The Chronicles of the departed soul

again?

2011-07-17T04:08:00.001-07:00

Uncertain in life which direction to turn, which path to follow... where do i began.... life is pretty much planned out in such a way for me and i followed it through halfheartedly...well... can't say i hate it... but when its my turn to choose... i am lost...

As lost as ever, i wake up to realize that i rush to work... on my way there... my mind blanks and there nothing i can do about it.... maybe i enjoy doing nothing and stone my heart out... maybe i wanted to do something about it but i gave up....

Too little choices and far too many "what if"... and whats gonna happen next...

would u wanna know when your time is up? so u can actually plan a much more fulfilling life? well, i certainly do... i need a plan in life and currently my plan in life is to get a plan in life.... what a cunt~

WHAT?

2011-07-04T06:48:00.000-07:00

Its almost a year since i enlisted... means.... i am half way thru the journey.... not exactly the best 2 years of my life but since i am at it... better make full use of the time.... 010812 can u come faster! i miss my Pink IC.... coz the pict looks better than my green one!

I have been single for so long that it kinda feel better than being attached.... oh well... lets hpe things work out!

ohhhhh... its my birthday in 3 days time! my 24! 1st birthday send in the army...

i need a holiday! can i go to japan this time???????????? come on.... let me win 4D!!!!!

REC to PTE

2010-09-18T08:20:00.000-07:00

Fucking hell... just 2 more weeks... hahahaha... can't forgot a lot of shit... buddies and idiots that juz pisses ppl out... unfortunately alot of ppl kinda piss me off... Maybe in 1 bunk og 15 other ppl... 5 are idiots, 5 are assholes... and the last 5 are the people u can clink with.... not to mention a lot of idiots....

Why i kena this kind of vocation?? AMMO store man??

Reporting for duty....

2010-07-31T18:31:00.000-07:00

Sometimes... i wish i don't get overly attached to the things in life.. making it all difficult to part and stuff... Tmr is my 1st day at my "new job" and i'm very sure i won't like or enjoy it but anyway... what the heck... lets get it done and over with.

Here are somethings i'm gonna miss in Lhub. (The standing are all random)

1. Standing up from my seat and disturbing PG saying... "omg, those are not eczema patches, that's aids, OH NO!"
2. laughing the way the faith walks, cup a fart... wtf..XD. Finally after some many freaking years, i found someone who i can talk to open heartedly. This time i must cherish!
3. seeing how jaslyn laughs at certain things. DAMN CUTE. Hopefuly no one bullys her~~ coz she probably won't always retaliate and no one can share her burdens~~
4. taking a ruler and 'fighting' with lauren, singing in the toilet... making everyone sians~~~
5. Coffee and bj talk with mark over beer. Hey, bro we need to go to vietnam for a holiday very soon~~
6. Summer cannot entertain me with the weird stuff she says, FYI she;s highly entertaining
7. Going over for free ass touching session and free tea session with Jo. ( come come... letting u touch my ass for free ice-cream is totally worth it. *WINK*)
8. Having fishhead steamboat with selected few. ( Mr Koh, Pls stop taking the last piece of vegetable. Can't u just have the fish??)

I conclude the work at Lhub to be full of SHIT and the ppl there taking the lot of shit to be very shitty. However, i still love them so i suppose my new fetish is SCAT.

"Hold on ok??? i know u cannot handle it and time to time u crumble, but it aches me to seeing u cry so don't cry again ok... even if i can't be there.. i can still sense it ( i'm some kind of guru) ... i'll be missing u the most~~~~~ this time.. dun say its someone else that i miss the most coz my stupid brain and heart tells me it you... =P

Tonight i am going find some reason why i am still single.

2010-07-18T07:27:00.000-07:00

HERE GOES

1. I am very warm thanks to the lipids in my body and since its singapore and being 'too' warm is not a good thing.
2. all the good woman are married /attached.
3. Then there are those who have been hurt by others.
4. The man to woman ratio in the world happens to be 1 : 4. But we all know where they are from and we dun want them... NEVER!
5. This is the woe of some unfortunate man : being born short.
6. Karma : coz daddy isn't bill gates.
7. Being Asian... the girl that u like happens to be a SPG (Sarong party girl).
8. You just dun happen to look like 1 of the handsome / cute, Koreans singers / actor.
9. This is a killer (i love you but u do not share the same religious values as me)
10. You not the one.

Have i listed enough?? i can go on forever you know?? but lets not do it... and spare jack tonight. ^3^

Corportate Bastard...

2010-04-14T07:26:00.000-07:00

Today i am going to blog about something very serious... How to survive in a corporate...

1. Observation...

Whenever you arrive at your work place.. The 1st person you know will be your supervisor for he/she will be the one to guide you... 1st act dumb and observe... don't produce results 1st.. wait and see how they react when you make a mistake and when they ask you to do something and you ask them back how to do it even if its something simple...

Reason : This will tell you what kind of people your supervisor is, if they are perfectionist or not... when they show you how its done, they will curse and swear at the previous person in your post who did the thing before and did not do a good job ( this only applies if you think that the previous person did a okay job yet they complain, if that is not the case... the previous guy really sucked ).

Also the way they talk... do they go all out to explain?? or just briefly and you are on your own... Only the patient ones all go out... the gan chiong ones will never do that... Normally inpatient people need the work done fast and sweet with no mistakes and also their temper is NOT VERY GOOD... Always ask the patient ones for guidance... only they can tolerate you ( lets face it, you new on the job, you know nothing and you are very much irritating )... so no one hates you on your first day and you won't start sneezing/ headache/ diarrhea when they curse you at night...

2. Taking sides

Usually its the battle of the sexes... If you work in a male environment, quarrel will be less since everyone is easy going... less gossip and whining but when its the other case... enjoy getting caught in the crossfire when they aim arrows / bullets / bombs openly at one another or even someone from another department...
Woman always try to amend the system, pick trouble with the system and create a new one but only gets you confuse with it... men live with the system and worship it even if it truly thinks Big Time... woman get killed by it...

3. The smart ones

The smart people are those who shut up, YES, its not those who openly raise up ideas in meeting but those who live with the way things are and even if they do make changes, they keep quiet about it and never ever brag about it seeking unwanted attention... Attention is the number one killer...WHY?? Here's why...

When they need help.. they look for u.... u help them coz you're acting Mr. Nice Guy obviously ( deep down you wish all these dumb faggots die )... and what do you get?? more people needing help with even the simplest stuff and you are unable to finish your own work coz you are too busy helping others... fuck...

Secondly, The management starts to take note of who is Mr FOI (full of ideas) and who is a potential for promotion which also means taking up a leadership role... But here's the catch... you get a promotion with no pay rise.. WHY??? Its always seems that when the market is bad then they need new ideas ( even the higher ups are lazy... its the truth... secondly they dun wanna get into hot soup by changing things when they are working fine..CAREER SUICIDE that why someone always get a promotions, YOU CORPORATE SCAPEGOAT! ) thus since times are bad... they will probably say...

" CONGRATULATION ON YOUR PROMOTION TO (*Insert Rank here*) BUT WE ARE SORRY TO INFORM YOU THAT TIMES ARE BAD AT THE MOMENT, WE REGRET TO TELL YOU THAT A PAY RISE AT THE MOMENT WILL NOT BE POSSIBLE, WE WILL REVISE AT THE NEXT QUARTER OF THE YEAR, SORRY FOR THE INCONVENIENCE CAUSED, WE HOPE TO SEE ACHIEVEMENTS FROM YOU "
See!! nicely settled, more work, no extra pay... wait there's more.. When you don't deliver since now you are the STAR of the team... you soon become a shooting star... quickly diminished in another term... YOU'RE AXED. *CHOP*

The quiet person does a little more work ( just a little coz no ones knows that he's capable) but yet has his/her job and bonuses yearly More importantly no one hates them, they dun gets curse at night or even when they are working...

Try to stay alive now . . . Play Nice....

거짓말

2010-04-12T02:12:00.000-07:00

Currently my favorite Korean word : 거짓말...

Nothing in this world... mean anything to me... If i was lonely and alone... i rather be dead... Time is a double edge blade.. some times u want thing to be over quick... but you want your life to be long...

I found a job... that means I'll be working for 24/7... hope the people there are nice to me!! Just want to stay out of office politics... No young girls to prey on... oh shit... i mean befriend!! ( BIG SMILE ^3^)

Another chapter to began... guess I'm turning into a full pledge white collar...

Gimme a chance to let me at least try ok?? dun shut me up because of how i look...

why am i not?

2010-03-22T22:18:00.000-07:00

Why am i not musically talented??? i have a guitar with no strings and there's still many language i want to learn but i just don't have the money... I guess having a dream and living it is totally different... luckily the stuff that i set can be accomplished...

I count my days now... how long have i slack... i ask myself... turns out to be a lot... after meeting her ytd... i realise that i'm beginning to become super boring... its use to be grey now its black...

My black black heart~~~ (sing along session...) why won't u offer more... why won't you make it easier on me . . . . ~ ~ ~ ~ !

TKR

2010-03-18T21:15:00.000-07:00

I'm counting the days for a new... TKR...

fuckin shit... its killing me... btw... TKR is total knee replacement..

Or its just my nerves being press against whenever i bend my knees...

NOT COOL...

I don't understand... why am i born into this family...?? not so American / Australia family??? Its not that i dun love my family but i just wonder why...

Out of everywhere a small dot like Singapore??? where the weather is hot and the people are not even laid back and we're a freaking aging population...

Why strike rich... we all know that doing pure honest work is not the way to do it... it has been proven... EVERYWHERE... people who are nice and all goes bankrupt... people who are not " nice " makes a run for it and they manage to escape with their partners money and succeed somewhere else.. returning 10 years later as a tycoon... see what i mean???

i wanna be evil for that reason... *smiles*...

Post 151 - a new milestone in life...

2010-03-16T08:15:00.001-07:00

I am still alive... but not very much... then again... is it even possible to be like me??

Post #150

2010-03-08T21:26:00.000-08:00

Ok this is my 150 post and to mark that mile stone, i would like to tell everyone that. . . . .

I'M GOING NUTS... CONGRATZ EVERYONE...

Dreams are the best... i wanna sleep for a long time but i still want to wake up thou...

Over the last week, i dream that i had girlfriends!! YEAH!! not 1, not 2 but 3! on 3 different occasions...

since that is the case... its been bugging me ever since... when can i ever have that feeling again???

But i'm waiting for the right 1? i can't possible aim at everyone right? what if everyone just runs away? HAHAHAHAHA!!!

But then again what if 'she' has already appear but i just haven't realize... and now i got no money to ask anyone out for dates....

HAHAHAHA!!! SAD!

不对leh

2010-03-07T08:10:00.000-08:00

我开始觉得心里有一点不平衡，

想一想，我有两年，手没有人牵过了。

看到他人成双成对，看了就眼红。他妈的。

Fucking hard to blog in chinese... wtf... i see a circle infront... EMO is the signboard...

What is love... do we live for it? can we live without it? do appearance plays a part of it?? wealth??

I'm poor, fat and short... any takers... but i can promise that if i love u... it will be for a long long time....

不对leh... why liddat de... i'm suppose to portrait that i'm very happy... or at least to fake everyone... but i cannot.... there are many things not plan... and since its not plan... who gonna plan it? i didn't plan to plan it thus i cannot start to plan it as i dun have plans to plan anything in the first place... know what i mean??

I dun wanna go out... i dun wanna have fun... i want to fucking work... but what?? i dunno... i'm just fucking bored... ok? nothing is meaningful to me.. what is a meaningful job??

bloody hell shoot me...

2010-02-22T21:28:00.000-08:00

Last night i found some interesting notes inside my Ipod... so why not show it then...

Every tears i shed are for the moments i have to spend wihtout you by my side.

The moon light shines on me but what i see is nopt my shadow but a blurry image of you hugging me.

If pain is being without you... would you come back and cure me now?

The rain pours down on me as i stare at my shadow reflected from the street lights wishing the rain could wash away the feeling of missing you.

Sibei EMO.... i am turning from bad to worse...

A list of something...

2010-02-19T09:28:00.000-08:00

Today i went to dug up a book which refreshes my memories of somethings... it was fun... and maybe i will keep it for further reference just in case i forget how to feel again... but anyway...

Today's my first day of work... kinda stress myself to not slack and work hard... wasn't very good at it but still got a little lucky... phew... money money come in...

I need to make a list of things... like which Korean idol i love the most... oh what the hell might as well do it now...

Best voice : Taeyeon, Jea , BIG MAMA, Kim Yeon Ji

Most Bitchy : Jessica , Lee Hyori.... hehehe XD

Total Whiner : Son GaIn, Hyuna

The More you look, the cuter they get : TIFFANY ( mega crush on her now) , Seohyun, Nicole, Hyuna

Most hated as in really should be gone for good : HyoYeon, Amber ( stop recruiting men into girl groups!!)

Most addicting song : Wedding dress, If, Can you hear me, Byul

WEE!!! life is great for koreans... fucking hell i'm not in korea!

Star

2010-02-13T03:07:00.000-08:00

I'm sorry... if you didn't remind me... I would have just left you out... many times in life this happens and will continue... we don't cherish what we have and that is you in this case... You like to scold me right!? on msn and in life... saying how important i'm to you... but i didn't cherish... well... its just that no matter how close... guys and girls still have a gap and i'm not a person who shares alot... so it impossible for you to understand me well.. You still want a go? SI EMO KIA...

You nv did snooke me or left me behind did u? i dun rmb when it happened that you did ignored me... my hobby is irritating you... glad to say that... i can only say that life made us who we are and fate isn't on our side to further our friendship much... it always stuck there... deep down... i think we know that there's little we understand about each other...but still if i could rewind time... I'll still wanna make fun of u on the 1st day in class... u si ah lian...

I hope i didn't irritate you (I'm sure did) too badly or was rude to you... i'm a nice and polite person... but looks for unforgiving on me... i got the gift of the gab... but a super emo personality! I hope i can meet again soon... coz chances are sacred now since we grad.... we dun have a place to meet anymore... sobs... pls dun poke fun of me with her... later she siam me again... then i how?

Good Bye GF...

