... i will only consider not to kill the one who is gonna be with me...
All things are lies, i live in an imaginary world and the only thing that is clear is the lust that burns inside of me... love?? my ass... this is pure lust... for pure love is fake... pure lust lives forever...
Control i need to control... OR i can just let it all out... life is like a dating game... i shall commence the date 20 girls in a month thingy...
Why Why Why... i shall destroy u in 2 seconds.... lalalalalala... when the world is dead... they will soon realise what state my heart have always been...
As dead as i am... i give people false... yes... the world most notorious hypocrite is being born here and now...
so in case you get hurt... go away... stay away... hide and you will be able to see light for another day...
Finally the inner demon is taking over... the emo will become the evil for good... nopez i dun need you and you or you... i will only consider not to kill the one who is gonna be with me...
All things are lies, i live in an imaginary world and the only thing that is clear is the lust that burns inside of me... love?? my ass... this is pure lust... for pure love is fake... pure lust lives forever...
Control i need to control... OR i can just let it all out... life is like a dating game... i shall commence the date 20 girls in a month thingy...
Why Why Why... i shall destroy u in 2 seconds.... lalalalalala... when the world is dead... they will soon realise what state my heart have always been...
As dead as i am... i give people false... yes... the world most notorious hypocrite is being born here and now...
so in case you get hurt... go away... stay away... hide and you will be able to see light for another day...
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
FATE
Come Come... walk towards me... step here... yes... right under the spot light...
Welcome to the cross road of life... do you wish to take a left or a right turn? on both path there will be two boxes...
I hereby put choices in front of you... you can only choose 1... and betray the other...
I will put "friends" in a box... i will put "money" in a box... on the left path
I will put "love" in a box... I will put 'family" in a box... on the right path
Now you will choose two boxes... But you must choose one from each direction...
What will you choose?
My Name is FATE...
Welcome to the cross road of life... do you wish to take a left or a right turn? on both path there will be two boxes...
I hereby put choices in front of you... you can only choose 1... and betray the other...
I will put "friends" in a box... i will put "money" in a box... on the left path
I will put "love" in a box... I will put 'family" in a box... on the right path
Now you will choose two boxes... But you must choose one from each direction...
What will you choose?
My Name is FATE...
Saturday, May 30, 2009
I want nobody nobody but u...
Give me a change.. i want to write love letters with u in the sands... under the dreamy blue skies... Raining flower petals as we run through the beach with love caught in our feet... No distance is too great too tear us apart... no one can rip us away... I would make the world a lot whole place just for you and me... Never will this heart swap to another shores... for it is rooted deeply in a complicated fashion in your heart... how sweet it would be to be owned only by you... you're irreplaceable to me... i give up everything in the world but i would never give you up...
If there is a limit to my love for u , i would choose eternity - 1 year. That way when the world is about to end, i would know and i would love you even more for that last year... but that is not really impossible because I'm already madly in love with you... i dream everyday wanting to be with you... Dreams can be reality? dream are what that makes a man great... you are what that will make me great...
My wallet might go empty... My gadgets will fail me... My friend might leave me... My body might stop functioning but My love for you will carry on forever... How true i cannot tell because it is so clear that it has become transparent...
i want to take you everywhere in the way... we might get lose in the jungle... flush down the river... chased by beast... endure starvation... but with you around me... I would enjoy every inch and every bit of it... If we have to undergo it again... i gladly accept...
Now to sum it up... words cannot describe how much i miss you... Expression are not great enough to fully show how delighted i am when i see you... Time is not a barrier but a chain that manifests my love for you... i drowned in my own love for you... gimme a hand?
If there is a limit to my love for u , i would choose eternity - 1 year. That way when the world is about to end, i would know and i would love you even more for that last year... but that is not really impossible because I'm already madly in love with you... i dream everyday wanting to be with you... Dreams can be reality? dream are what that makes a man great... you are what that will make me great...
My wallet might go empty... My gadgets will fail me... My friend might leave me... My body might stop functioning but My love for you will carry on forever... How true i cannot tell because it is so clear that it has become transparent...
i want to take you everywhere in the way... we might get lose in the jungle... flush down the river... chased by beast... endure starvation... but with you around me... I would enjoy every inch and every bit of it... If we have to undergo it again... i gladly accept...
Now to sum it up... words cannot describe how much i miss you... Expression are not great enough to fully show how delighted i am when i see you... Time is not a barrier but a chain that manifests my love for you... i drowned in my own love for you... gimme a hand?
Monday, May 25, 2009
What is that four letter word again?
Sometimes i ask myself, how many times have i stay hidden in a corner peeping at her...
How often have i felt the disappointment whenever a unknown person is beside her...
What are those feelings? Jealousy,Envy or just plain Lust? Is this kind of feeling a curse or is this considered bliss? Can i ever stop feeling like hiding behind there for good? how many hours, minutes and seconds have i spent thinking of something that i might be just out of reached?
What qualities do i possess that is gonna make it happen, have my physical traits finally become such a burden? Nevermind the name taunting i suffered in life, I'm fine with the lousy genes that i possesed which have wore me down greatly, it's okay to be lacking in the brain department and also being born with some injuries here and there . But seriously, to never achieve anything in life till now? is this fate? or karma from a past life? GOD's doing ( if there really is one) ? I cannot imagine how this is going to change in the next ten years... Am i going to single forever? I deserved it don't i?
I must have seriously done something wrong to deserve something like this... what's it like to jump off a 12th storey building? if i were to depart on a journey to hell, how many and who exactly will be there to send me off... probably no one... life is a cycle of birth, sickness, aging and death... lets say i cut short all this processes and jump straight to the last phrase... how many people will shed a tear for me? My very existance lies with me... struggling in this fuck up place call home?... how life would have been better if i was born somewhere else? maybe even some third world country... sure... i would have nothing to eat... no luxuries in life but i may actually be happier than i'm currently...
I hope things can change soon on my birthday which most probably is just another day for me and everyone of u... I need a turning point... the path i'm in is the gatewayl to destruction...
22 soon... i dun wanna be single!
How often have i felt the disappointment whenever a unknown person is beside her...
What are those feelings? Jealousy,Envy or just plain Lust? Is this kind of feeling a curse or is this considered bliss? Can i ever stop feeling like hiding behind there for good? how many hours, minutes and seconds have i spent thinking of something that i might be just out of reached?
What qualities do i possess that is gonna make it happen, have my physical traits finally become such a burden? Nevermind the name taunting i suffered in life, I'm fine with the lousy genes that i possesed which have wore me down greatly, it's okay to be lacking in the brain department and also being born with some injuries here and there . But seriously, to never achieve anything in life till now? is this fate? or karma from a past life? GOD's doing ( if there really is one) ? I cannot imagine how this is going to change in the next ten years... Am i going to single forever? I deserved it don't i?
I must have seriously done something wrong to deserve something like this... what's it like to jump off a 12th storey building? if i were to depart on a journey to hell, how many and who exactly will be there to send me off... probably no one... life is a cycle of birth, sickness, aging and death... lets say i cut short all this processes and jump straight to the last phrase... how many people will shed a tear for me? My very existance lies with me... struggling in this fuck up place call home?... how life would have been better if i was born somewhere else? maybe even some third world country... sure... i would have nothing to eat... no luxuries in life but i may actually be happier than i'm currently...
