Fly Fly into the Moon...

I want to return to the quiet days where I'm all alone...
I loved the way when we're together... I hated the day we parted...
I seek for the excitement of falling in love... I found disappointment when I realize that none were like you...
I want you... but i don't want your replacement...
Maybe to me you were the one... I hope i can be someone the one...
I love the thing i do with you... I hope i can do things that i haven done with someone else and find new hope...
I look into your eyes that night and you caught my heart along with my soul... i have yet to find another pair of eyes that are as mesmerizing as yours...
I listen to 80's rock for those songs spoke off how my long for you... i listen to metal to feed the demon that is inside of me...
Sometimes i still walk past your place once in a while... hoping that i can see your face again... it been more than a year since i heard of your voice...
Are you still with him? is this fate that i end myself with just you... if this is fate... can i have another go?
Or am i wanting to get back to you cause i fail at trying to court someone else... i still remember how my heartaches every moment when you left...
Felt like a car crash... felt like a fatal stab into the heart... felt like getting buried alive...
I gave you roses... you return me tears... my own tears...
i sacrifice my all for you...you sacrifice me for him...
I still cannot understand why... I though our love is possible to overcome all...
The remedy will be the meeting of you... will i crumble? will i collapse? will i prevail?
My wings are tore off my back.... i flew above you as your guardian angel but no more....
I'm an insect in a container with the lip closed... and thrown into the sea...
I float from day to day wanting for someone to release me... like a genie in a bottle...

Romantic pharses??

Now folks... you think that you're romantic? you lover love to hear your mushy sweet talking? Think again... i'm gonna expose you now...

you Shine in the night skies - i see ghost

Wind in your hair - your hair very messy

skin as smooth as milk - your 're fat ( skin expand )

cherry like lips - pathetic small mouth...cannot open bigger and eat faster is it...

your eyes sparkles under the light - you better see an optician...

I love the way you look tonight - i hate the way you look on every other nights...

you are my one and only - this is the 14th girl i say this to already...

i wanna be there for your in every moment of your life - i'm a stalker... beware...

would you marry me? - erm.. wanna take up the full time maid post with no pay in my house?

i long to hold you every night before i sleep - but when i wake up... i wish it is another i'm holding on to...

fate brought us together - why i so suay know u?

i don't wana live a life without you - coz u pay for my bills and expenditure...

When i look in your eyes... i see love - when i look downwards... i see sex...

I live to love you - so if you catch me fooling around... it not me... it's the dead me... you cannot blame me...


Okay... i can only think of this much for now....

Sage Mode...

Ommmm... I have seen it all... i do not have any mortally bounds to this earth anyone. I seek trouble not... trouble finds me not... I do not have a problem.. problems do not have me in it... I'm neither smart nor dumb.. i just simply live on the sidewalk of life where i'm not involved...

Sure i get lonely sometimes but i miss being alone more than anything in the world... I began pondering if the existence of me is to view the world and compare myself in it.. I'm the standard for i do not care of anytyhing... i do not love or hate...

Basically if i dun care... nothing happens.. fair enough? poking heads into something is just not my style... life sure be free and easy with nothing to it. If a person has lots of friends, sure he/she will have lots of fun, company but however, lots of trouble as well... I have none of that... no love problems, family problems, friends problem... why??

It's really easy... i have no expectation from any of them... if you want to go then bye bye... sure.. you will be miss... but just a little... not more than 5 mins... All same to my family, friends and love...

My world is dark and gloomy but i love it... i need a break from life as usual... gimme a break... i think i'm cutted out to survive on my own... 你们永远不会明白孤独的快乐.

mask of the serial killer...

Can anyone please explain my fatigue? My brain is half dead... we have enough sleep i guess... i need a life... the sudden intention to grab and hug girls on the streets are increasing day by day...

Finally the inner demon is taking over... the emo will become the evil for good... nopez i dun need you and you or you... i will only consider not to kill the one who is gonna be with me...

