Only you understand what the meaning of a rainy night is to me

4 AM on a rainy night, the red skies reminds me of the times i spent with you, even if u're no longer here with me, life goes on, missing you is what i had endured since, its been too long for me, to habour a feeling for a decade only to find myself losing you again once and for all, hiding and dissappearing forever is what you choose i suppose, its your way of doing things, its so you.

forgetting you is what i can't seem to do, sometimes i feel like a cursed child ( o.O i'm no longer a child) it's like i found my favourite toy, never wanting to let go, denying all flaw and killing all obstacles that seperates me from it, only difference is that this toy has decided to run away on its own, hiding in the shadows, never to utter a word or it might not even be bother at all and ignored everthing.

Words cannot describe how much you're missed, the rain and the skies are what i wish could send u a message that i'm missing you, stil loving you?? i wonder what will happen when i finally see you again, will i freeze, run or approach you, what should i say, were you be alone or with someone, some many things running through this little head.

I"M DEAD. . . . . . . . . .forever. . . . . . . .