1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9

See those numbers above... they are called choices... i can try all but only choose 1... but the thing is that the numbers will also choose me... only 1 is destine for me... life is full of ups and lows and there is also the middle... One min u're king of the world... next...The king of the damn... or u can juz be plain simple and retarded...

Tick tock tick tock... dong dong dong...! the clock strikes 12... u start staring into the distant... black mist covered the field of flowers in front of u... the girls who always stands there around this time isn't longer there... you turn your head and what's facing u is another high and dilapidated wall... soon to crumble... that is your past... just look up... the light is shining in your face... you can't turn back you can't go straight... what do u do... Suddenly a hand reaches towards you...

Skin so soft... a gentle touch, you can't see her face but you felt the warmth that she radiates.. you're getting addicted... you try to search for her face... you pull her close... her smile captivates you... angel wings revealed themselves infront of u... a sight so majestic that even the withered flowers came back alive...

L.O.V.E

This was meant to be... is this the beganing... but... it feel like the end as well... she had to go... you're holding her back but you have yet to try... how do u say? how would u react? she tries to leave... you hold on tighter... she looks into your eyes... your tears rolled down your face... are these tears of hope or sorrow...? you began to ponder... She kisses you on your forehead...

you let go and she was gone... forever...

It's that time of the year again...

I'm still waiting for someone special to celebrate my birthday with me... someone who will plan something secretive for me and make me go with a big surprise... however, even if it's just some simple dinner and a night at home watching a movie together would be fine... am i asking for much? i dun think so... 22 in 9 hrs time... this wish will not come true again this year...

I am simple and do not need much to survive. Just a little more to light up my days...

Fly Fly into the Moon...

I want to return to the quiet days where I'm all alone...
I loved the way when we're together... I hated the day we parted...
I seek for the excitement of falling in love... I found disappointment when I realize that none were like you...
I want you... but i don't want your replacement...
Maybe to me you were the one... I hope i can be someone the one...
I love the thing i do with you... I hope i can do things that i haven done with someone else and find new hope...
I look into your eyes that night and you caught my heart along with my soul... i have yet to find another pair of eyes that are as mesmerizing as yours...
I listen to 80's rock for those songs spoke off how my long for you... i listen to metal to feed the demon that is inside of me...
Sometimes i still walk past your place once in a while... hoping that i can see your face again... it been more than a year since i heard of your voice...
Are you still with him? is this fate that i end myself with just you... if this is fate... can i have another go?
Or am i wanting to get back to you cause i fail at trying to court someone else... i still remember how my heartaches every moment when you left...
Felt like a car crash... felt like a fatal stab into the heart... felt like getting buried alive...
I gave you roses... you return me tears... my own tears...
i sacrifice my all for you...you sacrifice me for him...
I still cannot understand why... I though our love is possible to overcome all...
The remedy will be the meeting of you... will i crumble? will i collapse? will i prevail?
My wings are tore off my back.... i flew above you as your guardian angel but no more....
I'm an insect in a container with the lip closed... and thrown into the sea...
I float from day to day wanting for someone to release me... like a genie in a bottle...

Romantic pharses??

Now folks... you think that you're romantic? you lover love to hear your mushy sweet talking? Think again... i'm gonna expose you now...

you Shine in the night skies - i see ghost

Wind in your hair - your hair very messy

skin as smooth as milk - your 're fat ( skin expand )

cherry like lips - pathetic small mouth...cannot open bigger and eat faster is it...

your eyes sparkles under the light - you better see an optician...

I love the way you look tonight - i hate the way you look on every other nights...

you are my one and only - this is the 14th girl i say this to already...

i wanna be there for your in every moment of your life - i'm a stalker... beware...

would you marry me? - erm.. wanna take up the full time maid post with no pay in my house?

i long to hold you every night before i sleep - but when i wake up... i wish it is another i'm holding on to...

fate brought us together - why i so suay know u?

i don't wana live a life without you - coz u pay for my bills and expenditure...

When i look in your eyes... i see love - when i look downwards... i see sex...

I live to love you - so if you catch me fooling around... it not me... it's the dead me... you cannot blame me...


Okay... i can only think of this much for now....

Sage Mode...

Ommmm... I have seen it all... i do not have any mortally bounds to this earth anyone. I seek trouble not... trouble finds me not... I do not have a problem.. problems do not have me in it... I'm neither smart nor dumb.. i just simply live on the sidewalk of life where i'm not involved...

Sure i get lonely sometimes but i miss being alone more than anything in the world... I began pondering if the existence of me is to view the world and compare myself in it.. I'm the standard for i do not care of anytyhing... i do not love or hate...

Basically if i dun care... nothing happens.. fair enough? poking heads into something is just not my style... life sure be free and easy with nothing to it. If a person has lots of friends, sure he/she will have lots of fun, company but however, lots of trouble as well... I have none of that... no love problems, family problems, friends problem... why??

It's really easy... i have no expectation from any of them... if you want to go then bye bye... sure.. you will be miss... but just a little... not more than 5 mins... All same to my family, friends and love...

My world is dark and gloomy but i love it... i need a break from life as usual... gimme a break... i think i'm cutted out to survive on my own... 你们永远不会明白孤独的快乐.

mask of the serial killer...

Can anyone please explain my fatigue? My brain is half dead... we have enough sleep i guess... i need a life... the sudden intention to grab and hug girls on the streets are increasing day by day...

Finally the inner demon is taking over... the emo will become the evil for good... nopez i dun need you and you or you... i will only consider not to kill the one who is gonna be with me...

All things are lies, i live in an imaginary world and the only thing that is clear is the lust that burns inside of me... love?? my ass... this is pure lust... for pure love is fake... pure lust lives forever...

Control i need to control... OR i can just let it all out... life is like a dating game... i shall commence the date 20 girls in a month thingy...

Why Why Why... i shall destroy u in 2 seconds.... lalalalalala... when the world is dead... they will soon realise what state my heart have always been...

As dead as i am... i give people false... yes... the world most notorious hypocrite is being born here and now...

so in case you get hurt... go away... stay away... hide and you will be able to see light for another day...

FATE

Come Come... walk towards me... step here... yes... right under the spot light...
Welcome to the cross road of life... do you wish to take a left or a right turn? on both path there will be two boxes...
I hereby put choices in front of you... you can only choose 1... and betray the other...

I will put "friends" in a box... i will put "money" in a box... on the left path
I will put "love" in a box... I will put 'family" in a box... on the right path

Now you will choose two boxes... But you must choose one from each direction...
What will you choose?

My Name is FATE...