Dreams again?

Omg... its another dream involving 2 different girls that use to be in W55D... this time this 2 were also in my hse and i can only rmb...particularly this certain individual was trying to steal my blanket...we were lying on the bed watching Tv and the fans is too cold then she snatch my baby blanket from me...EVIL!!!

There's my baby blanket...should be as old as me le...i'm impresses stuff made before the the 21th century kinda last longer than now?? why is that so?? I think i know the reason... we all know...just check out where its manufactured from and you will see the biggest populated country's name below...CH*NA... I'm very amused by what they do to increase a certain physical property in the products that create...and to think the QC over there didn't even found out...fucking corrupted if you ask me...

The Government should shoot the QC if u ask me and then shoot the people who are highly involved..no worries... they are densely populated thus killing a few thousand wouldn't hurt them...and since it's a one child policy... if they need more...just have more sex then... They could be the world leader when it comes to usage of condoms... since they must practise protection....of... did i mention abortion too?? No safe sex = abortion... imagine... sex education there... have stop fucking when you have one... do not add up to our country's problems...So now i'm gonna make a list on how to stop reproduction...

1. Propaganda : No sex after one child
2. Use 2 condoms ( like it'll work...poof! )
3. Back to the eunuch stage... practise castration... it originated from there anyway...
4. ladies to go for Sterilization ( then will not get pregnant )
5. make abortion rates cheaper and more afforable
6. Pray to your respectives Gods that you wanna fuck but cannot have the child

See the desperate measure i came up for them...i'm such a humanitarian... and they should stop adding wierd stuff into the products they produce...bunch of faggots...

Awesome dream!

It a fairly wierd dream that i had monday night... well after a whole day out with dj, wei hong and his gf, jing shu...where we ate porridge buffet at suntec which kinda sux, then we had granola bars in the movies while watching James Bond, after that ben and Jerry's and for dinner cafe cartel...jing shu was kinda funny coz she keep laughing whenever i try to do something funny, i kepy mentioning about food and the 2 guys sort of ignore me in their own conversation then i juz kept going on behinf their backs and she was laughing all the way soon i tried the spider man stunt...wei hong and jing shu laugh till face cramp...wtf? and we went home...

I was tired so i slept early...u know the things about dreams is that u have no time concept about it? well...i felt that i was dreaming the whole night and it's the dream that woke me up if not i wouldn't be in school on tuesday... this dream is wierd but nice...1st i rmb (no one rmb the whole dream detail, i'm juz gonna highlight inportant parts) was some girl in class was standing in the masterbed room and i told my mom and dad this is ***** my gf...next we share a kiss, the thing about kisses for me is that i nv get the excitement when i'm doing doing it, the excitedment juz behind the lips collide but this time i felt it, ( i do not know about any 1 of u, but i go feel when i'm dreaming, if i dream that i get hit, i feel pain, if i touch something soft then i also feel it and if i was kissing, yes, i feel the kiss) AWESOME!! and this girl is someone i know...its sort of awkward looking at her in class ytd...but her screen time in my dreams are kinda short, then again another girl in my room, this time a colleague, same scene, kissing and groping but no excitement...BORING!! so i would juz reminiscing about her... the one i kissed with excitement...oh my goddness... come to me one day i pray...LALALALALA !!!

Happy 19th Birthday stan...he's my brother... good luck in the army soon... going in before me muz suck big time...whatup!! stan is a Christain and i'm a Atheists... Alvyn was commenting that it is fun having a Christain and an Atheist in the family...it like having god and satan at home... how fun! i would throw insults to him everytime... coz he's holy and its a lie... get a grip... stop hallucnating ...

For any reason...if u're juz wondering...read on...

To all my dear Friends, Family and everyone else...

Incase u see me eating a liquid diet... do not...yes...do not say... hey, are you on diet ? coz my answer would be...No...i'm juz poor. to poor for solid food...

So if you happen to see me staring at ur wallet/purse/etc... so not comment stuff like...hey, u like my wallet/purse/etc... truth is i'm more interested in the money inside coz i'm juz poor...

If u see me playing with ur IC...making some lame remarks on how much it will fetch at the loan shark's truth is...i'm thinking of "liberating" it from u coz i'm juz poor...

If u do see me fighting over the 20cents taking away money from the food ventor...do not be blinded and see me as an idealist or one with great principles coz i'm juz poor and cannot afford the 20 cents...

Surviving is hard... surviving poorly is harder... why this extreme measures? coz i'm poor? and by doing the extreme, i get to experience how the really poor people living in poverty is feeling, "do not shed a tear for me, for my glory lives forever" (i got that pharse from star tracks) see me not as a humanitarian, for i need no form or recognition...farewell this noble world...

Fuck la...i'm juz fucking poor ok?? KNN!

Life is in a fix

I guess we can never expect to be whatever we wanted in life...

When i was young, i had a dream, i wanted to be a policeman but as i grow up even more, my dream escaped through my diet, the fatter i grown the smaller my dream got and before i realise it, GONE. . . .