Times up

2010-02-12T08:09:00.000-08:00

Hello hello, my poly life is finally behind me... I still cannot believe it... feels so unreal but i guess unlike my secondary school days, i don't have the feeling of missing everyone since we were always in different class... the only group that i got more involved with were the HAPPY PILLS... despite i always kena bully and they take me for granted... everything else is fine... but i cannot stand people asking me to shut up... ( that's just way rude ) and i was trying to entertain... if i dun speak... it would be boring wouldn't it? i can do that...

I can't say i was a very good friend... i've been a horrible one to some others... i let some others down but i guess that's just me... i still cherish my friends... but i know in life... if there's a start, there will be an end... same thing to life.. u born and eventually one day... u're gonna leave the world... i want to make my life to have as many happy memories as much as possible...

I can say i made 1 best friends... we're also joking around... being lame... u know who u're! Thx mate... katong laksa soon...

words cannot express my feelings now...

Check this out..

2010-02-06T23:32:00.001-08:00

Cute right!?

So?

2010-02-03T05:39:00.001-08:00

Today i had a day off... no school...

I slept at home all day... it was not fun...

I'm pondering between a office job or my sales job...

NS when will u come exactly... i need to plan out my life

I decided to go for driving lessons...

After 3 years... its finally over... I'm glad...

But not for the things I'll miss out... some people that i like will never see again...

Some that i dun like or dun like me... good for u and me...

More importantly... I am going to miss some of you...

This is just way WRONG. . . . .

2010-01-31T19:10:00.001-08:00

I went home last night.... only to see this ( image below) what the hell is wrong with my bro... luckily its not the maid who did it... phew... huge sign of relieve... =)

-_-"

2010-01-30T08:09:00.000-08:00

I don't know. . . . .

Why is my Elmo and my Carebear having a chat on my bed?

Never forget your roots

2010-01-29T05:55:00.000-08:00

In life.. we're clouded by many things, lies, power and money. But we should never let go of our dreams and ambitions... no this isn't another motivation talk...

When i was young i was very short (now i'm just short) ... the adults would tell me that i would grow taller as time passes and mommy have a secret peanut root recipe that she assures us that we ( 3 brothers ) will grow taller ( she didn't say how much -_-" )... i wonder if it has to do with the sequence that who gets to drink it first but then... this is what happened...

A (elder bro) - 174

E (second bro) - 161

S ( youngest bro) - 158

Something is seriously wrong mom... did u dope da ge's soup only and gave me and stan plain water plus soy sauce instead!?!?!?

Life's never fair anyway.... so lets not dwell in the past...

Looking forward or rather thinking back about my dreams and stuff... i suppose i miss many things... suddenly i rmb this one...

Back when i was 18-19... i was in indonesia for 2 month staying with bro richard( cousin) everyday we would, go to his factory and then the driving range ( Golf ) . There's this area that we always drive pass that has lots of private housing.

On this very fateful day,i swear! an angel ascend from the heavens in the form of an indo chinese girl... There she stood... ( actually she was in a daze standing in the front porch of her house ) But her angelic face i cannot forget... Then i swore to brush up my indonesia and find an indo girl friend... well... IT NEVER DID HAPPEN.. YET...

The things is that i totally forgot bout it till now... dreams are so far fetch... but it is achievable ( giving lots of false hope here) ... rmb kids if Barney Stinson ( google this... this rocks) can do any girl... so can U!

FOOD!

2010-01-26T05:18:00.000-08:00

Someday i gonna be so sick of food... infact today is a good day but it just doesn't seems to be happening... i ate and ate and ate the entire day... woke up late for adv mat... was thinking of going for 3rd meeting coz that was lab but as usual... when something is about to end... my beloved brain will start to filter out stuff for me

( brain washing of the heart in process)

whoaaaa... u see ah.... so late le... u go or dun go also the same de la... go school to makan la ... at least can siam staying at home... can ask your frenz to pon with u too...

( brain washing of the heart completed )

thus today i went to sch to join amelia, dan and hui ling juz to makan... went into the canteen and have to decide what to eat.... recently always eat at the food haven canteen... anymore really will go to heaven... assuming that there's 10 stores... maybe only 3 can eat... wanted to eat economical rice but 3 years le... still the same dishes....

( SHOUT OUT TO VENTOR) siao ah.... 你不 sianz huh!?!?! 我吃得很 sianz 了阿 !!!

then dan say go to eat ayam penyet... i was thinking of having ayam gulai... but when i queue up... the person infront ordered ayam penyet... then i was like.... wow.... lets eat ayam penyet instead...

dear amelia who was having alot of cravings over her western food... saw our food when she came to the table and then... she wanted to eat ayam penyet too!! but then soon another person came with fish and chips and immediately i could tell she wanted to eat that... not to mention suki yaki in thursday was well..

soon they psycho everyone to pon class... then for some reason...we went to peggy's for steamboat... the butter that was used to grill was a killer... well.. at least for me it was.. the other was enjoying it... i was trying to catch my breathe and not puke in her hse... (-_-")

Then i rmb that mom's gonna cook katsu curry tonight.. wtf??? again... meal every 2 hrs interval is a little too extreme
I ate when i got home...struggling to shove it down my throat... took a nap soon... next thing i know... its was ard 10 when i woke up... play some nonsense game.... then mom came home... insisting that i eat the mee soto she bought... well... that's another one down my stomach then...

for those who are saying what a pig i am... be sure to know that i'm currently having the runs... too much food.. i can see my belly protruding out more than usual today.... ouch!!!

it finally came...

2010-01-24T09:39:00.000-08:00

well well well.... finally when i listen to chinese emo songs... i stop relating them to my past... i still enjoy them... but i do not put myself in their shoes... unless its gonna be about unable to find true love... or someone to love...

Around the globe... there must be a her worthy of my heart to yearn for... someone that fries my brain out with romantic ideas if winning her over... perhaps it isn't the time yet... or she maybe around but i have yet to realise....

Maybe i got very good friends that i made in school and i neglected them... the idea of having many friends is not appealing to me... as i need quite abit of time to myself... but i won't reject them... if girls have GFF/BFF then guys have brothers... not the blood related type but those even closer... it a world out there and men have it the hard way...

i sat on the bus home after work... felt kinda sad... thinking how come i've been working for so long and yet still so poor... some people have it the easy way... some the extremely difficult like me... i'm still grateful for my parents trying their best to support us through the thick and thins... but how can i ever repay them for how much they sacrifice for us.... u see life isn't fair.. we live too shortly for anything to happen...

i need to work hard after i grad... earn lots before i go into my "conscription".. get my life out of the fucking hell hole once and for all... god damn it~

어쩌다

2010-01-20T10:39:00.000-08:00

How come my hand always so itchy?? I go and click on her profile and see things that saddens me...

It been always 2 years and well... they are still tgt and happier as ever...

I been used, stepped on and most obviously discarded...

I began to realize that looks doesn't matter... coz in that department.... i easier lead in any area...

What kind of charm does a 30 plus man have on a 20 plus lady??

Somethings i cannot explain anymore...

God played a serious joke on me through my whole life... lift me to the higher of the peaks and dump me back into the depths of hell...

EUGENE TEO! pls spare yourself and forget about it already... this life aint no fairy tale and you jolly well know it... do not waste seek an tree when you're swimming in a forest... just look around... if a rose with thorns pricked you... then go for a much more gentle and warming sunflower...

if you can save yourself... you can finally be liberated of this damn curse...

Tears won't save you tonight.. nothing will... every drop of alcohol awakens your consciousness...

The cycle of suffering is starting to continue... from where i left behind 2 years ago..

2 bloody years.... not entire a very long period but more or less depressing... a lot of things have happen and i got use to life without you...

I dun know if i still love you... but i dun miss you anymore all that much... i juz need a confirmation from my heart...

heart can you pls release the grip... i cannot bare living my life like this... Its really time to move on....

From today onwards... NO MORE... 7 forbidden letters in my life... C.A.N.D.A.C.E..dun let the words connect.. dun never ever let them hinder your life or even cloud your judgment..

She just a part of history in your life... not gonna be a part of it in the future...

Heartless and cruelty she leave you in a lurch... you were left to pick up the pieces from scratch and your brother is fucking right... you have to MOVE ON...

I'm sick and tired of thinking about you... perhaps its right for you to totally evanescence in my life... perhaps you know what might happen if we continue to keep in contact or even if it is his idea of you doing...

I wish you can find your happiness... and perhaps in him... ( but deep down fucking not.. if i can choose to kill someone... you jolly well know it will be him)

I must now live for myself... not anymore for you.. never again...

dumping all our memories... dumping all the hugs and kisses.. dumping all our belongings...

Good Bye. . . . . . . . . . . . . .

Mixed Feelings

2010-01-15T17:23:00.000-08:00

In less than a month's time... it will be all over... no more travelling to woodlands... no more pbl... NO MORE FRIENDS?? i guess it inevitable... in my 3 years i made a hell lot of friends and lose some due to dumb stuff and my 'awesome' personality...

I still want to constantly see some of them and i do know that when its all over.... its all over... so now i got 3 more weeks to go to 'heartless' mode so i won't miss them... i hate the feeling of missing someone and i got no reason to even see them... they probably reject me even if i ask them out...

FYI... most of them or rather all that i will miss are girls...

Time to move on with our life... i wish everyone all the best in everything you do... be it finding a rich spourse... working in the wet market or even committing suicide...

May all of you be successful...

"IF"

2009-12-16T09:02:00.000-08:00

Well Well Well, guess what? it's X'mas again? have i been a bad boy this year?? ( i clearly have been) The year is almost over and its time to reflect again. . .Many things happened this year, a lot of things beyond my control and a lot more that was in my control but i screwed up! Now its time to recap the top 10 most happening or (unhappening) stuff that had happen.

Firstly the 5 nicest stuff that have happened ^3^
1. Met Rene noona in Korea! =)
2. Form the 小丸子 brotherhood in Korea! and other more friends after that!
3. T-express... my first roller coaster ride!
4. addiction to K-POP!!!
5. last but not least... i think i found her. . . someone i wanna be with...

Next the top 5 things to never remember -_-"
1. Got drunk in Korea ( pls nv remind me again)
2. Got to know some pig
3. Clique destroyed! ) not like i really care now or even then )
4. Almost broke my fucking left knee! ouch!
5. Trust is an easily broken thing.. every year its the same shit

Every year i aim for the same thing... to have a X'mas trees with nice lights, freezing weather sitting by the fire place hugging onto her... can santa pls tell me when it will happen? Since last year, i clearly rmb that you left out my present... when i even told u what to give me as u got lots of ppl to settle and so as to not confuse u, i told u what i wanted... and u forgot ( shake head) ... last year i wanted u to make the 4D number to my favour but it never did happen... this year... can i pls have a chance to be with her? Please Santa... i need something simple... something that won't cause u a single cent... LOVE!

2009-10-19T08:25:00.000-07:00

EMO EMO EMO

i got no friends... period

gonna have meals alone starting tmr...

isolate myself

welcome depression

i had dinner with my brother how pathetic...

She'll be loved ??

2009-10-14T05:12:00.000-07:00

Currently addicted to Kpop... stuffing my ipod with videos of SNSD, 2NE1, Kara, Brown Eyed Girls, 4 Minutes and some others too... Since my return from korea, its been 20 days. Why does 20 days feels so long? i wonder how Noona is doing there, hope she's fine... =D

Again, have i been decieved by my never ending flickering heart?? why don't i miss Noona like 20 days ago? Time has again destroyed my time, distance is playing games with me, My life is a joke... tonight i think i offended my best friend, she ask me to die alone... perhaps i have nothing i want to hold on. If i were to die now, will i have regrets? will i have a last wish granted? what will i want?

Behind my mask, you can see an empty soul, behind my skin, lies a rotten corpse, deep inside my heart, it cold and tore apart in many many little pieces, will someone in angelic wings come mend it with needles and thread?

Am i going to spend my life wasted? i wanna inject myself with mercury, i die a blue death due to heavy metal poisoning...

why is the itunes playing " you raise me up" ?
you raise me up so can stand on mountains? i got no mountains in life i want to conquer
you raise me up to wake on stormy seas ? i cannot swim for shit

I'm useless?

Time to time i ponder... what is love... today i realise after almost 2 years, i don't know love,

6th days ago would be our 2nd year tgt, if we were tgt. . . . . . Thanks for destroying me with me once and for all..

I loved You. . . . . .

Sometimes it's better to just play dead

2009-10-01T07:44:00.000-07:00

click click click, i saw something or rather someone... i've not been in contact with for the longest of times... i saw some pictures, i start to think, i start to ponder, i start to regret... why muz i fucking go see her profile? i'm glad thot... that ass looks so fucking ugly as usual... as if he's cursed! HAHA! but i guess i gotten over the fact that they are together... but still, i'll not give them my blessing...

when life turns to the depth of hell, she leave me, when it stays there, she dissappeared on me, now when i finally love somebody, she's freaking far away, and then i see this!? can i please reset time? i can still do so much, i can correct the mistakes, i can save my life and live with no regrets.

I'm still in korea, i dun wanna come back... noona misses me and i miss her too... can i give it my all for her? its foolish on my part, i'm just the 'brother' and whatever i do.. nv will stand? is it even love? i'm sure i feel this way a couple of times before... worst still it was my cousin perhaps... why are we cousin? everything is so fucking forbidden in my life!

Happy?

2009-09-26T18:07:00.001-07:00

How can a person be happy when he spend ALL his life drown in his own world and all he listens to, are sad music? i "woke up" one day, sulking from my music playlist, isn't there anything happy to listen besides sad melodies and breaking up songs? The other were love songs, slow jazz and metal full of hatred.

How low can i sink now? i went to work yesterday telling myself that i need to move on with my life , i shall not complain anymore, it's up to me to improve my life, time to try lots of things out? even if it tired me out? Once and for all i want to settle this, when i go into the army next year, i'm so going to tell all my injuries and report them one by one but i'm still able to exercise, i'm going to prove it. However to make it all work out, i need the support of my friends. Going to exercise alot is never easy, emo-ing alone is.

