She'll be loved ??

Currently addicted to Kpop... stuffing my ipod with videos of SNSD, 2NE1, Kara, Brown Eyed Girls, 4 Minutes and some others too... Since my return from korea, its been 20 days. Why does 20 days feels so long? i wonder how Noona is doing there, hope she's fine... =D

Again, have i been decieved by my never ending flickering heart?? why don't i miss Noona like 20 days ago? Time has again destroyed my time, distance is playing games with me, My life is a joke... tonight i think i offended my best friend, she ask me to die alone... perhaps i have nothing i want to hold on. If i were to die now, will i have regrets? will i have a last wish granted? what will i want?

Behind my mask, you can see an empty soul, behind my skin, lies a rotten corpse, deep inside my heart, it cold and tore apart in many many little pieces, will someone in angelic wings come mend it with needles and thread?

Am i going to spend my life wasted? i wanna inject myself with mercury, i die a blue death due to heavy metal poisoning...

why is the itunes playing " you raise me up" ?
you raise me up so can stand on mountains? i got no mountains in life i want to conquer
you raise me up to wake on stormy seas ? i cannot swim for shit

I'm useless?

Time to time i ponder... what is love... today i realise after almost 2 years, i don't know love,

6th days ago would be our 2nd year tgt, if we were tgt. . . . . . Thanks for destroying me with me once and for all..

I loved You. . . . . .