4 letters that will last Eternally..

Guess, and the answer is TIME, counting down my days to schedule wedding, my ideal job, my dream home, my holidays and even the country that i want to stay in. I must say.. one life time to accomplish it, is just not even... there is just some much i want, is it call greed, NO. i want to achieve it by my own means but i guess, i can only do so much.

I need more time, i have yet to travel the world, yet to do a lot of things, why am i condemn in this pathetic place, if i was both somewhere better with more opportunities, life would be different, so much different.

Who the fuck decides where am i born? stupid people go around thinking and preaching, god is fair. stupid.. is it far for u to be born in war torn countries... try telling that to them and see what happens to u. do u believe in ghost? do u believe in god? you might have encounter some thing freaky and explainable. If it's good the word to describe it is GOD, if it is bad then the word is Ghost / Satan / Evil. You see many ways to describe something bad very little to something good. why? because humans have the thinking that its already good, if i change it, it might become bad. so lets not touch it.

I SAY SHALLOW. so pls fuck off...

No more

I sense it, can you? a new nation of suicidal youth? well, in japan, there have been ppl meeting up tgt to commit suicide. actually the word commit suicide.. hmmm... why commit, is it a crime? well it is if you fail to take your life in sg, now even the government decides on ur life. True slaves for life.

Anyway, the reason for this entry is because of what i saw on msn just now. Everyone's Pm is emo. hurt, jealousy, hatred and guilt took up 95% of everyone nick, 4% didn't have a nick and 1% was all happy and stuff. seriously... not joking only 1 % were happy. tells alot about how people are feeling nowadays.

I emo-ed for like 2 weeks, meaningless meaningless life, life nv fail to demoralise me. tearing my little heart piece by piece. I want to grow wings all of a sudden and fly away to somewhere i can call home. be it a desert or island in the middle of no where. Where i can fully relax myself and not worry bout the world.

Who invented money, what a bastard. curse u! stealing is fun! lets all steal instead.

Sg is -_-

Well Well Well... last night i tried to download a very retro song from the internet, 爱你不是爱给别人看 and guess what... it was no where to be found... wtf!? cannot go by torrent, website like sogou also dun have... in the end... thx to real player... i download a flv file... WEE!!! but then... the conversion part was a sucker... took me 20 mins to find a good and free converter... in which i quickly converted the file to AAC... just in case... KNN... the internet is sucky in retro stuff...

Life is a rollercoaster... but i want mine to be all ups... can i ? never the less... i want a quiet and peaceful life... doing the things i want to... ignoring the people i want to... being less hypocritical in life even if its fun... i still wanna try drugs... at least once...

Marilyn Manson, (Coma White) : A pill that makes you numb, A pill that makes you dumb... A pill that makes you anybody else.

Ain't pills great... My life has reach a point where i'm starting to drown in the gray area... i see no future.. am i discarded? i think i'm by my own self... BANG! BANG! shit...!! i'm shoot in the heart... twice in the same wound? both physically and emotionally?? juz let me die....

LALALA!! SPLASH SPLASH... i love to play with water and then drown someone in it... watching the person struggle is kinda fun... LALALA!

Ok... random...so random... what is my blog still existing? world mystery that can never be solved....

1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9

See those numbers above... they are called choices... i can try all but only choose 1... but the thing is that the numbers will also choose me... only 1 is destine for me... life is full of ups and lows and there is also the middle... One min u're king of the world... next...The king of the damn... or u can juz be plain simple and retarded...

Tick tock tick tock... dong dong dong...! the clock strikes 12... u start staring into the distant... black mist covered the field of flowers in front of u... the girls who always stands there around this time isn't longer there... you turn your head and what's facing u is another high and dilapidated wall... soon to crumble... that is your past... just look up... the light is shining in your face... you can't turn back you can't go straight... what do u do... Suddenly a hand reaches towards you...

Skin so soft... a gentle touch, you can't see her face but you felt the warmth that she radiates.. you're getting addicted... you try to search for her face... you pull her close... her smile captivates you... angel wings revealed themselves infront of u... a sight so majestic that even the withered flowers came back alive...

L.O.V.E

This was meant to be... is this the beganing... but... it feel like the end as well... she had to go... you're holding her back but you have yet to try... how do u say? how would u react? she tries to leave... you hold on tighter... she looks into your eyes... your tears rolled down your face... are these tears of hope or sorrow...? you began to ponder... She kisses you on your forehead...

you let go and she was gone... forever...

It's that time of the year again...

I'm still waiting for someone special to celebrate my birthday with me... someone who will plan something secretive for me and make me go with a big surprise... however, even if it's just some simple dinner and a night at home watching a movie together would be fine... am i asking for much? i dun think so... 22 in 9 hrs time... this wish will not come true again this year...

I am simple and do not need much to survive. Just a little more to light up my days...

Fly Fly into the Moon...

I want to return to the quiet days where I'm all alone...
I loved the way when we're together... I hated the day we parted...
I seek for the excitement of falling in love... I found disappointment when I realize that none were like you...
I want you... but i don't want your replacement...
Maybe to me you were the one... I hope i can be someone the one...
I love the thing i do with you... I hope i can do things that i haven done with someone else and find new hope...
I look into your eyes that night and you caught my heart along with my soul... i have yet to find another pair of eyes that are as mesmerizing as yours...
I listen to 80's rock for those songs spoke off how my long for you... i listen to metal to feed the demon that is inside of me...
Sometimes i still walk past your place once in a while... hoping that i can see your face again... it been more than a year since i heard of your voice...
Are you still with him? is this fate that i end myself with just you... if this is fate... can i have another go?
Or am i wanting to get back to you cause i fail at trying to court someone else... i still remember how my heartaches every moment when you left...
Felt like a car crash... felt like a fatal stab into the heart... felt like getting buried alive...
I gave you roses... you return me tears... my own tears...
i sacrifice my all for you...you sacrifice me for him...
I still cannot understand why... I though our love is possible to overcome all...
The remedy will be the meeting of you... will i crumble? will i collapse? will i prevail?
My wings are tore off my back.... i flew above you as your guardian angel but no more....
I'm an insect in a container with the lip closed... and thrown into the sea...
I float from day to day wanting for someone to release me... like a genie in a bottle...

Romantic pharses??

Now folks... you think that you're romantic? you lover love to hear your mushy sweet talking? Think again... i'm gonna expose you now...

you Shine in the night skies - i see ghost

Wind in your hair - your hair very messy

skin as smooth as milk - your 're fat ( skin expand )

cherry like lips - pathetic small mouth...cannot open bigger and eat faster is it...

your eyes sparkles under the light - you better see an optician...

I love the way you look tonight - i hate the way you look on every other nights...

you are my one and only - this is the 14th girl i say this to already...

i wanna be there for your in every moment of your life - i'm a stalker... beware...

would you marry me? - erm.. wanna take up the full time maid post with no pay in my house?

i long to hold you every night before i sleep - but when i wake up... i wish it is another i'm holding on to...

fate brought us together - why i so suay know u?

i don't wana live a life without you - coz u pay for my bills and expenditure...

When i look in your eyes... i see love - when i look downwards... i see sex...

I live to love you - so if you catch me fooling around... it not me... it's the dead me... you cannot blame me...


Okay... i can only think of this much for now....