I'm gonna earn alot of money, i let fate drag me along too far, its time i break through. this time i need it to be a master of my life, no more empty bank account at the end of the month, no more saving money, no more getting laugh at over my weight but height i cannot do anything. insoles perhaps?

I hereby challenge LIFE, come on! BRING IT ON!

It's a miracle! Almost so perfect ^^

2009-09-24T19:37:00.000-07:00

Last night, i was revitalize! its was her on Fb, yes! we had a nice chat of course, my image was still pretty good! whahahahaha!! she can survive without the internet, that's not good, whenever i'm hook up, it's her i think of! i'm one step closer to noona. YEAH!!

Boom...! today L.O.V.E is in the air! i feel not so lost today, a clear path was shown by the cupids to me!

Little cupids, will you guide me to her and let me stay there forever?

A Picture of her, No one know i got this, so lets keep it a secret =)

can you feel the heartache tonight?

2009-09-24T05:20:00.000-07:00

I visited a land, few thousand miles away from mine, 2901.43 miles to be exact, far away in a land that i never been before, i found something that will last me a life time, a memory, a story to tell, a tale that might be forgotten. Perhaps, perhaps its was fate that brought me that, it was fate that drawn me to her and fate is now the cruel factor that leave me torn and broken apart.

Was it love? Maybe it was due to the fact that i might never see her again, maybe it was because I'm starting to get use to her saying Ann-Yeong (good night) to me before i go to bed. My dumb dumb heart felt something as i was about to leave, it was a heart filled with heartache and misery and the feeling of missing someone, i wanna hear her voice again!! i wanna share alot of things to her and now, all i have is my email which she has yet to reply. On the day i came back, i couldn't stand that feeling of missing someone, never thot that i 'll feel so miserable again after losing candace.

But i can do nothing, i cannot say i wanna abandon my life here and go search for her, she has her life there and worst part, this is one sided. Many things tell me its not gonna be possible for me, but i tried so long and so hard for my dead heart to finally love and admire someone, should i just give up? i still have a long long way to go in life and she? she is near the marriage age. is 6 years gonna be a barrier and then there's the language barrier, height barrier or even looks.

how fair is life to me? i'm poor, short and ugly plus fat and someone else might just have the opposite. i live in a country where i have to serve a 2 life jail life where others could have gone so far with that time? i'm no longer young and i have accomplish nothing?

I don't wanna give up but even my buddy tells me to be realistic. what is reality? a world feels with misery? i wanna live in my own fantasy, to have a dream or even mulitple dreams, i need to be ensure that i might get results, i don't wanna risk it all, if i fail i need a back up plan but that is not applicable in love.

what is l.o.v.e ? love is being lost over various emotions, a path of confusing and hurt, a road where the ending is usually the end of many other things and i have to endure this torment? I board the bus feeling lonely and miserable, i would like some companion, i use to love bus journeys, now i dread about going onto a bus... i need it.. i need a companion. i need her.

Perhaps all these are just lies conjured up in my life to love again, come to think of it, candace has move on, maybe she's still with that guy maybe she's not, perhaps its my turn to forgive myself, to let go of myself, to help myself, WHAT IS IT!? WHAT IS THE ANSWER!?!?!? DO I PITY MY SELF!?!?!?

Fuck it! i love her now... even if it doesn't last or even if its just a crush!? i HATE myself!

BANG!!! AI YA!!

A fucked up person that i've known for 22 years...

2009-09-04T10:00:00.000-07:00

Why am i so fucked up... ??

Am i being difficult... yes

What do i want... i dunno

Will i change... hard to say

I starting to ponder how my mind works... why must it be so fucked up... i know the things i say and do, hurts her but something changed along... even if she is still the same person, somethings cannot be done in the same way again... many times i tell myself that i should be a whole lot nicer to her but i cannot...

Firstly, there really isn't much of a topic between us... it just for the sake of doing something we gathered... i use to talk 'crap' in a certain way with her but now it is impossible to do so... i can't do back the same things i always do... just doesn't feel right anymore...

Awkward and silence is the 2 things to describe it... to being with... if we don't click very well... there really isn't much for us to say... secondly... there's something about girls who are attached that keeps me away from them... The problem lies with me... i think i've got a huge piece of rock on my chest and that i have no strength to remove it...

I hope that if she reads this post , she would understand... but then again.. she probably won't know it's her and whatever i am saying...

I wanna apologize... but i just can't say this out...

can i say it here instead!?

I'm SORRY! but i dunno whether i will change or not...

I'm too complicated to know myself...

4 letters that will last Eternally..

2009-08-24T07:32:00.000-07:00

Guess, and the answer is TIME, counting down my days to schedule wedding, my ideal job, my dream home, my holidays and even the country that i want to stay in. I must say.. one life time to accomplish it, is just not even... there is just some much i want, is it call greed, NO. i want to achieve it by my own means but i guess, i can only do so much.

I need more time, i have yet to travel the world, yet to do a lot of things, why am i condemn in this pathetic place, if i was both somewhere better with more opportunities, life would be different, so much different.

Who the fuck decides where am i born? stupid people go around thinking and preaching, god is fair. stupid.. is it far for u to be born in war torn countries... try telling that to them and see what happens to u. do u believe in ghost? do u believe in god? you might have encounter some thing freaky and explainable. If it's good the word to describe it is GOD, if it is bad then the word is Ghost / Satan / Evil. You see many ways to describe something bad very little to something good. why? because humans have the thinking that its already good, if i change it, it might become bad. so lets not touch it.

I SAY SHALLOW. so pls fuck off...

No more

2009-08-10T23:49:00.000-07:00

I sense it, can you? a new nation of suicidal youth? well, in japan, there have been ppl meeting up tgt to commit suicide. actually the word commit suicide.. hmmm... why commit, is it a crime? well it is if you fail to take your life in sg, now even the government decides on ur life. True slaves for life.

Anyway, the reason for this entry is because of what i saw on msn just now. Everyone's Pm is emo. hurt, jealousy, hatred and guilt took up 95% of everyone nick, 4% didn't have a nick and 1% was all happy and stuff. seriously... not joking only 1 % were happy. tells alot about how people are feeling nowadays.

I emo-ed for like 2 weeks, meaningless meaningless life, life nv fail to demoralise me. tearing my little heart piece by piece. I want to grow wings all of a sudden and fly away to somewhere i can call home. be it a desert or island in the middle of no where. Where i can fully relax myself and not worry bout the world.

Who invented money, what a bastard. curse u! stealing is fun! lets all steal instead.

Sg is -_-

2009-07-30T19:09:00.001-07:00

Well Well Well... last night i tried to download a very retro song from the internet, 爱你不是爱给别人看 and guess what... it was no where to be found... wtf!? cannot go by torrent, website like sogou also dun have... in the end... thx to real player... i download a flv file... WEE!!! but then... the conversion part was a sucker... took me 20 mins to find a good and free converter... in which i quickly converted the file to AAC... just in case... KNN... the internet is sucky in retro stuff...

Life is a rollercoaster... but i want mine to be all ups... can i ? never the less... i want a quiet and peaceful life... doing the things i want to... ignoring the people i want to... being less hypocritical in life even if its fun... i still wanna try drugs... at least once...

Marilyn Manson, (Coma White) : A pill that makes you numb, A pill that makes you dumb... A pill that makes you anybody else.

Ain't pills great... My life has reach a point where i'm starting to drown in the gray area... i see no future.. am i discarded? i think i'm by my own self... BANG! BANG! shit...!! i'm shoot in the heart... twice in the same wound? both physically and emotionally?? juz let me die....

LALALA!! SPLASH SPLASH... i love to play with water and then drown someone in it... watching the person struggle is kinda fun... LALALA!

Ok... random...so random... what is my blog still existing? world mystery that can never be solved....

1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9

2009-07-09T05:44:00.000-07:00

See those numbers above... they are called choices... i can try all but only choose 1... but the thing is that the numbers will also choose me... only 1 is destine for me... life is full of ups and lows and there is also the middle... One min u're king of the world... next...The king of the damn... or u can juz be plain simple and retarded...

Tick tock tick tock... dong dong dong...! the clock strikes 12... u start staring into the distant... black mist covered the field of flowers in front of u... the girls who always stands there around this time isn't longer there... you turn your head and what's facing u is another high and dilapidated wall... soon to crumble... that is your past... just look up... the light is shining in your face... you can't turn back you can't go straight... what do u do... Suddenly a hand reaches towards you...

Skin so soft... a gentle touch, you can't see her face but you felt the warmth that she radiates.. you're getting addicted... you try to search for her face... you pull her close... her smile captivates you... angel wings revealed themselves infront of u... a sight so majestic that even the withered flowers came back alive...

L.O.V.E

This was meant to be... is this the beganing... but... it feel like the end as well... she had to go... you're holding her back but you have yet to try... how do u say? how would u react? she tries to leave... you hold on tighter... she looks into your eyes... your tears rolled down your face... are these tears of hope or sorrow...? you began to ponder... She kisses you on your forehead...

you let go and she was gone... forever...

It's that time of the year again...

2009-07-06T00:07:00.001-07:00

I'm still waiting for someone special to celebrate my birthday with me... someone who will plan something secretive for me and make me go with a big surprise... however, even if it's just some simple dinner and a night at home watching a movie together would be fine... am i asking for much? i dun think so... 22 in 9 hrs time... this wish will not come true again this year...

I am simple and do not need much to survive. Just a little more to light up my days...

Fly Fly into the Moon...

2009-06-30T06:37:00.000-07:00

I want to return to the quiet days where I'm all alone...
I loved the way when we're together... I hated the day we parted...
I seek for the excitement of falling in love... I found disappointment when I realize that none were like you...
I want you... but i don't want your replacement...
Maybe to me you were the one... I hope i can be someone the one...
I love the thing i do with you... I hope i can do things that i haven done with someone else and find new hope...
I look into your eyes that night and you caught my heart along with my soul... i have yet to find another pair of eyes that are as mesmerizing as yours...
I listen to 80's rock for those songs spoke off how my long for you... i listen to metal to feed the demon that is inside of me...
Sometimes i still walk past your place once in a while... hoping that i can see your face again... it been more than a year since i heard of your voice...
Are you still with him? is this fate that i end myself with just you... if this is fate... can i have another go?
Or am i wanting to get back to you cause i fail at trying to court someone else... i still remember how my heartaches every moment when you left...
Felt like a car crash... felt like a fatal stab into the heart... felt like getting buried alive...
I gave you roses... you return me tears... my own tears...
i sacrifice my all for you...you sacrifice me for him...
I still cannot understand why... I though our love is possible to overcome all...
The remedy will be the meeting of you... will i crumble? will i collapse? will i prevail?
My wings are tore off my back.... i flew above you as your guardian angel but no more....
I'm an insect in a container with the lip closed... and thrown into the sea...
I float from day to day wanting for someone to release me... like a genie in a bottle...

Romantic pharses??

2009-06-22T21:24:00.000-07:00

Now folks... you think that you're romantic? you lover love to hear your mushy sweet talking? Think again... i'm gonna expose you now...

you Shine in the night skies - i see ghost

Wind in your hair - your hair very messy

skin as smooth as milk - your 're fat ( skin expand )

cherry like lips - pathetic small mouth...cannot open bigger and eat faster is it...

your eyes sparkles under the light - you better see an optician...

I love the way you look tonight - i hate the way you look on every other nights...

you are my one and only - this is the 14th girl i say this to already...

i wanna be there for your in every moment of your life - i'm a stalker... beware...

would you marry me? - erm.. wanna take up the full time maid post with no pay in my house?

i long to hold you every night before i sleep - but when i wake up... i wish it is another i'm holding on to...

fate brought us together - why i so suay know u?

i don't wana live a life without you - coz u pay for my bills and expenditure...

When i look in your eyes... i see love - when i look downwards... i see sex...

I live to love you - so if you catch me fooling around... it not me... it's the dead me... you cannot blame me...

Okay... i can only think of this much for now....

Sage Mode...

2009-06-19T00:05:00.001-07:00

Ommmm... I have seen it all... i do not have any mortally bounds to this earth anyone. I seek trouble not... trouble finds me not... I do not have a problem.. problems do not have me in it... I'm neither smart nor dumb.. i just simply live on the sidewalk of life where i'm not involved...

Sure i get lonely sometimes but i miss being alone more than anything in the world... I began pondering if the existence of me is to view the world and compare myself in it.. I'm the standard for i do not care of anytyhing... i do not love or hate...

Basically if i dun care... nothing happens.. fair enough? poking heads into something is just not my style... life sure be free and easy with nothing to it. If a person has lots of friends, sure he/she will have lots of fun, company but however, lots of trouble as well... I have none of that... no love problems, family problems, friends problem... why??

It's really easy... i have no expectation from any of them... if you want to go then bye bye... sure.. you will be miss... but just a little... not more than 5 mins... All same to my family, friends and love...

My world is dark and gloomy but i love it... i need a break from life as usual... gimme a break... i think i'm cutted out to survive on my own... 你们永远不会明白孤独的快乐.

mask of the serial killer...

2009-06-17T21:33:00.001-07:00

Can anyone please explain my fatigue? My brain is half dead... we have enough sleep i guess... i need a life... the sudden intention to grab and hug girls on the streets are increasing day by day...

Finally the inner demon is taking over... the emo will become the evil for good... nopez i dun need you and you or you... i will only consider not to kill the one who is gonna be with me...

All things are lies, i live in an imaginary world and the only thing that is clear is the lust that burns inside of me... love?? my ass... this is pure lust... for pure love is fake... pure lust lives forever...

Control i need to control... OR i can just let it all out... life is like a dating game... i shall commence the date 20 girls in a month thingy...

Why Why Why... i shall destroy u in 2 seconds.... lalalalalala... when the world is dead... they will soon realise what state my heart have always been...

As dead as i am... i give people false... yes... the world most notorious hypocrite is being born here and now...

so in case you get hurt... go away... stay away... hide and you will be able to see light for another day...

FATE

2009-06-02T03:30:00.000-07:00

Come Come... walk towards me... step here... yes... right under the spot light...
Welcome to the cross road of life... do you wish to take a left or a right turn? on both path there will be two boxes...
I hereby put choices in front of you... you can only choose 1... and betray the other...