I hope things can change soon on my birthday which most probably is just another day for me and everyone of u... I need a turning point... the path i'm in is the gatewayl to destruction...
22 soon... i dun wanna be single!
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
My new hobby
Yes yes... guess what i always wanted to do... well... i love to mess around with people's minds... drive them toward the edge of insanity... however... i still in training... how to psyche up the people around you... i shall begin my training tmr... beware for this will be literally 'Mind Blowing'...
Maybe i should start conjuring up some rumors about people just to mess up their mental health... oh well... nothing beats a good plot and some depress folks... am i insane?? nope... I'm just looking for some fun since I'm bored... and your lifes are too peaceful... u need some flavoring to your shallow yet hallow life...
BOOOOOMMMMMMMMMMM!!!!!!!!
Maybe i should start conjuring up some rumors about people just to mess up their mental health... oh well... nothing beats a good plot and some depress folks... am i insane?? nope... I'm just looking for some fun since I'm bored... and your lifes are too peaceful... u need some flavoring to your shallow yet hallow life...
BOOOOOMMMMMMMMMMM!!!!!!!!
Saturday, April 25, 2009
The dude with the injured knee
My love for basketball is so great that i would sacrifice myself for it... When i busted my knee yesterday... everyone told me to stop but i say... knee break never mind, basketball must keep playing... But how did i injure my knee??
It all start with a 5v5 full court... the opponents were very physical and i got elbowed quite abit... infact all of us got elbowed push or anything dirty you can think of in the book... holding down a rebound i got cornered by 2 of them and again they were not hitting the ball but me and i got fed up... burst out of the area and ran towards their ring i'm very close to the ring but i miscalculated the distance and took a step too big and my knee couldn't take it and gave way... i thot it was broken at first when i felt my knee twisting into a impossible angle... Falling to the floor immediately holding onto my knee... couldn't stand it and screamed out loud... so close to breaking my bone but now it quite a serious sprain maybe even something else within broken/fractured and i suspect it to stay for life.. the easily damage left knee cap...
No more attacking Nicholas with muay thai style tiger knee... BOO!
No more ball for sometime
No one to take care of me.. any nice soul will buy food for me?
No one to act all roughed up and gain pity for her ( it must be a her)
Now i walk like my grandfather... 22 years old guy with a 70 years old knee...
It all start with a 5v5 full court... the opponents were very physical and i got elbowed quite abit... infact all of us got elbowed push or anything dirty you can think of in the book... holding down a rebound i got cornered by 2 of them and again they were not hitting the ball but me and i got fed up... burst out of the area and ran towards their ring i'm very close to the ring but i miscalculated the distance and took a step too big and my knee couldn't take it and gave way... i thot it was broken at first when i felt my knee twisting into a impossible angle... Falling to the floor immediately holding onto my knee... couldn't stand it and screamed out loud... so close to breaking my bone but now it quite a serious sprain maybe even something else within broken/fractured and i suspect it to stay for life.. the easily damage left knee cap...
No more attacking Nicholas with muay thai style tiger knee... BOO!
No more ball for sometime
No one to take care of me.. any nice soul will buy food for me?
No one to act all roughed up and gain pity for her ( it must be a her)
Now i walk like my grandfather... 22 years old guy with a 70 years old knee...
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
Someday it will be all over
To think or not to think...
To know or not to know...
To hear or not to hear...
That are the choices i have in my own life... i could be facing you and yet not giving a damn about you... To understand a person is not something that can be accomplish on a hundred percent scale... Here's an analogy... imagine u and that person are looking at the same thing... no doubt its the same thing but in completely different angles...when u do look in the same angle... you will probably be blocked be him/her... so my question is how can we ever understand a person completely...
Somethings i start to wonder... is the current me an act... i view myself as me...i never concern myself over what i'm to others ... back at home i'm just an idiotic sibling and an filial/un-filial son ( i do not wish to label myself things which are of other people's perspectives) Perhaps the music i listen to call help me in some way towards my own identity... Metal... 80's rock and emo chinese music... does that tell me anything??
Ok... now try analysing me... I enjoy a mix blend of music... ranging from metal to jazz, bossa nova, chinese, rock... perhaps too vague... maybe we can try physical outlook... if i were to live alone... i probably get a tattoo...on my right arm... tribal prints... i would go for a eyebrow, lips piercing... i would cut a korean hairstyle...
maybe abit more bout myself to aid to ur analysis... i had some bad experience in my relationships... sometimes my humour goes overboard...i do not bother myself over things that cannot be controlled... example height... i tend to regret alot...when i love someone it will be forever... i can only court girls who are english spoken...only then when we're alone.. i'll have something to say to her... i change my group of friends like no one's business... i like to emo... Some things i say i want to drink alone but i nv did it once...i'm dun like to make up lies... i try to be an gentleman as much as possible... i'm not a gangster... i'm fat...
Now tell me what kinda of person i'm... because i really need to know... tag on my watermelon colored tagboard... Cheers...
To know or not to know...
To hear or not to hear...
That are the choices i have in my own life... i could be facing you and yet not giving a damn about you... To understand a person is not something that can be accomplish on a hundred percent scale... Here's an analogy... imagine u and that person are looking at the same thing... no doubt its the same thing but in completely different angles...when u do look in the same angle... you will probably be blocked be him/her... so my question is how can we ever understand a person completely...
Somethings i start to wonder... is the current me an act... i view myself as me...i never concern myself over what i'm to others ... back at home i'm just an idiotic sibling and an filial/un-filial son ( i do not wish to label myself things which are of other people's perspectives) Perhaps the music i listen to call help me in some way towards my own identity... Metal... 80's rock and emo chinese music... does that tell me anything??
Ok... now try analysing me... I enjoy a mix blend of music... ranging from metal to jazz, bossa nova, chinese, rock... perhaps too vague... maybe we can try physical outlook... if i were to live alone... i probably get a tattoo...on my right arm... tribal prints... i would go for a eyebrow, lips piercing... i would cut a korean hairstyle...
maybe abit more bout myself to aid to ur analysis... i had some bad experience in my relationships... sometimes my humour goes overboard...i do not bother myself over things that cannot be controlled... example height... i tend to regret alot...when i love someone it will be forever... i can only court girls who are english spoken...only then when we're alone.. i'll have something to say to her... i change my group of friends like no one's business... i like to emo... Some things i say i want to drink alone but i nv did it once...i'm dun like to make up lies... i try to be an gentleman as much as possible... i'm not a gangster... i'm fat...
Now tell me what kinda of person i'm... because i really need to know... tag on my watermelon colored tagboard... Cheers...
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Er Hem
School started two days ago... I'm impressed over how smoothly the lessons were and the people in my class...surely this is a good semester and i now know a lot more people... the ice breaker wasn't that hard... eventually it began to be very fun in class BUT i must remind you that this is only the second day of life and the real challenge would come with i have my face off with goh chee keong and pearly (i wish i don't ever have to type, spell, read or think about this name again) .
