A burning romance

On nights like those where i desire for you...here's for you...

I should have memorise every scent of yours that triggers my lust for you
I should have longed for dusk for that moment that i can embrace you while we laid dormant
I should have hearken every whisper that you have mumble
I should have acted it out about how much you are missed
I should have try to savvy the very last moments that we shared
I should have disguise my emotions so i do not get rooted into your hearted
I should have learned to habour hatred for you
I should have laid waste to the very memories that once wrap us in a circle of felicity
I should have hid my very last breathe that i still loved you

I hear you no more, like a shadow in the night you vanquished without a trace,
Leaving me in a circle of death, never to escape, tormented and tortured for life,
For it is the very fact that i live to long for you,I was alive for you,
For i'm no longer living, for my passion has died,
For my desires burned into thin air,
For the world of happiness never would exist again,
For the nights where you would not appear again,
For love has died,
Never will it sparkle my fragile heart once more,
Never to feel my warm blood once more,
Never to hear a laughter so clear from the heart once more.
Never to hold you close once more, never to see you once more,
Such is my love for you for it never will come true once more.

Round stuff

Well...i realise that asians and round stuff nv quite goes very well...for example..sports...when the last time an asian team won the soccer world cup...? The answer is NEVER!! who plays in the NBA?? yao ming and?? er...another 1 or 2...what about tennis?? er...hmmm...golf?? wait... is that something singh guy considered asian....he's from fiji...oh dear...So as u can see we basically sux with round stuff...

Take sex for an example...asian have flatter chest than caucasians...they also have bigger balls than us!! yes i'm sure u know what i meant...think sexual...speaking of which...the longest dick in the world belongs to some black guy( 11-14 inch) ...asian are not even close...

What else?? er ..lets see...to add on to the sports part...our world super power China excels in almost every sport except for soccer and basketball where a ball ( which is round) is required...

Anyway...i shall welcome myself to the jungle...i have been sleeping in the living room for months now and i also realise that i'm not really sleeping alone...occasionally my brother joins me but most nights...the only companion i have is INSECTS...ants...a few days back a cockroach...and last nite a yellow bug actually rested on my pillow...BITCH!! that's my pillow...GRRRR!!!
WELCOME TO THE JUNGLE!! (by guns n roses)

Something's happening

Well...i dunno why but i seem to be trying too hard to enterain everyone...till the extend of lameness...trying to create conversations that suppose to be interesting but in the end bored everyone...seriously if i were them who got bored at a lamer talking rubbish...i would certainly ask the person to shut up...

YTD was out with Xiu zhen and Co. to Suntec...today with W55D to marina square...same area different mall... both went through city link...geez...why no one ever suggest going clubbing?? For almost 21 years..i only been to 2 clubs before...both in indonesia...which my cousin richard brought me there with his friends...but in SG nv...no st.james...no zouk....no MOS...haiz...wanna go see mumbo...sound fun...everyone with the same dance step....

BORE AH!!!!!

What a disturbance!

My week has been boring...went for dinner on monday with liang hong...dj...and gary @ Parkway Parade...we had Mos burger which was okay but too ex and anytime better than the nonsense i eat at home...at home the maid is trying real hard to make sure everyone get kidney failure...i think eating maggi mee also won't die so fast as compared to the maid's cooking...haiz...we understand that in your hometown (maid) salt is very precious...but hellooo.....welcome to singapore...salt is nothing here u idiot...

My maid is very the disgusting...a few weeks back...stan caught her drinking water directly from the water container in the fridge...motherfucking disgusting...fucking maid...at least get a cup, u fucking idiot...u know a C.U.P...the glass/ceramic thingy with a handle...comes in different colors and sizes shape like a cylinder...?? ever owe 1 before??? So wat u may say....nothing wrong what...but here's the catch...all my sibling are too lazy to get cups so most of the time we drink directly...since we're siblings we dun mind coz we have the same saliva but the maid?! OMG...is this a culture clash...but being 1/4 indonesia...and knowing some indonesians myself...we know what is respect...but this maid of mine is dumb beyond my imagination...she's lazy too...