I will put "friends" in a box... i will put "money" in a box... on the left path
I will put "love" in a box... I will put 'family" in a box... on the right path

Now you will choose two boxes... But you must choose one from each direction...
What will you choose?

My Name is FATE...

I want nobody nobody but u...

2009-05-30T19:10:00.001-07:00

Give me a change.. i want to write love letters with u in the sands... under the dreamy blue skies... Raining flower petals as we run through the beach with love caught in our feet... No distance is too great too tear us apart... no one can rip us away... I would make the world a lot whole place just for you and me... Never will this heart swap to another shores... for it is rooted deeply in a complicated fashion in your heart... how sweet it would be to be owned only by you... you're irreplaceable to me... i give up everything in the world but i would never give you up...

If there is a limit to my love for u , i would choose eternity - 1 year. That way when the world is about to end, i would know and i would love you even more for that last year... but that is not really impossible because I'm already madly in love with you... i dream everyday wanting to be with you... Dreams can be reality? dream are what that makes a man great... you are what that will make me great...

My wallet might go empty... My gadgets will fail me... My friend might leave me... My body might stop functioning but My love for you will carry on forever... How true i cannot tell because it is so clear that it has become transparent...

i want to take you everywhere in the way... we might get lose in the jungle... flush down the river... chased by beast... endure starvation... but with you around me... I would enjoy every inch and every bit of it... If we have to undergo it again... i gladly accept...

Now to sum it up... words cannot describe how much i miss you... Expression are not great enough to fully show how delighted i am when i see you... Time is not a barrier but a chain that manifests my love for you... i drowned in my own love for you... gimme a hand?

What is that four letter word again?

2009-05-25T07:10:00.001-07:00

Sometimes i ask myself, how many times have i stay hidden in a corner peeping at her...
How often have i felt the disappointment whenever a unknown person is beside her...
What are those feelings? Jealousy,Envy or just plain Lust? Is this kind of feeling a curse or is this considered bliss? Can i ever stop feeling like hiding behind there for good? how many hours, minutes and seconds have i spent thinking of something that i might be just out of reached?

What qualities do i possess that is gonna make it happen, have my physical traits finally become such a burden? Nevermind the name taunting i suffered in life, I'm fine with the lousy genes that i possesed which have wore me down greatly, it's okay to be lacking in the brain department and also being born with some injuries here and there . But seriously, to never achieve anything in life till now? is this fate? or karma from a past life? GOD's doing ( if there really is one) ? I cannot imagine how this is going to change in the next ten years... Am i going to single forever? I deserved it don't i?

I must have seriously done something wrong to deserve something like this... what's it like to jump off a 12th storey building? if i were to depart on a journey to hell, how many and who exactly will be there to send me off... probably no one... life is a cycle of birth, sickness, aging and death... lets say i cut short all this processes and jump straight to the last phrase... how many people will shed a tear for me? My very existance lies with me... struggling in this fuck up place call home?... how life would have been better if i was born somewhere else? maybe even some third world country... sure... i would have nothing to eat... no luxuries in life but i may actually be happier than i'm currently...

I hope things can change soon on my birthday which most probably is just another day for me and everyone of u... I need a turning point... the path i'm in is the gatewayl to destruction...

22 soon... i dun wanna be single!

My new hobby

2009-05-13T09:15:00.000-07:00

Yes yes... guess what i always wanted to do... well... i love to mess around with people's minds... drive them toward the edge of insanity... however... i still in training... how to psyche up the people around you... i shall begin my training tmr... beware for this will be literally 'Mind Blowing'...

Maybe i should start conjuring up some rumors about people just to mess up their mental health... oh well... nothing beats a good plot and some depress folks... am i insane?? nope... I'm just looking for some fun since I'm bored... and your lifes are too peaceful... u need some flavoring to your shallow yet hallow life...

BOOOOOMMMMMMMMMMM!!!!!!!!

The dude with the injured knee

2009-04-25T19:06:00.000-07:00

My love for basketball is so great that i would sacrifice myself for it... When i busted my knee yesterday... everyone told me to stop but i say... knee break never mind, basketball must keep playing... But how did i injure my knee??

It all start with a 5v5 full court... the opponents were very physical and i got elbowed quite abit... infact all of us got elbowed push or anything dirty you can think of in the book... holding down a rebound i got cornered by 2 of them and again they were not hitting the ball but me and i got fed up... burst out of the area and ran towards their ring i'm very close to the ring but i miscalculated the distance and took a step too big and my knee couldn't take it and gave way... i thot it was broken at first when i felt my knee twisting into a impossible angle... Falling to the floor immediately holding onto my knee... couldn't stand it and screamed out loud... so close to breaking my bone but now it quite a serious sprain maybe even something else within broken/fractured and i suspect it to stay for life.. the easily damage left knee cap...

No more attacking Nicholas with muay thai style tiger knee... BOO!
No more ball for sometime
No one to take care of me.. any nice soul will buy food for me?
No one to act all roughed up and gain pity for her ( it must be a her)

Now i walk like my grandfather... 22 years old guy with a 70 years old knee...

Someday it will be all over

2009-04-22T06:00:00.000-07:00

To think or not to think...
To know or not to know...
To hear or not to hear...

That are the choices i have in my own life... i could be facing you and yet not giving a damn about you... To understand a person is not something that can be accomplish on a hundred percent scale... Here's an analogy... imagine u and that person are looking at the same thing... no doubt its the same thing but in completely different angles...when u do look in the same angle... you will probably be blocked be him/her... so my question is how can we ever understand a person completely...

Somethings i start to wonder... is the current me an act... i view myself as me...i never concern myself over what i'm to others ... back at home i'm just an idiotic sibling and an filial/un-filial son ( i do not wish to label myself things which are of other people's perspectives) Perhaps the music i listen to call help me in some way towards my own identity... Metal... 80's rock and emo chinese music... does that tell me anything??

Ok... now try analysing me... I enjoy a mix blend of music... ranging from metal to jazz, bossa nova, chinese, rock... perhaps too vague... maybe we can try physical outlook... if i were to live alone... i probably get a tattoo...on my right arm... tribal prints... i would go for a eyebrow, lips piercing... i would cut a korean hairstyle...
maybe abit more bout myself to aid to ur analysis... i had some bad experience in my relationships... sometimes my humour goes overboard...i do not bother myself over things that cannot be controlled... example height... i tend to regret alot...when i love someone it will be forever... i can only court girls who are english spoken...only then when we're alone.. i'll have something to say to her... i change my group of friends like no one's business... i like to emo... Some things i say i want to drink alone but i nv did it once...i'm dun like to make up lies... i try to be an gentleman as much as possible... i'm not a gangster... i'm fat...

Now tell me what kinda of person i'm... because i really need to know... tag on my watermelon colored tagboard... Cheers...

Er Hem

2009-04-21T06:11:00.000-07:00

School started two days ago... I'm impressed over how smoothly the lessons were and the people in my class...surely this is a good semester and i now know a lot more people... the ice breaker wasn't that hard... eventually it began to be very fun in class BUT i must remind you that this is only the second day of life and the real challenge would come with i have my face off with goh chee keong and pearly (i wish i don't ever have to type, spell, read or think about this name again) .

Just now when i was walking home... some cyclist cycled by and immediately my first perception was... is it a bangala, MIC or malaysian kia... as he move closer, bangala was out as he was yellow (asians are yellow even if we look brown) then as he came closer... it was even more obvious... the hairstyle would be the clue... malaysian kia have spiky head even if its long.. it seems spiky and for some fucking reason wet...It muz be hair gel..seriously who still uses gel in such an era... looking at the face was the best... I must remind you that cyclist are never handsome guys... no matter what and how or even how low your standards are... that is the reason why i try not to cycle as much as possible... when i walk past a chick... i wanna look her thoroughly... sort of like scanning her with my eyes from top to bottom and if the chance permits... Smell her scent and that is exceptionally important... a woman's scent is the way to a guy's heart...

Imagine your girl friend stinks... while making love... here you are having the best time of your life but your nose is having the worst day ever... as it is sniffing her right under her sweat glands... omfg... get what i mean... but still... if you really love her... it's still possible... because love blinds,block,disrupts any flaw in her... isn't love the worst?

True story of the day : bad breathe

Some colleague was telling us about this at work... on how bad breathe has lead to a foursome...

Aparently this girl has bad breathe and her bf wanted to dump her... but they held on as he wanted sex... eventually he try to throw the girl to the best friend as he couldn't take her breathe... but even this friend also couldn't stand it and also held on just for sex... This girl then had the eyes for my colleague and for some screwed up reason... a foursome occurred... but the funny thing is that after 4 hours of sex and all... no one had even kissed her once... fucking funny.... i wonder how many times that girl actually orgasm in that 4 hours... I'm just wondering... nothing more...(WINK)

Irritating irritating...

2009-04-15T06:13:00.001-07:00

Well well well... i finally cut my hair on sat... since i don't really care what the guys think... i shall only say what the girls think... well... michele said my hair was cutted too thin... i think i heard something like 'gay' or something... haha... and today in school... worst still... after styling my hair... cer cer said... did u shave this part... omg... she was pointing to my bald spot... so saddened... and that commence a very irritating day of yet another irritating moment in the part and parcels of life... But even before that happened...

Woke up at 7 without cer cer's help... leave the house early and all but when i board the bus... WTF!? so many people... and kinda lots of teens... couldn't get a sit till tamp mrt there... and when i did... sat beside a girl... was wondering if she was a MIC... but soon confirm it when she spoke on the phone... anyway she was irritating... fidgetting here and there through out the entire bus journey... when i reach the bus interchange... i was shock to see that 902 was there... it only operates when school is operating... anyway i boarded it and when on it... so guy hoped on and didn't pay for the bus ride...irritating ass... anyway i waited for so fucking long... till the bus left... fucking irritating...

Reach the school... Oh my fucking god... so fucking many people.... KNN... school orenitation... fuck~~~~~ then came the cer cer & hair cut story...

Today... everyone was super slack and i went around irritating people esp cer cer... out of defense... she clawed me... kicked me... punch & slap... and all i did was to look her in the eye... i know i look like a gangster but... i'm a nice and friendly guy who wouldn't harm an ant ( that's a lie... i fucking love killing them)

Purposely find fault with cer cer ( sorry cer cer)... bullied her all day long... wrote stupid tags to her which she later posed with... HAHA... chase her around the lab... whack jeremy and nicky dog... post another lie on FB saying... " i hate my fyp team"... its a lie... i love u all...( at least juz cer cer...i'm not really into guys so...) for some wierd reason... started talking in the FTIR room... while doing FTIR... we sat there and shared stuff... that was nice... Cer Cer ask what are 5 qualities you seek in your ideal partner... for some reason mine was the highest in expectation... damn it... i wasn't asking for much...all i ask for was...

1. muz be english spoken
2. muz not be dumb
3. need not be too pretty but looks that can last
4.muz be kind hearted ( i'm evil... she's kind...can u see it... it's called a balance)
5. ( i forgot bout this)

Anyway... our favourite team member bought us gifts from langkawi... (now u know why he is our favourite?) Thx Bro... Cer cer was so happy when she saw the sea shells which nicholas picked but i think DELI has more to offer if only i can go back there again... miss my indo family... and frenz there...i wanna go night fishing... fucking irritating!!

The latest way to snooke ur frenz... he's just a hi- bye friend like cer would say... but really the word to use is "acquaintance"...

New Discovery... There's a new dish in the market called 'dear chicken'... which happened to be actually grilled chicken... anyway... cer cer said it... WHAHAHAHAHA... IRRITATING!!!!!!

Knock Knock

2009-04-04T20:03:00.000-07:00

Ding Dong! Somebody pressed my doorbell... since Stan was at home, he went to get the door... came this auntie in an fake accent... acting all goody goody and stuff... The first question she popped was : would you choose money or wisdom?? shit!! first thing i knew is that she coming to preach... can i call the police?!?! Since stan is a Christian... he starting making a conversation about Solomon... she ask stan do he think that god has a name... she didn't have to ask Stan because i know the answer... His name is DOG... GOD & DOG... see the link??

This fucking old lie is going way out of hand... after so many millenniums... its still going on... 1 of the main reason for war is religion... anyone realise?? terrisotist... protesters VS catholic... think about it... a world without religion...

I'm gonna come up with some plans to piss the preachers off my house door and here it goes...

1. Are you preaching... u do realise that it is illegal in singapore right?? so u want me to call the police or u leave now?

2. so u want Allah to strike u?? ( do dress in a sarong / song ko)

3. The auntie approach to sales person... shaking ur hand violently...saying 不要买，不要买，不要买，不要买，不要买 then slam the bloody door...

4. Ask this question... so... if i do kill someone and then i go to church... am i relieve of my Sins ( the answer would be yes, then move the target of someone to the person preaching... ) saying then i suppose i shall kill u 1st... Then go to church...

5. Do u heard of Satan?? he's in my bath room now... wanna meet him?? ( u run to the room coming out dressed in a black cloak armed with 2 choppers shouing "KILL ALL")

6. say 'WHAT...PLEASE FUCK OFF" then slam the door...

See... there are so many ways to do this... next time someone knocks on ur door... feel free to use any of this methods to save ur time and effort talking to them... Cheers!!

Just for laughs BUT true story

2009-03-28T09:13:00.000-07:00

Welcome for today's just for laughs section. The topic today would be :

'People falling on the bus' .

Going home from work... i took 65 ( I have a choice between that and 22) ... Since it was only a single deck, i sat at the front of the bus... the very first sit... as we all know... people like to chase for the bus and some people actually did... doing so... a malay auntie actually manage to get onto the bus after some malay boys manage to stop the bus... being the last to board, the driver was getting impatient as he wanted to leave long ago but people kept making last minute arrivals... So he step onto the gas as soon as the auntie tapped her card... due to the sudden motion.. the auntie fell head over heels... and me sitting infront had to help as everyone was actually looking...

But deep down inside me... i was laughing like nuts thinking " this is fucking hilarious" ... don't get me wrong people... i'm not being racist here... no matter who falls down... i'll still laugh and that's coz i'm fucking evil... the only reason why i help her was to create a psuedo image and let people think i'm nice and all so i can backstab them... Ain't this just awesome!?!?