Just now when i was walking home... some cyclist cycled by and immediately my first perception was... is it a bangala, MIC or malaysian kia... as he move closer, bangala was out as he was yellow (asians are yellow even if we look brown) then as he came closer... it was even more obvious... the hairstyle would be the clue... malaysian kia have spiky head even if its long.. it seems spiky and for some fucking reason wet...It muz be hair gel..seriously who still uses gel in such an era... looking at the face was the best... I must remind you that cyclist are never handsome guys... no matter what and how or even how low your standards are... that is the reason why i try not to cycle as much as possible... when i walk past a chick... i wanna look her thoroughly... sort of like scanning her with my eyes from top to bottom and if the chance permits... Smell her scent and that is exceptionally important... a woman's scent is the way to a guy's heart...
Imagine your girl friend stinks... while making love... here you are having the best time of your life but your nose is having the worst day ever... as it is sniffing her right under her sweat glands... omfg... get what i mean... but still... if you really love her... it's still possible... because love blinds,block,disrupts any flaw in her... isn't love the worst?
True story of the day : bad breathe
Some colleague was telling us about this at work... on how bad breathe has lead to a foursome...
Aparently this girl has bad breathe and her bf wanted to dump her... but they held on as he wanted sex... eventually he try to throw the girl to the best friend as he couldn't take her breathe... but even this friend also couldn't stand it and also held on just for sex... This girl then had the eyes for my colleague and for some screwed up reason... a foursome occurred... but the funny thing is that after 4 hours of sex and all... no one had even kissed her once... fucking funny.... i wonder how many times that girl actually orgasm in that 4 hours... I'm just wondering... nothing more...(WINK)
Just now when i was walking home... some cyclist cycled by and immediately my first perception was... is it a bangala, MIC or malaysian kia... as he move closer, bangala was out as he was yellow (asians are yellow even if we look brown) then as he came closer... it was even more obvious... the hairstyle would be the clue... malaysian kia have spiky head even if its long.. it seems spiky and for some fucking reason wet...It muz be hair gel..seriously who still uses gel in such an era... looking at the face was the best... I must remind you that cyclist are never handsome guys... no matter what and how or even how low your standards are... that is the reason why i try not to cycle as much as possible... when i walk past a chick... i wanna look her thoroughly... sort of like scanning her with my eyes from top to bottom and if the chance permits... Smell her scent and that is exceptionally important... a woman's scent is the way to a guy's heart...
Imagine your girl friend stinks... while making love... here you are having the best time of your life but your nose is having the worst day ever... as it is sniffing her right under her sweat glands... omfg... get what i mean... but still... if you really love her... it's still possible... because love blinds,block,disrupts any flaw in her... isn't love the worst?
True story of the day : bad breathe
Some colleague was telling us about this at work... on how bad breathe has lead to a foursome...
Aparently this girl has bad breathe and her bf wanted to dump her... but they held on as he wanted sex... eventually he try to throw the girl to the best friend as he couldn't take her breathe... but even this friend also couldn't stand it and also held on just for sex... This girl then had the eyes for my colleague and for some screwed up reason... a foursome occurred... but the funny thing is that after 4 hours of sex and all... no one had even kissed her once... fucking funny.... i wonder how many times that girl actually orgasm in that 4 hours... I'm just wondering... nothing more...(WINK)
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
Irritating irritating...
Well well well... i finally cut my hair on sat... since i don't really care what the guys think... i shall only say what the girls think... well... michele said my hair was cutted too thin... i think i heard something like 'gay' or something... haha... and today in school... worst still... after styling my hair... cer cer said... did u shave this part... omg... she was pointing to my bald spot... so saddened... and that commence a very irritating day of yet another irritating moment in the part and parcels of life... But even before that happened...
Woke up at 7 without cer cer's help... leave the house early and all but when i board the bus... WTF!? so many people... and kinda lots of teens... couldn't get a sit till tamp mrt there... and when i did... sat beside a girl... was wondering if she was a MIC... but soon confirm it when she spoke on the phone... anyway she was irritating... fidgetting here and there through out the entire bus journey... when i reach the bus interchange... i was shock to see that 902 was there... it only operates when school is operating... anyway i boarded it and when on it... so guy hoped on and didn't pay for the bus ride...irritating ass... anyway i waited for so fucking long... till the bus left... fucking irritating...
Reach the school... Oh my fucking god... so fucking many people.... KNN... school orenitation... fuck~~~~~ then came the cer cer & hair cut story...
Today... everyone was super slack and i went around irritating people esp cer cer... out of defense... she clawed me... kicked me... punch & slap... and all i did was to look her in the eye... i know i look like a gangster but... i'm a nice and friendly guy who wouldn't harm an ant ( that's a lie... i fucking love killing them)
Purposely find fault with cer cer ( sorry cer cer)... bullied her all day long... wrote stupid tags to her which she later posed with... HAHA... chase her around the lab... whack jeremy and nicky dog... post another lie on FB saying... " i hate my fyp team"... its a lie... i love u all...( at least juz cer cer...i'm not really into guys so...) for some wierd reason... started talking in the FTIR room... while doing FTIR... we sat there and shared stuff... that was nice... Cer Cer ask what are 5 qualities you seek in your ideal partner... for some reason mine was the highest in expectation... damn it... i wasn't asking for much...all i ask for was...
1. muz be english spoken
2. muz not be dumb
3. need not be too pretty but looks that can last
4.muz be kind hearted ( i'm evil... she's kind...can u see it... it's called a balance)
5. ( i forgot bout this)
Anyway... our favourite team member bought us gifts from langkawi... (now u know why he is our favourite?) Thx Bro... Cer cer was so happy when she saw the sea shells which nicholas picked but i think DELI has more to offer if only i can go back there again... miss my indo family... and frenz there...i wanna go night fishing... fucking irritating!!
The latest way to snooke ur frenz... he's just a hi- bye friend like cer would say... but really the word to use is "acquaintance"...
New Discovery... There's a new dish in the market called 'dear chicken'... which happened to be actually grilled chicken... anyway... cer cer said it... WHAHAHAHAHA... IRRITATING!!!!!!
Woke up at 7 without cer cer's help... leave the house early and all but when i board the bus... WTF!? so many people... and kinda lots of teens... couldn't get a sit till tamp mrt there... and when i did... sat beside a girl... was wondering if she was a MIC... but soon confirm it when she spoke on the phone... anyway she was irritating... fidgetting here and there through out the entire bus journey... when i reach the bus interchange... i was shock to see that 902 was there... it only operates when school is operating... anyway i boarded it and when on it... so guy hoped on and didn't pay for the bus ride...irritating ass... anyway i waited for so fucking long... till the bus left... fucking irritating...
Reach the school... Oh my fucking god... so fucking many people.... KNN... school orenitation... fuck~~~~~ then came the cer cer & hair cut story...
