Life is in a fix

I guess we can never expect to be whatever we wanted in life...

When i was young, i had a dream, i wanted to be a policeman but as i grow up even more, my dream escaped through my diet, the fatter i grown the smaller my dream got and before i realise it, GONE. . . .

So i learn that many things in life, there need to be sacrifices. be it you or someone else, i had lots of friends but its either in my nature or something along that line, i or them never stick for long and eventually the group will spilt up one way or another..
First was the Primary 5-6 gang, after entering secondary school, i never saw anyone of them anymore,
then in sec 1, another group of jokers,
sec 2-4 another group of people ( 1 is still actively in contact).
Sec 4 (year 2, i repeated my N twice) new class so new friends and this class is divided into 2, so i join the bigger group only to realise that they have some issues of their own after a year.
So for my sec 5, the other group of the class,
in between, there was always team spiritz my frenz outside of school, i tink there were 8 of them which i also lose contacts since they start their NS.
Poly year 1 sem 1 frenz, gone,
poly year 1 sem 2 frenz, forget it...those bunch of losers
and besides i've Candace then, who needs those losers.
year 2 sem 1... no more candace, so more frenz and this bunch of frenz until now... so the question is how long can this last? how long till i can find a new girl friend?

how long more will things go against me? when can i break this fucking curse... i lost my spot at work... hope it gets better soon and i can go back... Next year got FYP... 2 FYPs...i'm feeling that my current groups of friends are nearly gone... what can i do ? what's the point anyway...knowing myself...i'm not gonna do anything... on my wedding day... i can save the effort of the wedding dinner since it will juz be my wife's frenz... omg?