FINALLY!!

2009-03-27T06:09:00.000-07:00

I finally did what i wanted and should have done.... even if it was shorter than i wanted... it a good start afterall... My 1st Bedok Reservoir cross country... 03/27/09... First thing first... my bicycle tires were wored out... they seem to be out of air after sometime... so i had to fix them at the bicycle shop for $14... then off i go to the real deal... after i reached... i was regretting already about something... my camera... i leave it at home... wtf!? the view is so nice... so i had no choice but to use my camera phone..LG Renoir... and the quality?? for a camera phone... it's awesome...

Cycling is now the excuse... taking picts is now the priority... so i'm gonna post what i took...

China schemer

2009-03-25T09:03:00.000-07:00

Recently, i feel nice and relax since things seems to be going on nicely for moi... the quest for a girlfriend is still on, i have been single for a year... now i'm getting kinda lonely... why do all the girls around me think I'm dangerous?? coz i got high level of FFA ( free fatty acid) ?? scare of cardiac arrest when you're around me?? *WINK*...(with the click sound)

Somehow i feel that my house is so much quieter with Stan in the army now... it gets lonely some nights...no one hogs the comp in the living room now... very uncomfortable to the lame shit jokes and fights i'm missing... he's coming back this weekend...if nothing goes wrong like kena confinement...

Few days back... recieve a fucking prank call... according to my skeptical analysis.. some china bastard trying to scheme some money out of innocent elderly like my dad called... since i didn't answer the phone but was pass on the phone by my dad, i wasn't aware of who actually called... i was juz sitting there using my comp then my dad started screaming and yelling at me to get the phone. So i did... what awaited me was so sobbing and murbling... i couldn't at all tell who was it... then i ask my dad who was it.. he say it was my bro... who should be in the army... i tried to continue the conversation with the person.. in a crying tone ( could and most probably acting it) said : 我是你儿子. What the fuck...so i keep probing asking who he was... then in the end he hung up... perphaps he gave up trying to scheme me...which couldn't be the case why??

1. If anything would have happened to my bro wouldn't the army have called instead.
2. My bro didn't bring a phone into the camp
3. The voice doesn't sound like my bro at all
4. My bro nv speaks chinese to my dad
5. he would never say '我是你儿子' to his brother,me.

Judging by all this points, i hereby conclude that it was a fucking schemer. However it got my dad into tears, coz stupid bro didn't bring a phone into the camp to save $18. what an ass... he also didn't call back home... noob...

Raining in the month of march

2009-03-13T07:43:00.000-07:00

From left to right... Nicholas, Daniel, Eugene(me), jeremy and cecilia

I seriously do not need what the hell is wrong with the weather nowadays... raining almost everyday when its already so so close to summer... worse part... it rains when u're just about to prepare yourself to go out and due to the change of temperature. It makes me even lazier to do what i'm suppose to... but that didn;t stop me from going out still...

Met the team bout 2 at somerset Mrt... wanna watch kung fu chef but in the end watch "watch Men"... The way it was film was something like in the 60-70... well it was based on that time anyway... however... it was very much confusing due to the twist and turns of events. None the less, the gore part was damn hilarous... couldn't stop laughing and cer keep laughing to... not coz she got the dark humour but coz i was laughing and beside her... daniel was too scare to watch and cecilia also laughed at him as well... nicholas was bring isolated at a corner as usual...

This show kind of reminded me of "Sin City" was a narrator leading you through the show but people tend to die alot... and this super heros makes a fool out of others... they're just kung fu experts if you ask me...Overall... the show was too damn long 2.40hrs... ouch...

Then we went to noodle house Ken... It was really good... unbelievable....

Cold Noodles Miso Ramen Char siew Ramen My artistic picts

Next was to esplanade a.k.a the durian... saw shiek haikel hosting an event there and heard that there was MC Hotdog coming around 10... but the time was 8.30 and having to wait for 1 and a half hrs is just too much.... back to home... was crossing the bridge at fullerton and decided to take a few picts... actually is cer decided de... gosh...
Today only manage to take this pict of cer... she always siam my camera...

Guitar Hero Percussion Freak Mister Piano
Night view from the bridge out Fullerton hotel...

who killed the cat??

Everyone then went back to their home sweet/boring homes.... yawns life sucks when u're me...

viva la evil

2009-03-10T08:02:00.000-07:00

Perhaps i woke up at the wrong side of bed...er mattress today,i was super cranky and evil in school. Words with thorns were flying everywhere in the lab shooting my teammates... but then i realize that there's this one person who trying to sort of comfort me and asking why i'm liddat??
Thanks Cer but this is the real me... the joking side of me is a lie... today u met the 'REAL' me...

Always kena scolded by TSO until scare liao... then 害到 Sin Nee also kena... did something dumb... started talking crap to a girl who barely knows me... now i suppose my image is somewhere along the earth of the most damned place. But nvm since i got my true self back the 'hack care self'...

So stupid event at TP initiated a topic of how to make me look less 'beng'... quite frankly... i dun think i look 'beng'... i like my rugged look... rugged rox...but then sin nee and cer obviously have something against it... shave off my sideburns and goatie... omg... might as well juz take my life... which reminds me that i got a white rp polo... its very nipple revealing... another reason why i hate white... there the others...

Why I Hate White...

1. I'm Evil.. evil loves black
2. It makes me look fatter... as if i'm not fat enough
3. I just dun like white
4. white is not as pure as it seems
5. It's translucent... i dun like nipple revealing shirt unless it on a girl

Totally knocked out on the bus today... sometimes i wonder if i snore on the bus... hope no one notices... if not damn pai seh... but i'm damn tired when i'm already on the bus... Cer also always complain that she's tired...but she can rest dun rest...wanna play basketball and meet friends... who's fault...?!?!?! SHIT!! why am i shooting her in my blog for nothing?? oppss... no worries though... no one ever read this crappy blog...

Give me some drugs to feel alive once again...

The Life on an Enterainer

2009-03-06T07:07:00.000-08:00

The Life of an Entertainer...

if u think it's a glamorous one... well... think twice... behind close doors... the loneliness can consume you whole... The seriousness was never seen and even if shown, it will be taking as another joke.... thus is the path I've chosen... perhaps being my size helps to add up to the overall image... Even if i' a dependable person... people tend to think likewise cause i joke around most of the time.

However... there are 2 types of more of entertainers... "the entertained and forgotten" and "the entertained and remember"... luck was never on my side... thus i became the first type "the entertained and forgotten"... my task is simple... infiltrate... loiter and wait to be kicked out... thus explains the frequency of people changing around me...

once drained out of the humor within...
My task over and thus shall be discarded...
did i change?? no...
who did..?? u who decides that I'm no longer in need of my services
what can i do?? nothing...
what am i left with? nothing

Some people prefer to befriend dogs and cats instead of humans...why?? because this creatures never will left or betray you...
I found my 'friends' who never will left me... Music and photography
Music for it speaks my feelings... spot on most of the times
Photographs for it tells me what i had, the sweetest/saddest memories, how beautiful/sorrowful this world is... a book which no words yet alot more...

I found my third beloved...Science... I'm not a man of God... the very existence of it puzzles me...
The way i see it... Man decided to create it to hide their fears, to create a false Utopia when they die... who should i follow that foolishness... what's the point...?

In the End... this Entertainer is always alone... i always try too hard each time i have something i want to hold on to... but i end up killing it each time... thus explains myself... the one i loved.. loves me not... the things i want seems so far and unreachable... the way people view me is never quite the truth... but who bothers to uncover the mystery behind me...?

Busy Busy...

2009-02-26T04:50:00.000-08:00

It has been such a tiring week since FYP started... but seriously... why do we have to do time line, log time and meeting record?? ain't it like same shit but different depth of understanding??
Nabe... i saw Genevieve in the lab for the 3rd time... she being the faci for hydrogel... i wonder what she does... she lovely but she speaks very little... oh well... ice cold beauty?? just the type i like...

My FYP team is fun to be with... luckily for us, we got Song sin nee... one of the easily bullied faci in RP but she sure help us alot in term of lab stuff... time to blog about FYP team mate... gossip gossip time...My team got nicholas, cecilia, jeremy and daniel...

Nicholas... fucking pervert... poor cecilia always falling victim to his 'sex talks'... this person is not what i expected... i suppose true colors are reveal as time passes by... from the pilot to the sex pilot? i'm sure the city of Thailand, Bangkok, excites u... it is after all the sex capital in Asia... come to think of it... Bangkok...Bang Cock?? OMG!?!?! who the fuck came up with that name... i suppose he has great foresight and saw it coming when he gave the capital that name...geez... this is going down into history...

Cecilia... HAHA!! nice sweet little girl... who looks younger than her actual age... she is ....no no.... not gonna say... one of the taboos in life is to nv talk about a woman's age... but then again...she looks like a little girl... should i say? nahhh... forget it... dun wanna get smacked... she always acts cute but the truth is... she is very cute... dunno why always so ke lian kena dump... i also always kena dump... it appears people dunno how to treat their girls right nowadays... Unless u're a Teo... we Teo(s) is/are awesome... or anyone along the blood line... simply Legandaryyy.. or in french it would be pronounce as legendaire... work hard for FYP... 靠你了...

Jeremy... this chao ah beng is one not to be reckon with... juz kidding... this is the scape goat in the team... all sai kang is thrown on to him... and when we say sai kang.. we meant chemistry! chem pro leh... got an A for UT... impressive... i could never have done that... coz... all the rest of us sucks at chemistry... no worries... i can see ur future... more sai kang...u better dun run... or see u at the back gate...wait Rp got no back gate... damn!

Daniel... this one i know the longest de... but also very slack de... most important thing in life is DANCE... fav style : Locking... ah hop ah... dance less do work more la... LOL... well... created the joke of the FYP... when we heard something about an explosion... we run and hid behind a wall... then the next joke was... why only two person in the final presentation... result being... the other have sacrificed in the name of science... apparently the explosion killed them... sadded... HAHA..

I think my fyp mates (maids) are awesome... pls do work harder by doing all the washing of the oily and stinky apparatus... and about the cruise... i hope it will happen or at least a trip to Gentings?? SUIT UP!

Growing older is such a fine thing

2009-02-16T08:35:00.001-08:00

Firstly Happy Birthday to Alie... well... we the Teo brothers got him champagne for his birthday... and it seems that everyone else all got him alcohol... so i shall now conclude that the only present u get when u're older is actualy ALCOHOL... this post is actually 4 days overdue? coz i was super lazy to blog bout it...

Now for the important part....that is the older you're... the wiser you're and the way u see things becomes much clearer than before... so nowadays in doing things...i never keep my hopes up...when i pop a question ( not the 'will you marry me' of course), whenever something is in need of a approval from the other party. Even if i really want it very badly... i do not keep my hopes up... not even the slightest bit... why?? life is full of dissapointment... i start with zero... i end with zero... i'm still the same...it's fine for me... but if i start with zero and i get a hundred or even one... i gain something and that is great... vice versa... i start with one and i lose... i'm at a complete lost... i wouldn't want to be a loser.. would u??

I'm gonna tell about the cycle of yelling... which is so much fun... i got it watching a sitcom... this is how it goes... imagine ur gf is a teacher... u made her angry... and she vent her anger on a kid in school... this kid who took all the hatred and anger, yells at her dad which happens to be ur bosses bosses boss... so at work , he yells at your bosses boss... your bosses boss yells at ur boss who in turn yells at u... u yells at ur gf... isn't this juz awesome??

My first time...

2009-02-12T08:17:00.000-08:00

Ok... here's what... i nv been to a club/bar/pub or anywhere of such in Singapore... whether u believe or not... last night was my first... went with a lot of noobs who share the same tragedy as me... but of course at least one is a occasional clubber... long time nv mention this name... the 'toopid' gang ( no one knows this name except me... i came up with this name and have use it in previous posts... so don't complain)

< In a mysterious tone? Double O... 4 guys 2 gals... a whole night of liquor... who will be the last one standing...??

Since it ladies night... ladies need not pay... what a sexist society... i forgot to mention why i ended up at double O... its appears that a close friend in this group... propose to go to Double O as the initial place we wanted to go was ex which is also fashion bar... the color attracted me quite abit... glowing purple... kinda irresistable... and the best part... he who propose... did not turn up... clap clap... the reason?? the usual... sick... it seems he's very sickly... 9 out of 10 times when he nv turn up...he's always sick... and he practices muay thai... so as we can defer from... martial arts is no good in helping people 强生健体...

Reached there at 10... when we went in... still not much people... so we could find a spot... problem is... all shy shy... order drinks also shy shy... how come clubs got no menus...!? so we anyhow order lor... mostly is who esmond knows... but i always have to drink whiskey coke... i think i kinda addicted to the bitterness of the whiskey... that was for starters... as the seconds tick away... we went to get our 1st jug of drink... and what did we order...it was what i fell in love with in indonesia clubs " ILLUSION" which was also the most ex drink for the nite... 64 for it... well i was pretty sure the bartender said 54 dollars... even esmond who came to order with me heard it... but we didn't say much... sad to say... the taste was no where near what i had in indo... even the color was pretty fucked up... D.O drink not very nice... with our 1st jug came our game of 猜拳... 6 ppl play... abit hard to win... and to make ppl drink we kinda cheated throughout the whole game...( steffy stop strangling me... when u have to drink... not my fault... that i was caught cheating... if only u didn't realise.. then it would have been fine) <--Orignial color of the illusion i had... but the 1 we has was...look below... so sad.... stir drink and drunk!!

next time dun 害 me...this is 报应

wilson (before)
wilson (after)

soon we finish up... the 1st jug...for seconds vodka orange... damn... it tastes totally like orange juice with less sugar and no pulp... more bitterness... no damn kick... sianz diao... halfway drinking... esmond... xiu zhen and stef wanted to go to the dance floor... but me.. wen jie n wilson didn't want to so... we got separated... so what to do next... drink lor... me n wen jie finished it soon... opps... no drink again... so i went to get even more...