Today... everyone was super slack and i went around irritating people esp cer cer... out of defense... she clawed me... kicked me... punch & slap... and all i did was to look her in the eye... i know i look like a gangster but... i'm a nice and friendly guy who wouldn't harm an ant ( that's a lie... i fucking love killing them)
Purposely find fault with cer cer ( sorry cer cer)... bullied her all day long... wrote stupid tags to her which she later posed with... HAHA... chase her around the lab... whack jeremy and nicky dog... post another lie on FB saying... " i hate my fyp team"... its a lie... i love u all...( at least juz cer cer...i'm not really into guys so...) for some wierd reason... started talking in the FTIR room... while doing FTIR... we sat there and shared stuff... that was nice... Cer Cer ask what are 5 qualities you seek in your ideal partner... for some reason mine was the highest in expectation... damn it... i wasn't asking for much...all i ask for was...
1. muz be english spoken
2. muz not be dumb
3. need not be too pretty but looks that can last
4.muz be kind hearted ( i'm evil... she's kind...can u see it... it's called a balance)
5. ( i forgot bout this)
Anyway... our favourite team member bought us gifts from langkawi... (now u know why he is our favourite?) Thx Bro... Cer cer was so happy when she saw the sea shells which nicholas picked but i think DELI has more to offer if only i can go back there again... miss my indo family... and frenz there...i wanna go night fishing... fucking irritating!!
The latest way to snooke ur frenz... he's just a hi- bye friend like cer would say... but really the word to use is "acquaintance"...
New Discovery... There's a new dish in the market called 'dear chicken'... which happened to be actually grilled chicken... anyway... cer cer said it... WHAHAHAHAHA... IRRITATING!!!!!!
Saturday, April 4, 2009
Knock Knock
Ding Dong! Somebody pressed my doorbell... since Stan was at home, he went to get the door... came this auntie in an fake accent... acting all goody goody and stuff... The first question she popped was : would you choose money or wisdom?? shit!! first thing i knew is that she coming to preach... can i call the police?!?! Since stan is a Christian... he starting making a conversation about Solomon... she ask stan do he think that god has a name... she didn't have to ask Stan because i know the answer... His name is DOG... GOD & DOG... see the link??
This fucking old lie is going way out of hand... after so many millenniums... its still going on... 1 of the main reason for war is religion... anyone realise?? terrisotist... protesters VS catholic... think about it... a world without religion...
I'm gonna come up with some plans to piss the preachers off my house door and here it goes...
1. Are you preaching... u do realise that it is illegal in singapore right?? so u want me to call the police or u leave now?
2. so u want Allah to strike u?? ( do dress in a sarong / song ko)
3. The auntie approach to sales person... shaking ur hand violently...saying 不要买，不要买，不要买，不要买，不要买 then slam the bloody door...
4. Ask this question... so... if i do kill someone and then i go to church... am i relieve of my Sins ( the answer would be yes, then move the target of someone to the person preaching... ) saying then i suppose i shall kill u 1st... Then go to church...
5. Do u heard of Satan?? he's in my bath room now... wanna meet him?? ( u run to the room coming out dressed in a black cloak armed with 2 choppers shouing "KILL ALL")
6. say 'WHAT...PLEASE FUCK OFF" then slam the door...
See... there are so many ways to do this... next time someone knocks on ur door... feel free to use any of this methods to save ur time and effort talking to them... Cheers!!
This fucking old lie is going way out of hand... after so many millenniums... its still going on... 1 of the main reason for war is religion... anyone realise?? terrisotist... protesters VS catholic... think about it... a world without religion...
I'm gonna come up with some plans to piss the preachers off my house door and here it goes...
1. Are you preaching... u do realise that it is illegal in singapore right?? so u want me to call the police or u leave now?
2. so u want Allah to strike u?? ( do dress in a sarong / song ko)
3. The auntie approach to sales person... shaking ur hand violently...saying 不要买，不要买，不要买，不要买，不要买 then slam the bloody door...
4. Ask this question... so... if i do kill someone and then i go to church... am i relieve of my Sins ( the answer would be yes, then move the target of someone to the person preaching... ) saying then i suppose i shall kill u 1st... Then go to church...
5. Do u heard of Satan?? he's in my bath room now... wanna meet him?? ( u run to the room coming out dressed in a black cloak armed with 2 choppers shouing "KILL ALL")
6. say 'WHAT...PLEASE FUCK OFF" then slam the door...
See... there are so many ways to do this... next time someone knocks on ur door... feel free to use any of this methods to save ur time and effort talking to them... Cheers!!
Saturday, March 28, 2009
Just for laughs BUT true story
Welcome for today's just for laughs section. The topic today would be :
'People falling on the bus' .
Going home from work... i took 65 ( I have a choice between that and 22) ... Since it was only a single deck, i sat at the front of the bus... the very first sit... as we all know... people like to chase for the bus and some people actually did... doing so... a malay auntie actually manage to get onto the bus after some malay boys manage to stop the bus... being the last to board, the driver was getting impatient as he wanted to leave long ago but people kept making last minute arrivals... So he step onto the gas as soon as the auntie tapped her card... due to the sudden motion.. the auntie fell head over heels... and me sitting infront had to help as everyone was actually looking...
But deep down inside me... i was laughing like nuts thinking " this is fucking hilarious" ... don't get me wrong people... i'm not being racist here... no matter who falls down... i'll still laugh and that's coz i'm fucking evil... the only reason why i help her was to create a psuedo image and let people think i'm nice and all so i can backstab them... Ain't this just awesome!?!?
'People falling on the bus' .
Going home from work... i took 65 ( I have a choice between that and 22) ... Since it was only a single deck, i sat at the front of the bus... the very first sit... as we all know... people like to chase for the bus and some people actually did... doing so... a malay auntie actually manage to get onto the bus after some malay boys manage to stop the bus... being the last to board, the driver was getting impatient as he wanted to leave long ago but people kept making last minute arrivals... So he step onto the gas as soon as the auntie tapped her card... due to the sudden motion.. the auntie fell head over heels... and me sitting infront had to help as everyone was actually looking...
But deep down inside me... i was laughing like nuts thinking " this is fucking hilarious" ... don't get me wrong people... i'm not being racist here... no matter who falls down... i'll still laugh and that's coz i'm fucking evil... the only reason why i help her was to create a psuedo image and let people think i'm nice and all so i can backstab them... Ain't this just awesome!?!?
Friday, March 27, 2009
FINALLY!!
I finally did what i wanted and should have done.... even if it was shorter than i wanted... it a good start afterall... My 1st Bedok Reservoir cross country... 03/27/09... First thing first... my bicycle tires were wored out... they seem to be out of air after sometime... so i had to fix them at the bicycle shop for $14... then off i go to the real deal... after i reached... i was regretting already about something... my camera... i leave it at home... wtf!? the view is so nice... so i had no choice but to use my camera phone..LG Renoir... and the quality?? for a camera phone... it's awesome...
Cycling is now the excuse... taking picts is now the priority... so i'm gonna post what i took...
Cycling is now the excuse... taking picts is now the priority... so i'm gonna post what i took...