So i learn that many things in life, there need to be sacrifices. be it you or someone else, i had lots of friends but its either in my nature or something along that line, i or them never stick for long and eventually the group will spilt up one way or another..
First was the Primary 5-6 gang, after entering secondary school, i never saw anyone of them anymore,
then in sec 1, another group of jokers,
sec 2-4 another group of people ( 1 is still actively in contact).
Sec 4 (year 2, i repeated my N twice) new class so new friends and this class is divided into 2, so i join the bigger group only to realise that they have some issues of their own after a year.
So for my sec 5, the other group of the class,
in between, there was always team spiritz my frenz outside of school, i tink there were 8 of them which i also lose contacts since they start their NS.
Poly year 1 sem 1 frenz, gone,
poly year 1 sem 2 frenz, forget it...those bunch of losers
and besides i've Candace then, who needs those losers.
year 2 sem 1... no more candace, so more frenz and this bunch of frenz until now... so the question is how long can this last? how long till i can find a new girl friend?

how long more will things go against me? when can i break this fucking curse... i lost my spot at work... hope it gets better soon and i can go back... Next year got FYP... 2 FYPs...i'm feeling that my current groups of friends are nearly gone... what can i do ? what's the point anyway...knowing myself...i'm not gonna do anything... on my wedding day... i can save the effort of the wedding dinner since it will juz be my wife's frenz... omg?

Horror story... R(A)

Addicted to emo metal now... a very nice song to people who loves to emo and listen to metal....

Korn --- Tearjerker

Its so sad ytd...i found out something really bad...my classmate suffered a few highly destructive minutes... its like getting kicked in the nuts by Roberto Carlos or punch in the face by Mike Tyson...

Here goes... i shall intro the main characters...Mr. Wei Jie and Pearly( i dunno if i shld put a Ms or not...coz its hard to tell whether she human or not and no...i not being bad evil or nasty)

Wei Jie... ok truth be told... This guy is actually a very nice guy...but the way he dress is not something everyone can accept...er... pink skinny? Rude awakening to me and i couldn't get use to it 1st but soon its fine... his hair was kinda funny at 1st but not it looks better...

Pearly... 'It" is freakly... do not... i repeat do not look at her... if u value ur life... everyone say "she's" wierd but i think it's an understatement..."she's" not wierd...she's a fucking nutcase... who the fuck stares at her computer and grin widely at it... like some pyschopath... RUN EVERYONE... i see the making of a serial killer...serial rapist and a necrophile... <> which i feel is a understatement... at least they smell coz they sweated during work or apply something but pearly... smells at the start of the day...have you ever encounter soap and shampoo in ur life...u know?? a shower?? er?? wash?? water?? SIBEI JIALAT!!! KKN... and the way 'she' sits imagine...spilts on a chair... that's how wide 'she' sits...she look like kena hit by 15 3tonnes in a row for a few days and lastly fucking wierd accent... do not be decieved by her name... 'she' is nothing what the name suggest... fear for ur life... ( This is not biased... this is the truth and feel free to ask around...class w54Q and w54r)

Finally the story... This took place somewhere around after school hours before the 1 week vaacation...so its 4-6pm... 20,21,23 or 24 oct 2008... there were 4 ppl in the class at the time... the victim, Wei jie...
the freakshow, Pearly,
Calefare A, Jason
and Calefare B, Jason's friend

Pearly was packing and going home... she leave the class but soon came back and she approach

P : can i talk to u for a moment

Wei jie thot it was something random so he went out

W : what is it?

P : U like me... don't u??

Stunned... mind blank ( its like getting hit with a baseball bat in the head) he then say

W : pls restraint from uttering nonsense ...who told u so??

P : Coz u kept looking at me?

wei jie muz be thinking 'what the fuck!?'...

anyway its manner to look at someone when u speak so wei jie was looking at pearly at that time... then pearly spoke again...

P : can u dun look at me?? i'm feeling uneasy and i cannot speak my mind...

WHAT THE FUCK...OMG?? ytd when wei jie told me... i was stun for a fews seconds... and then i woke up... wah lan ah...knn... so fucking gross la... wei jie... pls work hard to live on... do not give up so easily...i know its easy for me to say coz u're the one going through this ordeal but we support u... from everyone who knows both this tragedy... hope this doesn't happen to anyone... may u be the last victim...

R.I.P...

wait wait... u're not dead yet...ps ps...=X

Only you understand what the meaning of a rainy night is to me

4 AM on a rainy night, the red skies reminds me of the times i spent with you, even if u're no longer here with me, life goes on, missing you is what i had endured since, its been too long for me, to habour a feeling for a decade only to find myself losing you again once and for all, hiding and dissappearing forever is what you choose i suppose, its your way of doing things, its so you.

forgetting you is what i can't seem to do, sometimes i feel like a cursed child ( o.O i'm no longer a child) it's like i found my favourite toy, never wanting to let go, denying all flaw and killing all obstacles that seperates me from it, only difference is that this toy has decided to run away on its own, hiding in the shadows, never to utter a word or it might not even be bother at all and ignored everthing.

Words cannot describe how much you're missed, the rain and the skies are what i wish could send u a message that i'm missing you, stil loving you?? i wonder what will happen when i finally see you again, will i freeze, run or approach you, what should i say, were you be alone or with someone, some many things running through this little head.

I"M DEAD. . . . . . . . . .forever. . . . . . . .