If i were to do an inspection...i can easily spot many the places that have been neglected when she cleans (if it even is cleaned to being with)...clothes always not iron...not fold too...left in the wrong cupboard despite telling her whose is whose for like a gar-zillions times!! worse till folded but left in the bucket where it's collected....trying to piss me off?? whenever my dad calls for her...she acts deaf...sometimes i feel like talking a hard object and hammer her jia lat..!! jia lat...!! Here something i really cannot stand...she's like damn fat..yet she wastes food...buy food for her...she eats half and throws it away...wtf...can't she keep it for laters?? Even we dun thow away the food...what makes u tink u can do so?? It's not like u get alot to eat back in ur hometown too yet you waste food... screw up maid from hell!!
Dun ask me why...but i suddenly juz feel like scolding the damn maid and a cockroach scared me when i was typing this entry...appearing beside my lappy outta no where...gonna kill it tmr...pesticide the whole living room...!!! RAWR!!!!

holidays = Boring days

Yesterday was the happiest day of the month... PAYDAY (oi...i got no money...dun try and be so sticky to me) then i realise that our long time admin in the company is quiting...sianz...she's like the backbone of the company...if she quits then the promoters life will be in jeopardy...well i'm just looing forward to the hell... i'll go through next...My next mission is to go and hook up with the next admin...use my socialising skill consisting of lame jokes and sweet tongue flattering to win her over...then life will be easy for me again...i think..

Then at nite was chatting with Ying Xiang (who is my best friend in class) and i realise that some girls in class say me sei...hmmmm...oh well...i guess i'm just more open in class perhaps...but to think ying xiang stood me for me...so touched!!!! but here's the ironic part...1st day she saw me..her impression was that i'm a tiko-pek...sad la...why everyone judge me by my looks and it not like they're saying i'm cute....
When i was in sec 1...i got lots of god-sisters becoz they all say i very cute...and god sisters were the 'in' thing then...so i think i got at least 10...sekali who knows 8 years later...ppl say i look sei and not cute anymore....seriously...this is call Rude Awakening...GRRR...why liddat!?!?

Now is holidays...so guess what i'm doing? hehe....playing diablo 2 at home...so funnnn...ya rite....so fucking sianz...only xun fu ask me out to fix his psp at sim lim...do i look like i got the psp fixing face?? that time is xiu zhen's brother ask me go with him...now is xun fu...next is who?? my sister?? coz she also got psp...then before i know all my frenz with psp will be asking me to go fix with them...grrrr...sekali mine also spoilt...H.A.H.A. funny huh!?!?

I realise that Stan has been reading this girls blog...a girl that just join his church recently...( who would expect my brother to be christian) and this girl is 16 but she looks damn chao lao...however i muz admit...i word to describe...'CHIO'...as usual Alvyn was trying to condemn her...and finally he found something to...her nose..is quite big...but looking at Stan's...also damn big...like Chen Long...WHAHAHHAHHAH!!! wait i think mine also quite big ( use my hand and cover my nose)....with 1 hand i shall hit the publish post button to submit this entry....

Another lonely night

The time is 3.41 am...and i'm not asleep yet despite xiu zhen asking me to go and sleep...but how can i ever waste a saturday nite sleeping?? its just morally not right...saturdays are meant to have fun...not sleep...i hate to sleep but i have been sleeping alot lately...who sound so oxymoron you may ask...reason is that...sleep is a need not a want...for that who dun noe...if u do not sleep for more a certain period of time...u will start to halluncate and that is going to be the start of your insanity...CONGRATS...clap clap...

So...now is 3.45am and i got nothing blog about...why?? bcoz i didn't encounter anything fun today or the past few days at all...on friday i went to sim lim to collect my laptop and went bugis to shop alone...bought a 10 dollars watch...wanted to buy clothes but nothing caught my eye...then emo-ly went home alone...i enjoy taking bus rides on late nights...especially when the bus is almost vacant...listen to my music and emo...feels damn right...seriously..what happen to my life?? my brother, Alvyn ytd was insulting me...saying it sucks to be me...why?? he said bcoz i cannot let go out my ex....so i can't get another girlfriend thus i'm stucked and fucked up...
he 's right...i'm still searching for the special kind of feeling that can make me feel that i'm loving someone again...but now...i'm on the verge of believeing that it might never happen again...
its either the fact that i've changed or that i can't let go of her...whoever says that time can heal stuff are great decievers as well...from my point of view....time can only bury things...it cannot heal things...so if u're force to give me the one you love...and if the person tells you that it takes time to let go...tell the person to fucking go and knock the damn wall...for it will never happen...a good method would be that..you start to hate the person....
Hatred makes wonders...lame but true...