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
China schemer
Recently, i feel nice and relax since things seems to be going on nicely for moi... the quest for a girlfriend is still on, i have been single for a year... now i'm getting kinda lonely... why do all the girls around me think I'm dangerous?? coz i got high level of FFA ( free fatty acid) ?? scare of cardiac arrest when you're around me?? *WINK*...(with the click sound)
Somehow i feel that my house is so much quieter with Stan in the army now... it gets lonely some nights...no one hogs the comp in the living room now... very uncomfortable to the lame shit jokes and fights i'm missing... he's coming back this weekend...if nothing goes wrong like kena confinement...
Few days back... recieve a fucking prank call... according to my skeptical analysis.. some china bastard trying to scheme some money out of innocent elderly like my dad called... since i didn't answer the phone but was pass on the phone by my dad, i wasn't aware of who actually called... i was juz sitting there using my comp then my dad started screaming and yelling at me to get the phone. So i did... what awaited me was so sobbing and murbling... i couldn't at all tell who was it... then i ask my dad who was it.. he say it was my bro... who should be in the army... i tried to continue the conversation with the person.. in a crying tone ( could and most probably acting it) said : 我是你儿子. What the fuck...so i keep probing asking who he was... then in the end he hung up... perphaps he gave up trying to scheme me...which couldn't be the case why??
1. If anything would have happened to my bro wouldn't the army have called instead.
2. My bro didn't bring a phone into the camp
3. The voice doesn't sound like my bro at all
4. My bro nv speaks chinese to my dad
5. he would never say '我是你儿子' to his brother,me.
Judging by all this points, i hereby conclude that it was a fucking schemer. However it got my dad into tears, coz stupid bro didn't bring a phone into the camp to save $18. what an ass... he also didn't call back home... noob...
Few days back... recieve a fucking prank call... according to my skeptical analysis.. some china bastard trying to scheme some money out of innocent elderly like my dad called... since i didn't answer the phone but was pass on the phone by my dad, i wasn't aware of who actually called... i was juz sitting there using my comp then my dad started screaming and yelling at me to get the phone. So i did... what awaited me was so sobbing and murbling... i couldn't at all tell who was it... then i ask my dad who was it.. he say it was my bro... who should be in the army... i tried to continue the conversation with the person.. in a crying tone ( could and most probably acting it) said : 我是你儿子. What the fuck...so i keep probing asking who he was... then in the end he hung up... perphaps he gave up trying to scheme me...which couldn't be the case why??
1. If anything would have happened to my bro wouldn't the army have called instead.
2. My bro didn't bring a phone into the camp
3. The voice doesn't sound like my bro at all
4. My bro nv speaks chinese to my dad
5. he would never say '我是你儿子' to his brother,me.
Judging by all this points, i hereby conclude that it was a fucking schemer. However it got my dad into tears, coz stupid bro didn't bring a phone into the camp to save $18. what an ass... he also didn't call back home... noob...
Friday, March 13, 2009
Raining in the month of march
From left to right... Nicholas, Daniel, Eugene(me), jeremy and cecilia
I seriously do not need what the hell is wrong with the weather nowadays... raining almost everyday when its already so so close to summer... worse part... it rains when u're just about to prepare yourself to go out and due to the change of temperature. It makes me even lazier to do what i'm suppose to... but that didn;t stop me from going out still...
Met the team bout 2 at somerset Mrt... wanna watch kung fu chef but in the end watch "watch Men"... The way it was film was something like in the 60-70... well it was based on that time anyway... however... it was very much confusing due to the twist and turns of events. None the less, the gore part was damn hilarous... couldn't stop laughing and cer keep laughing to... not coz she got the dark humour but coz i was laughing and beside her... daniel was too scare to watch and cecilia also laughed at him as well... nicholas was bring isolated at a corner as usual...
This show kind of reminded me of "Sin City" was a narrator leading you through the show but people tend to die alot... and this super heros makes a fool out of others... they're just kung fu experts if you ask me...Overall... the show was too damn long 2.40hrs... ouch...
Then we went to noodle house Ken... It was really good... unbelievable....
Cold Noodles
Miso Ramen
Char siew Ramen
My artistic picts
Next was to esplanade a.k.a the durian... saw shiek haikel hosting an event there and heard that there was MC Hotdog coming around 10... but the time was 8.30 and having to wait for 1 and a half hrs is just too much.... back to home... was crossing the bridge at fullerton and decided to take a few picts... actually is cer decided de... gosh...
Today only manage to take this pict of cer... she always siam my camera...
Guitar Hero
Percussion Freak
Mister Piano
Night view from the bridge out Fullerton hotel...
who killed the cat??
Everyone then went back to their home sweet/boring homes.... yawns life sucks when u're me...
I seriously do not need what the hell is wrong with the weather nowadays... raining almost everyday when its already so so close to summer... worse part... it rains when u're just about to prepare yourself to go out and due to the change of temperature. It makes me even lazier to do what i'm suppose to... but that didn;t stop me from going out still...
Met the team bout 2 at somerset Mrt... wanna watch kung fu chef but in the end watch "watch Men"... The way it was film was something like in the 60-70... well it was based on that time anyway... however... it was very much confusing due to the twist and turns of events. None the less, the gore part was damn hilarous... couldn't stop laughing and cer keep laughing to... not coz she got the dark humour but coz i was laughing and beside her... daniel was too scare to watch and cecilia also laughed at him as well... nicholas was bring isolated at a corner as usual...
This show kind of reminded me of "Sin City" was a narrator leading you through the show but people tend to die alot... and this super heros makes a fool out of others... they're just kung fu experts if you ask me...Overall... the show was too damn long 2.40hrs... ouch...
Then we went to noodle house Ken... It was really good... unbelievable....
Cold Noodles
Miso Ramen
Char siew Ramen
My artistic pictsNext was to esplanade a.k.a the durian... saw shiek haikel hosting an event there and heard that there was MC Hotdog coming around 10... but the time was 8.30 and having to wait for 1 and a half hrs is just too much.... back to home... was crossing the bridge at fullerton and decided to take a few picts... actually is cer decided de... gosh...
Today only manage to take this pict of cer... she always siam my camera...
Guitar Hero
Percussion Freak
Mister Piano
Night view from the bridge out Fullerton hotel...
who killed the cat??
Everyone then went back to their home sweet/boring homes.... yawns life sucks when u're me...
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
viva la evil
Perhaps i woke up at the wrong side of bed...er mattress today,i was super cranky and evil in school. Words with thorns were flying everywhere in the lab shooting my teammates... but then i realize that there's this one person who trying to sort of comfort me and asking why i'm liddat??
Thanks Cer but this is the real me... the joking side of me is a lie... today u met the 'REAL' me...
Always kena scolded by TSO until scare liao... then 害到 Sin Nee also kena... did something dumb... started talking crap to a girl who barely knows me... now i suppose my image is somewhere along the earth of the most damned place. But nvm since i got my true self back the 'hack care self'...
So stupid event at TP initiated a topic of how to make me look less 'beng'... quite frankly... i dun think i look 'beng'... i like my rugged look... rugged rox...but then sin nee and cer obviously have something against it... shave off my sideburns and goatie... omg... might as well juz take my life... which reminds me that i got a white rp polo... its very nipple revealing... another reason why i hate white... there the others...
Why I Hate White...