This time is my favourite whiskey cola... alot of liquor addiction thanks to my Cousin richard... thanks for leading me astray bro... anyway... this drink is so much better... why? coz the mixture of whiskey and coke is inbalance... too much whiskey too little coke... which is damn good... more kick...they came back to join us and soon they wanted to head out again... this time i decided to join them to the dance floor... so it was me... esmond... stef and xiu zhen... in our little circle dancing... dance dance dance... then urgent call to the loo... after that steffy leave... so sad... less 1 siao lang...LOL ( don't strangle me pls) then waited at the toilet there for our dear wen jie... who was in the toilet.. dunno is puke or slp... took so long... so sad.... the whole night i keep saying him 'WEAK'... coz his threshold for alcohol is very low... so he was quite knocked out... as the 'illusion' was actually quite high in alcohol percentage... then we took picts while camping outside the toilet while waiting for wen jie... then meet esmond's Rp friend who is working there... went back to get another drink... this time is vodka lime... didn't taste much of the vodka... but it was nice... i think i like ladies drink... but who don't?? don't deny it... HAHA!!!! ( behavior displayed by Marshall Ericson... character fromAmerican sitcom... 'how i meet your mother')

Then we drank super fast and back into the dance floor... 5 of us all there... the music wasn't too bad... some familiar ones and we enjoy... then came the tragic part... My.DJ started playing music we didn't listen to before...and me n esmond got so sianz... lol... we soon leave that place around 2 plus... i wonder why so early...

Headed to the liang court Mac...coz wilson 哥 complain that he 肚子饿... WEAK... eat le then went down to central there to slack... more like slp...coz me and wen jie buay tahan liao... like wanna die liddat... we enjoy getting drunk...but we dun enjoy being in the state of discomfort and sleepiness...
waited and waited for the 1st bus... then took some pictures... or rather kena take pict of... in the mean time... our wen jie... MIA again... sleep in the toilet...pro... can slp in the toilet... RESPECT!

Waited for 1st bus and bus home with esmond who happeds to stay a few blocks away from me...
Reached home at 8... then slp... in less than 10 hrs... round 2 is about to began...
WHATUP!! STAY TUNED FOLKS!!!!

Died there

Looks like copper poisoning
but now more like mercury poisioning

LOL... this couple very sweet!!

The Fucker's oath... AWESOME~~~~~~

2009-02-06T04:08:00.001-08:00

There is an oath written down in the legend of man. It reveals the secret to life and unravels all mysteries from the very creation of humankind. I bring to all :- The Fucker's Oath... simply AWEEEEEEESOME

I am the fucker
not the fuckee
I will fuck others
and not get fucked by others
I am awesome and nothing can fuck up my life
for I am the legendary FUCKER

Lord Fark Ewe...

lets talk bout myself...

2009-01-28T18:35:00.001-08:00

Come on.... now it can be hard or simple to understand me...
firstly... i have a certain something against a religion...
secondly... i change frenz all the time...
thirdly... i can survive alone, however i get bored from time to time...
fourthly... i can piss ppl off or make them happy...
fifthly ( is there such a word?? ) .... i like to stick to ppl but i don't like ppl to stick to me
sixthly... i love being rugged...
seventhly... i talk a lot of crap...
eighthly... i sometime make bad jokes, say the wrong thing but i dun mean it
ninthly... once i'm in... i hate to get rid...
tenthly... wait... what the fuck... if u wanna know more bout me... juz come to me...

i can hardly explain myself about myself...

Ok.... now...follow me...into the randominess

2009-01-28T18:35:00.000-08:00

Lets blog ... wait... lets not...
why?... coz i have nothing to blog about...
what should i say?? my pathetic $48 dollars ang bao money and i dun mean juz one of it but in total...
or that my internet was down last night... and i had to suffer in silence of doing nothing the whole night?
or the outing i had with the girls and dan?? wouldn't someone else have covered it?why would we want 2 to 3 of the same story when u can simply read it from their blogs... look...i even linked them under 'my associates'...
I'm madly in love with the mafia... no doubt they are not exactly nice and friendly but u nv know... i wanna buy a ring... one that resembles a mafia... CAPICHE!?
now for my holiday resolution... lose weight... i know it gonna be all talk again but i guess it can't be help...why can't losing weight be like drinking water... nice, sweet and simple... gulp gulp gulp...done!! 20 pounds gone...
ytd i read about white phosporus bullet... which burn the person after he got shot...it's just AWESOME... i wanna do weapon defence...but more of it... i wanna do the desruction part...
I want money to buy a DSLR and new Lappy...
plans for the future... buy house...wait...find gf and get married 1st... then buy car... have kids... and retired then wait for death...
awesome...i juz sum up all whole life as usual... 人生苦短...i suppose everyone knows that...
i wanna try everything in the world... including drugs... i'll take pills... syringe are not so safe... sekali kena aids then... my life plan is to wait and die...
Thank you for the trip through my randominess...

2009-01-20T20:29:00.000-08:00

WHAHAHAHAHA!!!!... i had a dream last night... ***** came in again... this time is also very itimate... but i should know... all this are dreams.. YET THET FEEL SO GOOD!!!!
dreaming is fun for me coz not only do i put emotions into it... i can also feel the dream...if u hit me... i feel the pain...juz like a normal hit...so if u rub me... i get aroused into my dream but it clearly depends on who rubs me... so last night with a little club music... a slow yet sleazy dancing routine and a very excited man (that's me)...

I woke up feeling GREAT... despite the fact that i had to go and 大 X ard 7 plus am...

*****...难道你真的是我的命中注定... if there is the case...ain't i just lucky?

now... i'm really emo-ing. . . . . .

2009-01-16T02:13:00.000-08:00

Today i feel super sad... my mind muz be thinking of something...infact... it is always thinking of something or someone... i cannot bear the cycle of unison and separation... i hate thing to end... i juz want things to continue the way it always was... a new year means... another group of friends... i don't want another group... but sometimes being in the current one makes me have doubts... man and woman still act differently... somethings woman do on their own...somethings man do on their own... somethings they will never do when they are together... being the thorn among the roses... am i really welcome... what if this thorn is really irritating and would rather be discarded... are all the insult jokes or do some sort of truth lies within...

A fragile heart i now possess... vulnerability is at its maximum... i've had enough... people always talk about...meeting my so and so friend... but me? frankly... i don't have such fortune... was i born destined to be alone... what is the existance of life? wait...i'm sure i have blogged something ike this before... my eyes have tear that falls like a shooting star... my heart which no one see... is actually made of glass... it's very easy to break me if i put a little of my emoticon into something but as much as i try not it... it still happens... lies would be great on me...

As the long nights passes by... i do not understand myself more and more... i though i was very anti about life... but it seems i want so much more... what do i want... i wake up feeling lost as ever... as if i missed out on somethings important... my hollow heart has been filled with something call misery...yes... i'm full of misery alone... perhaps i nv realsie until now... coz i'm ignorant?

2009-01-11T20:45:00.000-08:00

如果你也和我一样，被人伤害过，但又还有假装你过得很好。
你一定会喜欢这一首歌，罗志祥的“搞笑“。。。

那一条牙膏在对我傻笑嘲笑我永远用不掉
想睡就睡想闹就闹好快乐少了人捞叨
蓝色的碗盘多买了一套我忘了没人陪我通霄
要多少替代的丑角无辜的陪笑
才会让我能真的忘了你的好

我在搞笑借着热闹掩盖着心跳边哭边笑
偏要说着一个人真好当人群散了突然觉得我可以死掉
我受不了还在搞笑害怕回家不知怎么熬
这么多年早就喜欢有你的撒娇
我想我能熬但是至少要让我知道
你好不好

我们的小狗食量变好小眼神里常常显得无聊
他习惯睡觉的床位少了一双脚所以他常常看着门口睡不着

我在搞笑借着热闹掩盖着心跳
边哭边笑偏要说着一个人真好
当人群散了突然觉得我可以死掉我受不了

我在搞笑却在最后眼泪拼命掉你的离开失去多少
我计算不了忙完了一天突然觉得又何必辛劳
对谁炫耀还在搞笑是否拥有麻痹的疗效
唱一夜歌却避不开催泪的曲调
我彻夜胡闹希望听到有人会提到
你好不好。

是不是很悲伤呢?

2009-01-08T00:42:00.000-08:00

Today is the 14th week of school, so soon i will go into a another deep sleep..wait i meant holiday.. a long vacation and commence my 3rd year, of course as usual, this has nothing to do with what i'm gonna blog about next... come on... every one knows my style... i blog random stuff as always so here goes my next blog... the comparison between Asians and White people...

Well i was listening to 蔡依林 english song 'kiss me' and i noticed when she pronouce 'you' it sounds like 'chu'... so i began to ponder... is it a slang or a style or could it be the way the taiwanese speaks their english, well its not something that can be easily accepted... what if.. what if it was a slang and she did it on purpose... no one will know anyway cause everyone has the mindset it was due to bad pronoucation... imaging imaging... what will the white people say... hey dude... listen to this shit... she can't sing or pronouce properly even my grandma can do better... isn't this kinda like a complete misconception... so a white person speaks chinese... and pronouce badly... it is known as a good effort to try... the chinese would good... 'wow, its a good attempt' or its very surprizing that you know chinese while looking impressed... you see the difference... the white people would comment about someone trying to learn the language as a imbecile who is uneducated and from a third world country...isn't this just sad...?

A New Year

2009-01-01T07:28:00.000-08:00

The lingering presense of you haunt me... guess who is the first one i saw when i haven't even open my eyes...its was you... and the rest of the day...i felt like a lonely loser... tears was threatening to escape while i was having my meal alone... why?

I don't understand why... i want to keep in contact with u... but you won't let me... and i have no reason to... if you even read this... how about dropping me a sms... if you dun have my number in which even your mom has it... it's 97279233... juz a Hi would do...

I'm super moody now and i think i'm gonna go to get myself a chivas on the rock now... till then...

Merry Christmas?

2008-12-27T08:07:00.000-08:00

Merry X'MAS!!

Wait...its two days overdue... tribute and a moment of silence to those who died in the tsunami in 2004... i was almost one of them so i got lots of thoughts for them... R.I.P

ok... a moment is probably over...(this depends on how fast u read) anyway... yup...SANTA is a lie... i didn't get what i wanted so there isn't going to be a tribute and worship spot in my house for SANTA... haha! i think i wasn't a bad boy this year... i was a heart broken boy for sure but not a bad one... wait... i'm not a boy anymore!?!? so does that mean it didn't work cause i'm not a boy... damn... i miss out my chance but too bad SANTA so did u... LIAR!!!

Work is great thinking bout the money but i'm more interested in more money... lim bei work work work also got no aim in life... no frenz no nothing... KNN... my life rox... SONG!! ok... offically i think i'm going nuts... nothing i want now is happening... so i'm complaining and whinning in my blog now... WHAT THE FUCK!!... if only i can get a better paying job...plsssss... i need a better paying job... omg... sobz... being broke is killing me...

i got...

No Gf
No Money
No Life
No Satifcation in life

WHen someone is poor... they do not ponder what will happen when they die... life is like a game... ever play the game of life?? you start off as a fresh grad and you get married buy a house... have children... then retire... i think its the same... now i'm 21... 24 come out and work... if can then find a gf... then hao say then marry... after that buy hse.. have children then retired... wait for death... interesting... next 50 years have been planned for me...

MERRY CHRISTMAS... (well not all of you will have a merry christmas for some of you will... fall sick or even die... get dumped or maybe someone in the family has passed on...get involve in traffic accidents...) so i wishing all to try your best to have a good christmas...

2008-12-17T23:30:00.000-08:00

ok...let's see what i did for the last few days...

monday... went out with the girls

tuesday... rot at home

wednesday... stay at home and rot

thursday... still rotting

Thanks for reading this awesome entry...

Dear Santa

2008-12-14T19:23:00.000-08:00

Dear Santa,

I'm a nobody who benefits from the lies that you bring forth to children all around the world because you do not deliver whatever you have promised, my parents, relatives and friends are filling in your spot right now and giving me gifts but i'm also giving gifts to them too... And the more i writing this down... i start to wonder... where did you pop out from this christmas bullshit... isn't this suppose to be the celebration for 'the so call mighty invisible man's living in the skies son' who supposingly sacrifice himself for people who he do not know... so Santa when did u pop out... come to think of it... u do look like him... the messiah who might just fooled all of us... all you need to have is more lipo (fats) ... a pair of prescription eyewear a.k.a spectacles...and a red jump suit... some genetically modified reindeers... specifically one with a red nose whom u call rudolph... and we ever came up with a song for it...

You know Dasher, and Dancer, andPrancer,
and Vixen,Comet, and Cupid, andDonner and Blitzen
But do you recall
The most famous reindeer of allRudolph, the red nosed reindeerhad a very shiny nose
and if you ever saw it
you would even say it glows.All of the other reindeerused to laugh and call him names
They never let poor Rudolphjoin in any reindeer games.Then one foggy Christmas eve
Santa came to say:"Rudolph with your nose so bright,won't you guide my sleigh tonight?"
Then all the reindeer loved him
as they shouted out with glee,Rudolph the red-nosed reindeer,you'll go down in history!

So Santa...here's your chance to redeem yourself... this weekend on Sunday... A.D 2008 21 Dec... i'm going to buy 4D... and the number i will buy is 8718... please make sure you sprinkle some 'magic' on me and let me struck 1st price... I unlike the others who only ask for gifts will actually worship you... a little corner in my house shall be named as Santa Corner for the believers and receivers...But since i'm at it... hers's a list of the thing i want to buy when i do struck the lottery on sunday... now now...your diginity is on this one Santa... its make or break for you...no seconds chances...i'm sorry...i had given too many chances and all my praying and hopes have fall on deaf ears...ok...here goes

Dear Santa... observe my wishlist...

Cash : SGD $5000 ( juz incase u give me the currency u use in the north pole)

or

Canon DSLR 50D kit-3...

A new laptop which i have yet to decide but lets go with the Mac-Book Pro...

More money to buy lenses to go with my DSLR...

How bout a new girlfriend too... juz 3 criteria...

Smart, beautiful / sweet and rich...