All things are lies, i live in an imaginary world and the only thing that is clear is the lust that burns inside of me... love?? my ass... this is pure lust... for pure love is fake... pure lust lives forever...

Control i need to control... OR i can just let it all out... life is like a dating game... i shall commence the date 20 girls in a month thingy...

Why Why Why... i shall destroy u in 2 seconds.... lalalalalala... when the world is dead... they will soon realise what state my heart have always been...

As dead as i am... i give people false... yes... the world most notorious hypocrite is being born here and now...

so in case you get hurt... go away... stay away... hide and you will be able to see light for another day...

FATE

Come Come... walk towards me... step here... yes... right under the spot light...
Welcome to the cross road of life... do you wish to take a left or a right turn? on both path there will be two boxes...
I hereby put choices in front of you... you can only choose 1... and betray the other...

I will put "friends" in a box... i will put "money" in a box... on the left path
I will put "love" in a box... I will put 'family" in a box... on the right path

Now you will choose two boxes... But you must choose one from each direction...
What will you choose?

My Name is FATE...

I want nobody nobody but u...

Give me a change.. i want to write love letters with u in the sands... under the dreamy blue skies... Raining flower petals as we run through the beach with love caught in our feet... No distance is too great too tear us apart... no one can rip us away... I would make the world a lot whole place just for you and me... Never will this heart swap to another shores... for it is rooted deeply in a complicated fashion in your heart... how sweet it would be to be owned only by you... you're irreplaceable to me... i give up everything in the world but i would never give you up...

If there is a limit to my love for u , i would choose eternity - 1 year. That way when the world is about to end, i would know and i would love you even more for that last year... but that is not really impossible because I'm already madly in love with you... i dream everyday wanting to be with you... Dreams can be reality? dream are what that makes a man great... you are what that will make me great...

My wallet might go empty... My gadgets will fail me... My friend might leave me... My body might stop functioning but My love for you will carry on forever... How true i cannot tell because it is so clear that it has become transparent...

i want to take you everywhere in the way... we might get lose in the jungle... flush down the river... chased by beast... endure starvation... but with you around me... I would enjoy every inch and every bit of it... If we have to undergo it again... i gladly accept...

Now to sum it up... words cannot describe how much i miss you... Expression are not great enough to fully show how delighted i am when i see you... Time is not a barrier but a chain that manifests my love for you... i drowned in my own love for you... gimme a hand?

What is that four letter word again?

Sometimes i ask myself, how many times have i stay hidden in a corner peeping at her...
How often have i felt the disappointment whenever a unknown person is beside her...
What are those feelings? Jealousy,Envy or just plain Lust? Is this kind of feeling a curse or is this considered bliss? Can i ever stop feeling like hiding behind there for good? how many hours, minutes and seconds have i spent thinking of something that i might be just out of reached?

What qualities do i possess that is gonna make it happen, have my physical traits finally become such a burden? Nevermind the name taunting i suffered in life, I'm fine with the lousy genes that i possesed which have wore me down greatly, it's okay to be lacking in the brain department and also being born with some injuries here and there . But seriously, to never achieve anything in life till now? is this fate? or karma from a past life? GOD's doing ( if there really is one) ? I cannot imagine how this is going to change in the next ten years... Am i going to single forever? I deserved it don't i?

I must have seriously done something wrong to deserve something like this... what's it like to jump off a 12th storey building? if i were to depart on a journey to hell, how many and who exactly will be there to send me off... probably no one... life is a cycle of birth, sickness, aging and death... lets say i cut short all this processes and jump straight to the last phrase... how many people will shed a tear for me? My very existance lies with me... struggling in this fuck up place call home?... how life would have been better if i was born somewhere else? maybe even some third world country... sure... i would have nothing to eat... no luxuries in life but i may actually be happier than i'm currently...

I hope things can change soon on my birthday which most probably is just another day for me and everyone of u... I need a turning point... the path i'm in is the gatewayl to destruction...

22 soon... i dun wanna be single!