1. I'm Evil.. evil loves black
2. It makes me look fatter... as if i'm not fat enough
3. I just dun like white
4. white is not as pure as it seems
5. It's translucent... i dun like nipple revealing shirt unless it on a girl
Totally knocked out on the bus today... sometimes i wonder if i snore on the bus... hope no one notices... if not damn pai seh... but i'm damn tired when i'm already on the bus... Cer also always complain that she's tired...but she can rest dun rest...wanna play basketball and meet friends... who's fault...?!?!?! SHIT!! why am i shooting her in my blog for nothing?? oppss... no worries though... no one ever read this crappy blog...
Give me some drugs to feel alive once again...
Thanks Cer but this is the real me... the joking side of me is a lie... today u met the 'REAL' me...
Always kena scolded by TSO until scare liao... then 害到 Sin Nee also kena... did something dumb... started talking crap to a girl who barely knows me... now i suppose my image is somewhere along the earth of the most damned place. But nvm since i got my true self back the 'hack care self'...
So stupid event at TP initiated a topic of how to make me look less 'beng'... quite frankly... i dun think i look 'beng'... i like my rugged look... rugged rox...but then sin nee and cer obviously have something against it... shave off my sideburns and goatie... omg... might as well juz take my life... which reminds me that i got a white rp polo... its very nipple revealing... another reason why i hate white... there the others...
Why I Hate White...
1. I'm Evil.. evil loves black
2. It makes me look fatter... as if i'm not fat enough
3. I just dun like white
4. white is not as pure as it seems
5. It's translucent... i dun like nipple revealing shirt unless it on a girl
Totally knocked out on the bus today... sometimes i wonder if i snore on the bus... hope no one notices... if not damn pai seh... but i'm damn tired when i'm already on the bus... Cer also always complain that she's tired...but she can rest dun rest...wanna play basketball and meet friends... who's fault...?!?!?! SHIT!! why am i shooting her in my blog for nothing?? oppss... no worries though... no one ever read this crappy blog...
Give me some drugs to feel alive once again...
Friday, March 6, 2009
The Life on an Enterainer
The Life of an Entertainer...
if u think it's a glamorous one... well... think twice... behind close doors... the loneliness can consume you whole... The seriousness was never seen and even if shown, it will be taking as another joke.... thus is the path I've chosen... perhaps being my size helps to add up to the overall image... Even if i' a dependable person... people tend to think likewise cause i joke around most of the time.
However... there are 2 types of more of entertainers... "the entertained and forgotten" and "the entertained and remember"... luck was never on my side... thus i became the first type "the entertained and forgotten"... my task is simple... infiltrate... loiter and wait to be kicked out... thus explains the frequency of people changing around me...
once drained out of the humor within...
My task over and thus shall be discarded...
did i change?? no...
who did..?? u who decides that I'm no longer in need of my services
what can i do?? nothing...
what am i left with? nothing
Some people prefer to befriend dogs and cats instead of humans...why?? because this creatures never will left or betray you...
I found my 'friends' who never will left me... Music and photography
Music for it speaks my feelings... spot on most of the times
Photographs for it tells me what i had, the sweetest/saddest memories, how beautiful/sorrowful this world is... a book which no words yet alot more...
I found my third beloved...Science... I'm not a man of God... the very existence of it puzzles me...
The way i see it... Man decided to create it to hide their fears, to create a false Utopia when they die... who should i follow that foolishness... what's the point...?
In the End... this Entertainer is always alone... i always try too hard each time i have something i want to hold on to... but i end up killing it each time... thus explains myself... the one i loved.. loves me not... the things i want seems so far and unreachable... the way people view me is never quite the truth... but who bothers to uncover the mystery behind me...?
if u think it's a glamorous one... well... think twice... behind close doors... the loneliness can consume you whole... The seriousness was never seen and even if shown, it will be taking as another joke.... thus is the path I've chosen... perhaps being my size helps to add up to the overall image... Even if i' a dependable person... people tend to think likewise cause i joke around most of the time.
However... there are 2 types of more of entertainers... "the entertained and forgotten" and "the entertained and remember"... luck was never on my side... thus i became the first type "the entertained and forgotten"... my task is simple... infiltrate... loiter and wait to be kicked out... thus explains the frequency of people changing around me...
once drained out of the humor within...
My task over and thus shall be discarded...
did i change?? no...
who did..?? u who decides that I'm no longer in need of my services
what can i do?? nothing...
what am i left with? nothing
Some people prefer to befriend dogs and cats instead of humans...why?? because this creatures never will left or betray you...
I found my 'friends' who never will left me... Music and photography
Music for it speaks my feelings... spot on most of the times
Photographs for it tells me what i had, the sweetest/saddest memories, how beautiful/sorrowful this world is... a book which no words yet alot more...
I found my third beloved...Science... I'm not a man of God... the very existence of it puzzles me...
The way i see it... Man decided to create it to hide their fears, to create a false Utopia when they die... who should i follow that foolishness... what's the point...?
In the End... this Entertainer is always alone... i always try too hard each time i have something i want to hold on to... but i end up killing it each time... thus explains myself... the one i loved.. loves me not... the things i want seems so far and unreachable... the way people view me is never quite the truth... but who bothers to uncover the mystery behind me...?
Thursday, February 26, 2009
Busy Busy...
It has been such a tiring week since FYP started... but seriously... why do we have to do time line, log time and meeting record?? ain't it like same shit but different depth of understanding??
Nabe... i saw Genevieve in the lab for the 3rd time... she being the faci for hydrogel... i wonder what she does... she lovely but she speaks very little... oh well... ice cold beauty?? just the type i like...
My FYP team is fun to be with... luckily for us, we got Song sin nee... one of the easily bullied faci in RP but she sure help us alot in term of lab stuff... time to blog about FYP team mate... gossip gossip time...My team got nicholas, cecilia, jeremy and daniel...
Nicholas... fucking pervert... poor cecilia always falling victim to his 'sex talks'... this person is not what i expected... i suppose true colors are reveal as time passes by... from the pilot to the sex pilot? i'm sure the city of Thailand, Bangkok, excites u... it is after all the sex capital in Asia... come to think of it... Bangkok...Bang Cock?? OMG!?!?! who the fuck came up with that name... i suppose he has great foresight and saw it coming when he gave the capital that name...geez... this is going down into history...
Cecilia... HAHA!! nice sweet little girl... who looks younger than her actual age... she is ....no no.... not gonna say... one of the taboos in life is to nv talk about a woman's age... but then again...she looks like a little girl... should i say? nahhh... forget it... dun wanna get smacked... she always acts cute but the truth is... she is very cute... dunno why always so ke lian kena dump... i also always kena dump... it appears people dunno how to treat their girls right nowadays... Unless u're a Teo... we Teo(s) is/are awesome... or anyone along the blood line... simply Legandaryyy.. or in french it would be pronounce as legendaire... work hard for FYP... 靠你了...
Jeremy... this chao ah beng is one not to be reckon with... juz kidding... this is the scape goat in the team... all sai kang is thrown on to him... and when we say sai kang.. we meant chemistry! chem pro leh... got an A for UT... impressive... i could never have done that... coz... all the rest of us sucks at chemistry... no worries... i can see ur future... more sai kang...u better dun run... or see u at the back gate...wait Rp got no back gate... damn!