This is what i want for christmas, Santa... sure hope you can deliver this time round... Merry Christmas...HoHoHo?!?!

2008-12-11T02:57:00.000-08:00

Its time to lose weight after so many attempts...yet all i losing is my balance... gaining weight instead of losing it... OMG!?
Now i'm gonna list reasons why i should lose weight...

1. To look better
2. to be able to fix into clothes
3. to save me the trouble to alter my jeans
4. to be healthy
5. to get a gf / wife
6. to scold someone else a fat ass...pua kia!
7. to prove to people that i can lose weight
8. to have girls surrounding me and asking me how i did it
9. to be able to buy health insurance policies
10. to be able to take less space on the public transport
11. to not crush my gf/wife when we're making out
12. to blend into friends...unless all my friends are fat asses
13. so i can eat more unhealthy food
14. so my children don't blame me that my fat genes got to them
15. so i can be the only Santa that can squeeze down the chimney
16. So people selling health produce will not appoach me
17. so i don't end up dying after eating slimming pills
18. so i can actually see my neck
19. so my gf can hug me without complaining
21. to have a waist
22. to not get stereotyped
23. to not be rejected by girls saying...i'm sorry...i don't like fat guys
24. so i look good in pictures
25. to hear people say wow... u lose so much weight... while looking at past pictures
26. to join my brothers six-packed gang
27. to not snore at night
28. to look good infront of gf family
29. to make my family( extension) say hey u finally lose weight
30. to tell a fat ass in the face who says they can't lose weight that they actually can...

Plans

2008-12-08T07:06:00.000-08:00

Its almost chirstmas soon... what are your plans this year??
I'm thinking of renting 'home alone' videos and watching it alone in my living room with all the lights off... enjoying snacks and drink this christmas... it will be juz me and myself...hopefully it rain and i have a sexy night... Since we got no winter and it freaking hot even at night... the rain creates an artificial atmosphere... if u're in the christmas mode like me... then its time to plan...

My fav. christmas was spend with my family on Deli...my cousins island... on christmas night, we went night fishing...fucking awesome... then next day... Tsunami...fucking not awesome... except for the death of many... its was an awesome X'mas...Last X'mas was spend with a special someone who run away... but nvm the less... still awesome...

X'mas has always leave a holiday impression where ppl dun have to go and work and everyone can hang out at home to watch home alone...ain't that super fun... Ain't U looking forward for it too??

2008-12-05T05:21:00.000-08:00

Girls have strength too... i got bumped by hui yan and fishy in sch today... and i swear...i lost balance both time... my heart almost came out and i hit the walls... fucking hurts... omg...i'm getting bullied in school...

Ytd i saw a bangala kena bully by a chinese guy at woodlands MRT, apparently... the bangala accidently kicked the chinese guy in the leg and did not say anything, the chinese got fed up and grab him by him bag while they coming tapping their cards out of the station...then the chinese threaten to call the police unless the bangala pays him... me and the girls saw it and watched for a while before i went to inform the incident to the control station guy... but when i did... the show was also over and maybe the chinese guy realise what i was doing and walked off... fucking sad man...extorting money from a person who is even much poorer than you... feels like some ancient drama...

2008-12-04T07:58:00.000-08:00

I got a song that i never once own but brings back a lots of memories... " what will i do" i use to hear it from someone elses phone as an alarm every morning and suddenly grabbing hold of it makes me emo...wtf...

I think my collection of emo songs are ever growing and the title of King-Emo is not far away from my grasp...if only i drove... i might start running into people because i'm emo... oh great... now i'm downloading old songs... 'Tell laura i love her' by Ray Patterson...

Oh Great...mom's dad is here... i expect lots of mumbling and quarrels between my parents and him over some ridiculous issues... damn... i'm glad that i've decided to not come home so early from today onwards till he goes back... hse too crowded...no privacy... fucking sad...

2008-12-02T19:24:00.000-08:00

The long awaited song "说好的早餐呢" is finally out... below are the lyrics uploaded by me...

妳的头发凌亂著在这个时刻

我一大早起来很快乐早餐快到了

继續莫名的拉扯我以出门了

而妳斷斷續續唱著歌还在洗澡呢

時間過了我的巴士已经到了

你刚好只是穿衣服一开始都很兴奋

我在短信里写着才发现你其实都还没出门怎麼了

妳迟了說好的早餐呢我懂了

不說了茶淡了面凉了

胃酸与不消化的感觉在我肚里吵着那些饱過的感覺都太深刻

我都還記得妳迟到了說好的早餐呢我疯了发火了肚烂了饿死了

只是你搭的巴士车還没到呢要怎麼start呢

妳的头发凌亂著在这个时刻我一大早起来很快乐早餐快到了

情緒莫名的拉扯我以出门了

而妳斷斷續續唱著歌还在洗澡呢

時間過了我的巴士已经到了

你刚好只是穿衣服

一开始都很兴奋我在短信里写着才发现你其实都还没出门

怎麼了妳迟了說好的早餐呢我懂了不說了茶淡了面凉了

胃酸与不消化的感觉在我肚里吵着

那些饱過的感覺都太深刻我都還記得妳迟到了說好的早餐呢

我疯了发火了肚烂了饿死了

只是你搭的巴士车還没到呢要怎麼start呢怎麼了

还没到說好会准时的我懂了迟到的王八蛋去死吧我被你骗了

我不等了說好的早餐呢才发现没带钱没办法得等你

只是你搭的巴士车還没到呢要怎麼start呢

Dreams again?

2008-11-25T18:20:00.000-08:00

Omg... its another dream involving 2 different girls that use to be in W55D... this time this 2 were also in my hse and i can only rmb...particularly this certain individual was trying to steal my blanket...we were lying on the bed watching Tv and the fans is too cold then she snatch my baby blanket from me...EVIL!!!

There's my baby blanket...should be as old as me le...i'm impresses stuff made before the the 21th century kinda last longer than now?? why is that so?? I think i know the reason... we all know...just check out where its manufactured from and you will see the biggest populated country's name below...CH*NA... I'm very amused by what they do to increase a certain physical property in the products that create...and to think the QC over there didn't even found out...fucking corrupted if you ask me...

The Government should shoot the QC if u ask me and then shoot the people who are highly involved..no worries... they are densely populated thus killing a few thousand wouldn't hurt them...and since it's a one child policy... if they need more...just have more sex then... They could be the world leader when it comes to usage of condoms... since they must practise protection....of... did i mention abortion too?? No safe sex = abortion... imagine... sex education there... have stop fucking when you have one... do not add up to our country's problems...So now i'm gonna make a list on how to stop reproduction...

1. Propaganda : No sex after one child
2. Use 2 condoms ( like it'll work...poof! )
3. Back to the eunuch stage... practise castration... it originated from there anyway...
4. ladies to go for Sterilization ( then will not get pregnant )
5. make abortion rates cheaper and more afforable
6. Pray to your respectives Gods that you wanna fuck but cannot have the child

See the desperate measure i came up for them...i'm such a humanitarian... and they should stop adding wierd stuff into the products they produce...bunch of faggots...

Awesome dream!

2008-11-17T17:28:00.000-08:00

It a fairly wierd dream that i had monday night... well after a whole day out with dj, wei hong and his gf, jing shu...where we ate porridge buffet at suntec which kinda sux, then we had granola bars in the movies while watching James Bond, after that ben and Jerry's and for dinner cafe cartel...jing shu was kinda funny coz she keep laughing whenever i try to do something funny, i kepy mentioning about food and the 2 guys sort of ignore me in their own conversation then i juz kept going on behinf their backs and she was laughing all the way soon i tried the spider man stunt...wei hong and jing shu laugh till face cramp...wtf? and we went home...

I was tired so i slept early...u know the things about dreams is that u have no time concept about it? well...i felt that i was dreaming the whole night and it's the dream that woke me up if not i wouldn't be in school on tuesday... this dream is wierd but nice...1st i rmb (no one rmb the whole dream detail, i'm juz gonna highlight inportant parts) was some girl in class was standing in the masterbed room and i told my mom and dad this is ***** my gf...next we share a kiss, the thing about kisses for me is that i nv get the excitement when i'm doing doing it, the excitedment juz behind the lips collide but this time i felt it, ( i do not know about any 1 of u, but i go feel when i'm dreaming, if i dream that i get hit, i feel pain, if i touch something soft then i also feel it and if i was kissing, yes, i feel the kiss) AWESOME!! and this girl is someone i know...its sort of awkward looking at her in class ytd...but her screen time in my dreams are kinda short, then again another girl in my room, this time a colleague, same scene, kissing and groping but no excitement...BORING!! so i would juz reminiscing about her... the one i kissed with excitement...oh my goddness... come to me one day i pray...LALALALALA !!!

Happy 19th Birthday stan...he's my brother... good luck in the army soon... going in before me muz suck big time...whatup!! stan is a Christain and i'm a Atheists... Alvyn was commenting that it is fun having a Christain and an Atheist in the family...it like having god and satan at home... how fun! i would throw insults to him everytime... coz he's holy and its a lie... get a grip... stop hallucnating ...

For any reason...if u're juz wondering...read on...

2008-11-16T05:02:00.000-08:00

To all my dear Friends, Family and everyone else...

Incase u see me eating a liquid diet... do not...yes...do not say... hey, are you on diet ? coz my answer would be...No...i'm juz poor. to poor for solid food...

So if you happen to see me staring at ur wallet/purse/etc... so not comment stuff like...hey, u like my wallet/purse/etc... truth is i'm more interested in the money inside coz i'm juz poor...

If u see me playing with ur IC...making some lame remarks on how much it will fetch at the loan shark's truth is...i'm thinking of "liberating" it from u coz i'm juz poor...

If u do see me fighting over the 20cents taking away money from the food ventor...do not be blinded and see me as an idealist or one with great principles coz i'm juz poor and cannot afford the 20 cents...

Surviving is hard... surviving poorly is harder... why this extreme measures? coz i'm poor? and by doing the extreme, i get to experience how the really poor people living in poverty is feeling, "do not shed a tear for me, for my glory lives forever" (i got that pharse from star tracks) see me not as a humanitarian, for i need no form or recognition...farewell this noble world...

Fuck la...i'm juz fucking poor ok?? KNN!

Life is in a fix

2008-11-15T21:44:00.001-08:00

I guess we can never expect to be whatever we wanted in life...

When i was young, i had a dream, i wanted to be a policeman but as i grow up even more, my dream escaped through my diet, the fatter i grown the smaller my dream got and before i realise it, GONE. . . .

So i learn that many things in life, there need to be sacrifices. be it you or someone else, i had lots of friends but its either in my nature or something along that line, i or them never stick for long and eventually the group will spilt up one way or another..
First was the Primary 5-6 gang, after entering secondary school, i never saw anyone of them anymore,
then in sec 1, another group of jokers,
sec 2-4 another group of people ( 1 is still actively in contact).
Sec 4 (year 2, i repeated my N twice) new class so new friends and this class is divided into 2, so i join the bigger group only to realise that they have some issues of their own after a year.
So for my sec 5, the other group of the class,
in between, there was always team spiritz my frenz outside of school, i tink there were 8 of them which i also lose contacts since they start their NS.
Poly year 1 sem 1 frenz, gone,
poly year 1 sem 2 frenz, forget it...those bunch of losers
and besides i've Candace then, who needs those losers.
year 2 sem 1... no more candace, so more frenz and this bunch of frenz until now... so the question is how long can this last? how long till i can find a new girl friend?

how long more will things go against me? when can i break this fucking curse... i lost my spot at work... hope it gets better soon and i can go back... Next year got FYP... 2 FYPs...i'm feeling that my current groups of friends are nearly gone... what can i do ? what's the point anyway...knowing myself...i'm not gonna do anything... on my wedding day... i can save the effort of the wedding dinner since it will juz be my wife's frenz... omg?

Horror story... R(A)

2008-11-13T21:48:00.000-08:00

Addicted to emo metal now... a very nice song to people who loves to emo and listen to metal....

Korn --- Tearjerker

Its so sad ytd...i found out something really bad...my classmate suffered a few highly destructive minutes... its like getting kicked in the nuts by Roberto Carlos or punch in the face by Mike Tyson...

Here goes... i shall intro the main characters...Mr. Wei Jie and Pearly( i dunno if i shld put a Ms or not...coz its hard to tell whether she human or not and no...i not being bad evil or nasty)

Wei Jie... ok truth be told... This guy is actually a very nice guy...but the way he dress is not something everyone can accept...er... pink skinny? Rude awakening to me and i couldn't get use to it 1st but soon its fine... his hair was kinda funny at 1st but not it looks better...

Pearly... 'It" is freakly... do not... i repeat do not look at her... if u value ur life... everyone say "she's" wierd but i think it's an understatement..."she's" not wierd...she's a fucking nutcase... who the fuck stares at her computer and grin widely at it... like some pyschopath... RUN EVERYONE... i see the making of a serial killer...serial rapist and a necrophile... <> which i feel is a understatement... at least they smell coz they sweated during work or apply something but pearly... smells at the start of the day...have you ever encounter soap and shampoo in ur life...u know?? a shower?? er?? wash?? water?? SIBEI JIALAT!!! KKN... and the way 'she' sits imagine...spilts on a chair... that's how wide 'she' sits...she look like kena hit by 15 3tonnes in a row for a few days and lastly fucking wierd accent... do not be decieved by her name... 'she' is nothing what the name suggest... fear for ur life... ( This is not biased... this is the truth and feel free to ask around...class w54Q and w54r)

Finally the story... This took place somewhere around after school hours before the 1 week vaacation...so its 4-6pm... 20,21,23 or 24 oct 2008... there were 4 ppl in the class at the time... the victim, Wei jie...
the freakshow, Pearly,
Calefare A, Jason
and Calefare B, Jason's friend

Pearly was packing and going home... she leave the class but soon came back and she approach

P : can i talk to u for a moment

Wei jie thot it was something random so he went out

W : what is it?

P : U like me... don't u??

Stunned... mind blank ( its like getting hit with a baseball bat in the head) he then say

W : pls restraint from uttering nonsense ...who told u so??

