Happy?

How can a person be happy when he spend ALL his life drown in his own world and all he listens to, are sad music? i "woke up" one day, sulking from my music playlist, isn't there anything happy to listen besides sad melodies and breaking up songs? The other were love songs, slow jazz and metal full of hatred.

How low can i sink now? i went to work yesterday telling myself that i need to move on with my life , i shall not complain anymore, it's up to me to improve my life, time to try lots of things out? even if it tired me out? Once and for all i want to settle this, when i go into the army next year, i'm so going to tell all my injuries and report them one by one but i'm still able to exercise, i'm going to prove it. However to make it all work out, i need the support of my friends. Going to exercise alot is never easy, emo-ing alone is.

I'm gonna earn alot of money, i let fate drag me along too far, its time i break through. this time i need it to be a master of my life, no more empty bank account at the end of the month, no more saving money, no more getting laugh at over my weight but height i cannot do anything. insoles perhaps?

I hereby challenge LIFE, come on! BRING IT ON!