Daniel... this one i know the longest de... but also very slack de... most important thing in life is DANCE... fav style : Locking... ah hop ah... dance less do work more la... LOL... well... created the joke of the FYP... when we heard something about an explosion... we run and hid behind a wall... then the next joke was... why only two person in the final presentation... result being... the other have sacrificed in the name of science... apparently the explosion killed them... sadded... HAHA..
I think my fyp mates (maids) are awesome... pls do work harder by doing all the washing of the oily and stinky apparatus... and about the cruise... i hope it will happen or at least a trip to Gentings?? SUIT UP!
Nabe... i saw Genevieve in the lab for the 3rd time... she being the faci for hydrogel... i wonder what she does... she lovely but she speaks very little... oh well... ice cold beauty?? just the type i like...
My FYP team is fun to be with... luckily for us, we got Song sin nee... one of the easily bullied faci in RP but she sure help us alot in term of lab stuff... time to blog about FYP team mate... gossip gossip time...My team got nicholas, cecilia, jeremy and daniel...
Nicholas... fucking pervert... poor cecilia always falling victim to his 'sex talks'... this person is not what i expected... i suppose true colors are reveal as time passes by... from the pilot to the sex pilot? i'm sure the city of Thailand, Bangkok, excites u... it is after all the sex capital in Asia... come to think of it... Bangkok...Bang Cock?? OMG!?!?! who the fuck came up with that name... i suppose he has great foresight and saw it coming when he gave the capital that name...geez... this is going down into history...
Cecilia... HAHA!! nice sweet little girl... who looks younger than her actual age... she is ....no no.... not gonna say... one of the taboos in life is to nv talk about a woman's age... but then again...she looks like a little girl... should i say? nahhh... forget it... dun wanna get smacked... she always acts cute but the truth is... she is very cute... dunno why always so ke lian kena dump... i also always kena dump... it appears people dunno how to treat their girls right nowadays... Unless u're a Teo... we Teo(s) is/are awesome... or anyone along the blood line... simply Legandaryyy.. or in french it would be pronounce as legendaire... work hard for FYP... 靠你了...
Jeremy... this chao ah beng is one not to be reckon with... juz kidding... this is the scape goat in the team... all sai kang is thrown on to him... and when we say sai kang.. we meant chemistry! chem pro leh... got an A for UT... impressive... i could never have done that... coz... all the rest of us sucks at chemistry... no worries... i can see ur future... more sai kang...u better dun run... or see u at the back gate...wait Rp got no back gate... damn!
Daniel... this one i know the longest de... but also very slack de... most important thing in life is DANCE... fav style : Locking... ah hop ah... dance less do work more la... LOL... well... created the joke of the FYP... when we heard something about an explosion... we run and hid behind a wall... then the next joke was... why only two person in the final presentation... result being... the other have sacrificed in the name of science... apparently the explosion killed them... sadded... HAHA..
I think my fyp mates (maids) are awesome... pls do work harder by doing all the washing of the oily and stinky apparatus... and about the cruise... i hope it will happen or at least a trip to Gentings?? SUIT UP!
Monday, February 16, 2009
Growing older is such a fine thing
Firstly Happy Birthday to Alie... well... we the Teo brothers got him champagne for his birthday... and it seems that everyone else all got him alcohol... so i shall now conclude that the only present u get when u're older is actualy ALCOHOL... this post is actually 4 days overdue? coz i was super lazy to blog bout it...
Now for the important part....that is the older you're... the wiser you're and the way u see things becomes much clearer than before... so nowadays in doing things...i never keep my hopes up...when i pop a question ( not the 'will you marry me' of course), whenever something is in need of a approval from the other party. Even if i really want it very badly... i do not keep my hopes up... not even the slightest bit... why?? life is full of dissapointment... i start with zero... i end with zero... i'm still the same...it's fine for me... but if i start with zero and i get a hundred or even one... i gain something and that is great... vice versa... i start with one and i lose... i'm at a complete lost... i wouldn't want to be a loser.. would u??
I'm gonna tell about the cycle of yelling... which is so much fun... i got it watching a sitcom... this is how it goes... imagine ur gf is a teacher... u made her angry... and she vent her anger on a kid in school... this kid who took all the hatred and anger, yells at her dad which happens to be ur bosses bosses boss... so at work , he yells at your bosses boss... your bosses boss yells at ur boss who in turn yells at u... u yells at ur gf... isn't this juz awesome??
Now for the important part....that is the older you're... the wiser you're and the way u see things becomes much clearer than before... so nowadays in doing things...i never keep my hopes up...when i pop a question ( not the 'will you marry me' of course), whenever something is in need of a approval from the other party. Even if i really want it very badly... i do not keep my hopes up... not even the slightest bit... why?? life is full of dissapointment... i start with zero... i end with zero... i'm still the same...it's fine for me... but if i start with zero and i get a hundred or even one... i gain something and that is great... vice versa... i start with one and i lose... i'm at a complete lost... i wouldn't want to be a loser.. would u??
I'm gonna tell about the cycle of yelling... which is so much fun... i got it watching a sitcom... this is how it goes... imagine ur gf is a teacher... u made her angry... and she vent her anger on a kid in school... this kid who took all the hatred and anger, yells at her dad which happens to be ur bosses bosses boss... so at work , he yells at your bosses boss... your bosses boss yells at ur boss who in turn yells at u... u yells at ur gf... isn't this juz awesome??
Thursday, February 12, 2009
My first time...
Ok... here's what... i nv been to a club/bar/pub or anywhere of such in Singapore... whether u believe or not... last night was my first... went with a lot of noobs who share the same tragedy as me... but of course at least one is a occasional clubber... long time nv mention this name... the 'toopid' gang ( no one knows this name except me... i came up with this name and have use it in previous posts... so don't complain)
< In a mysterious tone? Double O... 4 guys 2 gals... a whole night of liquor... who will be the last one standing...??
Since it ladies night... ladies need not pay... what a sexist society... i forgot to mention why i ended up at double O... its appears that a close friend in this group... propose to go to Double O as the initial place we wanted to go was ex which is also fashion bar... the color attracted me quite abit... glowing purple... kinda irresistable... and the best part... he who propose... did not turn up... clap clap... the reason?? the usual... sick... it seems he's very sickly... 9 out of 10 times when he nv turn up...he's always sick... and he practices muay thai... so as we can defer from... martial arts is no good in helping people 强生健体...
