EMO EMO EMO

i got no friends... period

gonna have meals alone starting tmr...

isolate myself

welcome depression

i had dinner with my brother how pathetic...

She'll be loved ??

Currently addicted to Kpop... stuffing my ipod with videos of SNSD, 2NE1, Kara, Brown Eyed Girls, 4 Minutes and some others too... Since my return from korea, its been 20 days. Why does 20 days feels so long? i wonder how Noona is doing there, hope she's fine... =D

Again, have i been decieved by my never ending flickering heart?? why don't i miss Noona like 20 days ago? Time has again destroyed my time, distance is playing games with me, My life is a joke... tonight i think i offended my best friend, she ask me to die alone... perhaps i have nothing i want to hold on. If i were to die now, will i have regrets? will i have a last wish granted? what will i want?

Behind my mask, you can see an empty soul, behind my skin, lies a rotten corpse, deep inside my heart, it cold and tore apart in many many little pieces, will someone in angelic wings come mend it with needles and thread?

Am i going to spend my life wasted? i wanna inject myself with mercury, i die a blue death due to heavy metal poisoning...

why is the itunes playing " you raise me up" ?
you raise me up so can stand on mountains? i got no mountains in life i want to conquer
you raise me up to wake on stormy seas ? i cannot swim for shit

I'm useless?

Time to time i ponder... what is love... today i realise after almost 2 years, i don't know love,

6th days ago would be our 2nd year tgt, if we were tgt. . . . . . Thanks for destroying me with me once and for all..

I loved You. . . . . .

Sometimes it's better to just play dead

click click click, i saw something or rather someone... i've not been in contact with for the longest of times... i saw some pictures, i start to think, i start to ponder, i start to regret... why muz i fucking go see her profile? i'm glad thot... that ass looks so fucking ugly as usual... as if he's cursed! HAHA! but i guess i gotten over the fact that they are together... but still, i'll not give them my blessing...

when life turns to the depth of hell, she leave me, when it stays there, she dissappeared on me, now when i finally love somebody, she's freaking far away, and then i see this!? can i please reset time? i can still do so much, i can correct the mistakes, i can save my life and live with no regrets.

I'm still in korea, i dun wanna come back... noona misses me and i miss her too... can i give it my all for her? its foolish on my part, i'm just the 'brother' and whatever i do.. nv will stand? is it even love? i'm sure i feel this way a couple of times before... worst still it was my cousin perhaps... why are we cousin? everything is so fucking forbidden in my life!