Heard of the song 'No More Lonely Nights'...tonight the song will be one more lonely night plus lots of rains....for the sky is soaked in red tonight... 1 more month till my birthday and i start to remind myself that for 21 years i've been spending all my birthdays alone...how i wish someone special can spend it with me...i wonder if 'she' will sms me happy birthday this year...not looking forward to my birthday this year and every other years to come...for i've been reminded that i have accomplish nothing in my god damn life yet... ( i wish i can hear her voice tonight but it seems that it will never happen, my life became fucked the day she left and no one's fixing it, mayb i dun deserve to love again)

Lazy blogger

I didn't know that not blogging = to being lazy...kena scolded lazy pig...hahaha!!!

yes yes...the pig is gonna blog now...before i get curse and swore at...worse still they just might parade me in orchard, in a cage for being a lazy blogger!! OUCH!!

A few days back...or rather tuesday we and Dj meet after school at marine parade...that day i was wearing shorts and slippers....why do i mention this...you must be thinking this has nothing to do with going to marine parade rite?? welll think again...this xiu zhen and cihui commented that why i wear so shabby to there....i was thinking what the hell...these two mountain tortoise come and tell me that going to parkway parade is a big thing!? The answer is WRONG...its nothing at all...grrrr....its like so pathetic there...there's basically nothing there...and the reason why i'm going there is bcoz dj wanna buy some old game...Diablo 2...

But the real highlight of the night was the Fish and Co. which was that damn good!!!!!

Fishy coasters...looks damn cool!!

(Under the seas...Under the seas) quoted from the little mermaid...performed by,

yours truly, Eugene Teo

Visualise and enjoy....!!!! LALALALA....

Seafood platter!! for those who never eat before...there are prawns, sotong, fish and chips and rich!!! A divine potion to be exact...

This was what DJ order...i dun even know what the hell it is...all i know is that mine is food and his is just some crap...sadddd....

This baby is quite a rocker ( in potion, its too sweet thought) SEA MONKEY FREEZE!!!!

The first sip was fantasic...!!!!!!

second sip was awesome...!!!!

third sip was great...!!!

fourth sip was fine...!!

fifth sip was okay...!

the sixth sip was getting boring...........(>_<)

the seventh was definately nerve-racking to the taste bud and the brain ( brain freeze!!! ARGH!!!!) then i throw the whole burden on DJ...Cheers Mate!! =X

No doubts the potion was generous...i still manage to finish my food... ( i try not to waste food as much as possible) i'm a good samaritan to food...for not wasting their damn lifes!!

However the SEA MONKEY FREEZE was a task too tough to handle...couldn't down the entire shit...

After the meal we went to buy beach pants...DJ going to palau Bintan...fucking cool!! i wish i could go with my friends too sometimes... best is girls!! YAY!!! YAY!! ... *Message from reality...Mr.Eugene Teo...pls wake up...it ain't gonna happen any soon* Then its was time to go home...oh ya...i also bought a nike shoe bag...heres the ironic part...while choosing the shoe bag...2 of it caught my eyes the nike 1 and an adidas 1...Nike cost $20 adidas cost $25...HUH??? and the nike 1 has better material!! WTH..since when did adidas becomes more popular then nike??

So we went to take the bus home together and i took 12 with him...according to him...the bus is usually vacant...according to my eyes...its tells the opposite...WAH!! so bloody crowded...Since it was crowded...you can guess what i'm gonna talk about next...AN ACCIDENT OCCURED..!!

12 was a double decker bus, me and DJ were standing near to the stairs to the upper deck...after some stops...some auntie in her late 30s tried to align...from the stairs...some uncle was standing on the stairs and the auntie tried to squeeze her way past the uncle who should't be there at all...

END RESULT: she fell down...and stepped DJ's leg by surprize...and she also sprain her leg...

Knowing that she injured...she saying to grumble about the ignorant uncle who stood where he shouldn't have stood...softly i hear... "quoted word for word" with some intervals between

she said : why u stand there?? so stubborn...!!!people fall down also dunno...!!! stupid ah!!

Maybe if she didn't try to squeeze her way past the man and instead try asking the person to get down the stairs 1st...these wouldn't have happened...So who's to blame again!? if u dun gei kia...then u wouldn't injured yourself...better still take a cab...( she was travelling with her family) why save the money? fool!!

Soon we reach DJ's bus stop...and i need to take no.5 which DJ instructed me on which side to take only to realise that it was the wrong side...and i ended up in pasir ris...and i took the picture of E-Hub..then i had to take 21 home!! SIANZ AH!!