Reached there at 10... when we went in... still not much people... so we could find a spot... problem is... all shy shy... order drinks also shy shy... how come clubs got no menus...!? so we anyhow order lor... mostly is who esmond knows... but i always have to drink whiskey coke... i think i kinda addicted to the bitterness of the whiskey... that was for starters... as the seconds tick away... we went to get our 1st jug of drink... and what did we order...it was what i fell in love with in indonesia clubs " ILLUSION" which was also the most ex drink for the nite... 64 for it... well i was pretty sure the bartender said 54 dollars... even esmond who came to order with me heard it... but we didn't say much... sad to say... the taste was no where near what i had in indo... even the color was pretty fucked up... D.O drink not very nice... with our 1st jug came our game of 猜拳... 6 ppl play... abit hard to win... and to make ppl drink we kinda cheated throughout the whole game...( steffy stop strangling me... when u have to drink... not my fault... that i was caught cheating... if only u didn't realise.. then it would have been fine) 
<--Orignial color of the illusion i had... but the 1 we has was...look below... so sad.... 
stir 
drink 
and drunk!!
next time dun 害 me...this is 报应
wilson (before) 
wilson (after)
soon we finish up... the 1st jug...for seconds vodka orange... damn... it tastes totally like orange juice with less sugar and no pulp... more bitterness... no damn kick... sianz diao... halfway drinking... esmond... xiu zhen and stef wanted to go to the dance floor... but me.. wen jie n wilson didn't want to so... we got separated... so what to do next... drink lor... me n wen jie finished it soon... opps... no drink again... so i went to get even more...
This time is my favourite whiskey cola... alot of liquor addiction thanks to my Cousin richard... thanks for leading me astray bro... anyway... this drink is so much better... why? coz the mixture of whiskey and coke is inbalance... too much whiskey too little coke... which is damn good... more kick...they came back to join us and soon they wanted to head out again... this time i decided to join them to the dance floor... so it was me... esmond... stef and xiu zhen... in our little circle dancing... dance dance dance... then urgent call to the loo... after that steffy leave... so sad... less 1 siao lang...LOL ( don't strangle me pls) then waited at the toilet there for our dear wen jie... who was in the toilet.. dunno is puke or slp... took so long... so sad.... the whole night i keep saying him 'WEAK'... coz his threshold for alcohol is very low... so he was quite knocked out... as the 'illusion' was actually quite high in alcohol percentage... then we took picts while camping outside the toilet while waiting for wen jie... then meet esmond's Rp friend who is working there... went back to get another drink... this time is vodka lime... didn't taste much of the vodka... but it was nice... i think i like ladies drink... but who don't?? don't deny it... HAHA!!!! ( behavior displayed by Marshall Ericson... character fromAmerican sitcom... 'how i meet your mother')
Then we drank super fast and back into the dance floor... 5 of us all there... the music wasn't too bad... some familiar ones and we enjoy... then came the tragic part... My.DJ started playing music we didn't listen to before...and me n esmond got so sianz... lol... we soon leave that place around 2 plus... i wonder why so early...
Headed to the liang court Mac...coz wilson 哥 complain that he 肚子饿... WEAK... eat le then went down to central there to slack... more like slp...coz me and wen jie buay tahan liao... like wanna die liddat... we enjoy getting drunk...but we dun enjoy being in the state of discomfort and sleepiness...
waited and waited for the 1st bus... then took some pictures... or rather kena take pict of... in the mean time... our wen jie... MIA again... sleep in the toilet...pro... can slp in the toilet... RESPECT!
Waited for 1st bus and bus home with esmond who happeds to stay a few blocks away from me...
Reached home at 8... then slp... in less than 10 hrs... round 2 is about to began...
WHATUP!! STAY TUNED FOLKS!!!!
Died there
Looks like copper poisoning 
but now more like mercury poisioning
LOL... this couple very sweet!!
Reached there at 10... when we went in... still not much people... so we could find a spot... problem is... all shy shy... order drinks also shy shy... how come clubs got no menus...!? so we anyhow order lor... mostly is who esmond knows... but i always have to drink whiskey coke... i think i kinda addicted to the bitterness of the whiskey... that was for starters... as the seconds tick away... we went to get our 1st jug of drink... and what did we order...it was what i fell in love with in indonesia clubs " ILLUSION" which was also the most ex drink for the nite... 64 for it... well i was pretty sure the bartender said 54 dollars... even esmond who came to order with me heard it... but we didn't say much... sad to say... the taste was no where near what i had in indo... even the color was pretty fucked up... D.O drink not very nice... with our 1st jug came our game of 猜拳... 6 ppl play... abit hard to win... and to make ppl drink we kinda cheated throughout the whole game...( steffy stop strangling me... when u have to drink... not my fault... that i was caught cheating... if only u didn't realise.. then it would have been fine)
<--Orignial color of the illusion i had... but the 1 we has was...look below... so sad.... 
stir 
drink 
and drunk!!
next time dun 害 me...this is 报应
wilson (before) 
soon we finish up... the 1st jug...for seconds vodka orange... damn... it tastes totally like orange juice with less sugar and no pulp... more bitterness... no damn kick... sianz diao... halfway drinking... esmond... xiu zhen and stef wanted to go to the dance floor... but me.. wen jie n wilson didn't want to so... we got separated... so what to do next... drink lor... me n wen jie finished it soon... opps... no drink again... so i went to get even more...
This time is my favourite whiskey cola... alot of liquor addiction thanks to my Cousin richard... thanks for leading me astray bro... anyway... this drink is so much better... why? coz the mixture of whiskey and coke is inbalance... too much whiskey too little coke... which is damn good... more kick...they came back to join us and soon they wanted to head out again... this time i decided to join them to the dance floor... so it was me... esmond... stef and xiu zhen... in our little circle dancing... dance dance dance... then urgent call to the loo... after that steffy leave... so sad... less 1 siao lang...LOL ( don't strangle me pls) then waited at the toilet there for our dear wen jie... who was in the toilet.. dunno is puke or slp... took so long... so sad.... the whole night i keep saying him 'WEAK'... coz his threshold for alcohol is very low... so he was quite knocked out... as the 'illusion' was actually quite high in alcohol percentage... then we took picts while camping outside the toilet while waiting for wen jie... then meet esmond's Rp friend who is working there... went back to get another drink... this time is vodka lime... didn't taste much of the vodka... but it was nice... i think i like ladies drink... but who don't?? don't deny it... HAHA!!!! ( behavior displayed by Marshall Ericson... character fromAmerican sitcom... 'how i meet your mother')
Then we drank super fast and back into the dance floor... 5 of us all there... the music wasn't too bad... some familiar ones and we enjoy... then came the tragic part... My.DJ started playing music we didn't listen to before...and me n esmond got so sianz... lol... we soon leave that place around 2 plus... i wonder why so early...
Headed to the liang court Mac...coz wilson 哥 complain that he 肚子饿... WEAK... eat le then went down to central there to slack... more like slp...coz me and wen jie buay tahan liao... like wanna die liddat... we enjoy getting drunk...but we dun enjoy being in the state of discomfort and sleepiness...
waited and waited for the 1st bus... then took some pictures... or rather kena take pict of... in the mean time... our wen jie... MIA again... sleep in the toilet...pro... can slp in the toilet... RESPECT!
Waited for 1st bus and bus home with esmond who happeds to stay a few blocks away from me...
Reached home at 8... then slp... in less than 10 hrs... round 2 is about to began...
WHATUP!! STAY TUNED FOLKS!!!!
Died there
Looks like copper poisoning 
but now more like mercury poisioning
LOL... this couple very sweet!!
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