P : Coz u kept looking at me?

wei jie muz be thinking 'what the fuck!?'...

anyway its manner to look at someone when u speak so wei jie was looking at pearly at that time... then pearly spoke again...

P : can u dun look at me?? i'm feeling uneasy and i cannot speak my mind...

WHAT THE FUCK...OMG?? ytd when wei jie told me... i was stun for a fews seconds... and then i woke up... wah lan ah...knn... so fucking gross la... wei jie... pls work hard to live on... do not give up so easily...i know its easy for me to say coz u're the one going through this ordeal but we support u... from everyone who knows both this tragedy... hope this doesn't happen to anyone... may u be the last victim...

R.I.P...

wait wait... u're not dead yet...ps ps...=X

Only you understand what the meaning of a rainy night is to me

2008-11-08T12:04:00.000-08:00

4 AM on a rainy night, the red skies reminds me of the times i spent with you, even if u're no longer here with me, life goes on, missing you is what i had endured since, its been too long for me, to habour a feeling for a decade only to find myself losing you again once and for all, hiding and dissappearing forever is what you choose i suppose, its your way of doing things, its so you.

forgetting you is what i can't seem to do, sometimes i feel like a cursed child ( o.O i'm no longer a child) it's like i found my favourite toy, never wanting to let go, denying all flaw and killing all obstacles that seperates me from it, only difference is that this toy has decided to run away on its own, hiding in the shadows, never to utter a word or it might not even be bother at all and ignored everthing.

Words cannot describe how much you're missed, the rain and the skies are what i wish could send u a message that i'm missing you, stil loving you?? i wonder what will happen when i finally see you again, will i freeze, run or approach you, what should i say, were you be alone or with someone, some many things running through this little head.

I"M DEAD. . . . . . . . . .forever. . . . . . . .

15.10,08

2008-10-15T08:34:00.001-07:00

Yes!!

The long awaited jay chou CD is out and i got the taiwanese version CD... which was different from the one that was downloadable but the thing is that there isn't lyrics...So i can't put lyrics in my ipod... that would be a problem...why?? Coz even though i'm a Jay Chou fan...most of the time i cannot understand what the shit he's singing...sad but true... Anyway 周杰倫万岁!!!

This reminds me of [Underworld]... so cool!!

HOHOHO... recently i got a 2.1 speakers to go with my laptop... i love the bass... but the loudness has to exceed a certain limit to truly demonstrate it BOOMNESS... anyway i got the Altec Lansing speakers VS2421... i think its quite good...but then i juz went to google so i can get a picture and found that this speaker has a serious problem with high pitch frequency being emitted...however i never kena so hahaha...too bad to all of u who kena...

There's the pict.. [ after uploading this pict... i can't update other picts... =( ... Wtf!?!? ]

Anyway today went to sakae at woodlands to celebrate jac's b'day...1st time see her put on make up leh...Mai siao siao...haha... Happy Birthday jac!! then later sherman came to join us when we were leaving... Then ...Me.. sherman and kevin who left tgt then met up with their frenz... DL and xiao xiang...haha... its suppose to be xiang but xiao xiang sounds kinda cute...( er hem...i'm not gay) then sherman drove me and kevin home...nice man...1st time on sherman's ride...Anyway we made a joke about sherman...here goes...

Sherman : Hi...have u met me??

Girl : *ignore* then stare and say... how bout u??

Sherman : *winks* i drive

Girl : * suddenly desperate* Hi nice to meet u ( and next thing you know...she was found in his bed)

Children... this is how a pro does it... juz two words and he found the way up her skirt...ain't he great... ( do not this try without a professional help or risk getting slap/hated/ignored for life...)

Seriously... i think i spend too much this month...but i ain't gonna enclose how much... hahaha...sianz...if only falls from the skies above...and maybe then i might juz believe in GOD..

Then i got home and the torture being again...screaming and yelling was what greeted me...over what...?? over the fact that mum can't count and dad's too busybody and noisy...shouting coz he can't speak properly...completely irritating...i wonder why... when its with me this isn' t the case...its juz with mum... anyway i find out the trend... mum like to scold ppl and talk big after something has happen but when she is there... she keeps numb... this is the quality called 马后炮 which is completely similar to her father... when grandpa is here...its really irritating watching tv with them... imagine u watch a show with a little bit of gore or sex scene...this 2 will starting making comments like... " why like this...why like that " or so perverted...wah piang ah... sibei irritating... ones will speak out loud while the other juz keeps mumbling... buay ta han man... i think the whole village of people are the same...mum ain't singapore, she's malaysia from muar... and i strongly suspect i got all the dumb genes from her and the slack genes from my dad... i think the whole village of people are about the same... and of coz all my malaysia relatives which i do not know, who is who... i muz be wary when counting a malaysia gal...sekali is my relative... then LOL...

Recently in my new class got this very scary person who laugh at her comp all day long and has bad B.O... her name is not so not like what it is suppose to suggest...Pearly is her name but its more like errie...she gives me the creeps and my W55D classmate are linking me with her...damn fuck...stop it la....i might juz commit suicide coz of it... hehe... hehe... hehe... eeeeeeee... fucking gross... time for me to run!!!

All you Fucking Little children

2008-10-13T20:25:00.000-07:00

Nice little children... once u were one...

now u're all scattered and shatter...

i shall grant each of you a broken blade... a bottle of molostov...

now you can tear and scrap every little inches left of yourself...

cannibalise one another... feed from limb to limb...

burn in hell... for the angels that you have seen are lies...

scream in the valley of nothingness...

sleep on the imaginary realms that you created...

for you have lost your soul...

slit your throat to escape from yourself...

you fucking little children... your lies knows no boundary...

now you fucked up yourself and tainted everything around you...

listen to your heartbeat... can't you hear it ??

of course not, i forgot... you don't even possess a heart anymore...

for you will lay dead on the soil...

for you shall rot with maggots flowing over...

for you were once a part of something wonderful...

Another crap post....

2008-10-12T21:06:00.000-07:00

Geez...am i sad or what... you know in life there are perks and bottoms...currently i'm facing a girl bottom ( no... i do not mean the ass but it would be GREAT) but yeah, unpopular against the ladies with nothing better to do than to emo Forever!?

Ouch...!? every morning when i board the bus to school, it can be the happily/ saddest/ crappiest moment of the day...why??

Scenerio 1: Most sits taken with only 1 person sitting on it, so i would probably choose who to sit with and the attractive opposite sex...(happy) the other times would be that i miss out that chick and can't change my sit as it would be too obvious to go back...(sad, regrets)

Scenerio 2: WOW...a vacant sit... which is rare...nice sit by the window and then that's part 2... who the fuck is gonna sit beside u...? a elderly...a MIC...indian...a hot chick... a fugly piece of shit... or another guy...an ah bend or a nerd...but guess what i hate the most...infact there are 2...

A. One who sits too close, hey? u're crammping my style here! back off! (unless its a hot chick)
B. One who gives off great amount of body heat...how the fuck did u get so hot? seriously... u piss me off...

Back to the girls bottom topic....ya...ain't it sad?? life has some such a dumb cycle...u know a girl...she ACTS friendly and all of a sudden...poof... the cold shoulder...ok... now what went wrong...?? You usually don't know coz u're blunt... peggy is here! ( yes she invaded me when i was blogging) so how do we go about it? the answer is: 'we don't' coz we sux at it and we usually screw it up even more...so guys if u face the problem i face... juz go emo or something alone that line... haiz....

THE LEGENDARY

2008-10-12T08:15:00.000-07:00

Long time no blog...anyhow blog blog ba...

Today i felt something wierd...i miss _______... its not like it has nv happen... but somehow... i can't really be emotionally attached to anyone...everyone can come and go for all i care but my gay buddy cannot...Dj muz stay... perhaps the only best man for my wedding in the future...but then again maybe no wedding..too poor to afford 1...with a mist fogging my future...i need no planning coz anything can go...

'Sadded' at work today...i realise my colleague got a scandal with another colleague which is wrong... so confusing in this real world...i love my world...its juz me and emo...good frenz since 200?

When did i started emo-ing? i was once a happy kid...once... so now i'm a emo man...emo emo...the pathetic type that has no achievement...buy 4D nv strike b4...so damn sad... go to work like not my business which is GREAT...enjoys jazz and metal...which is wierd...oh well...muz have been the metal...which is GREAT and LEGENDARY!!

i seek for something but i do not know what...
i look for something but i'm blinded...
i feel for something with my hands hacked...
i dream of something without a soul...
i think of something wth a mind...
i live without breathing...

I'm hopless, useless, please do not have any expectations of me... i cannot bear that shit...

Wrist slashing is fun...
Emo-ing in a corner is fun...
Drinking is GREAT...
Drinking and emo-ing is LEGENDARY...

Revenge?

2008-09-07T11:41:00.000-07:00

Oh fuck... yes...it's about a lizard again...nopez...it didn't poo on me this time round but i killed it...'accidently'...but i was protecting myself...ok here goes...

It was 2 in the morning and i wanted to grab a drink b4 i go to bed so i went to the fridge and grab the bottle of strawberry yogurt juice which stan bought...hehehe...then when i was finish and decide to close the door after placing the bottle back...a LIZARD jumped off from the fridge door...out of shock...i slammed the door and went to tell my other brother. Alvyn bout it...he demanded that i flush the lizard out b4 it eats the food in the fridge...i didn't wanna do it coz it was bed time and i needed the sleep however i had to do it bcoz i "LOVE' my family and "DO NOT" want them eating lizard leftover (i'm starting to regret now, imagine their faces when they find a rotting lizard there).

I went over to the fridge again, slowly opening the frige door from the side hopinbg that it will juz jump out and save me the trouble but noooooooo...it decided to play hide and seek...little did he know his penatly was death for this game...so i had no choice but to slowly remove everything from the fridge... knowing that a lizard's reflexes was quick...i started probing the object violently that i wanted to remove before removing it...thus the lizard do not follow the item out...i was afraid it jumped on me...fucking digsuting if u ask me...Ok...after clearing half the fridge...yet it's no where to be found...fucking lizard...won't u juz rest it and spare me the agony of suffering shock and jump out of the bloody fridge...

Then the next item i poke was a can of Chang beer...a nice chilled can of Chang beer sitting in the middle of the fridge...so the same action apply...a violent probe...ok...nothing then i lift the can up and looked at the other side of the can... FUCK!!!!#$&%

Mr.lizard was half hanging there with half its body in mid air...shock and too sudden for me...i throw the can of beer back into the fridge and i was damn sure it land directly onto the lizard...imagine...

weight of beer - weight of lizard =
= excess weight
so we add gravitional force and force of me throwing the can down...plus it was a direct hit..

thus i conclude that i'm quite* (check this word out in the dictionary,it means very, absolutely) sure i killed it...then it juz laid there..i tink i have something with dead stuff lying on the floor\desk\fridge* (fridge is exremely rare) i mean how many ppl\insects\lizards are killed in the fridge... i juz cannot get over the idea to remove a dead lizard from the fridge...DEAD...what if it suddenly jumped up...i'm not gamed for that kind of shock...so i ask Alvyn to help mr remove it but he was making a fuss bout it...and insisted that i use a tissue and a glove to work my way around it...so i went to the drawer to grab a pair of rubber glove and also 3 pcs of tissue and finally remove the fucking lizard...now i'm here...3.10...blogging thx to a fucking lizard which make me lose sleep...

'R.I.P' lizard
,and fuck you. . . . .

Pissed off...

2008-08-27T09:59:00.000-07:00

My lappy is out for good..fuck it...kena lizard urine after that...a whole night of misery...

Blog re-open

2008-08-11T06:45:00.000-07:00

This Blog is re-open just for W55D...So far i'm favourite Class in RP...Was very fun having all of you in this part of my lifes and i cannot bear to part but that's just life... I wish everyone well for next school term and those who choose the same elective as me... ( Environmental Science) hope we're in the same class next sem too... i shall pray to GOD.... er...wait...i don't believe in GOD...oh well...In this entry, i shall tell my tales about everyone of you and hope you tag me to tell me that you agree or disagree or insult me...HAHAHA!!!!
WARNING: ENTRY MAY CONTAIN UNWANTED/UNFAVOURABLE INFORMATION!!!

Ok...now to start the Ball rolling...this entry will be in alphabetical order so firstly we have...
But first...i must apologise if some comments are long and some are short...it just show how well i understand you...

Amelia: My first thought about u was...do you like guys or girl...haha...and soon it turn out that you know xiu zhen and are pretty close... xiu zhen told me that you are a nice person... from my observation...Amelia seems to be the pillar of 'jing sheng' among the gang of friends... Amelia can also be very hard working in work and nice knowing you...

April : April, April, April.... always so innocent but after i heard your secondary school stories...NO MORE!!.... i love your classic face when u suddenly freeze after laughing insanely...bring back a laugh no matter when or where...haha...will rmb that...april U loves to sing rite...yet keep telling me you cannot sing...Liar...WAIT... dun try to act like u're crying coz it really is very alike and i almost took it for real...But now i know it fake so u can't decieve me anymore...WHAHAHAHA...did i mention that u're also...super smart??

Cindy : See la cindy...always don't come to school...now i got nothing to write about you...but i try la ok? Cindy is older than me...hehe...always kena suan bout ur age...and i like to drag you down with me into the 'adult' catergory which you seem to deny very violently...why cannot just admit it!? haha!!! stop watching porn in your...ur lagging comp kena virus and the Jap porn starting playing on its own...DUN DENY!! but cindy... i like ur company... having u in class is fun...if u turm up that is...but nooooo...always so busy with ur FYP... but glad u still got ur gang in the class...HAHA...enjoy a equally good second semester but abit hard la...coz this class ROX ASS!!!

Daniel (locking) : whoa bu jian dan lei!! seems to be your favourite pharse...haha...i alway make fun of u but hope u dun mind coz it was fun...B-box i really cannot make it thus in the end become u solo but the locking moves you are cool but i like more violent 1...like the one jun xian performed..hand stand! Always team with sherman very fun hor...can slack..haha...stop head-shotting me in CS... NABE!!

Daniel (ah beng) : Another never see much person... DA GE hao!!! i rmb u having tatoos and since i influence everyone that u're DA GE...everyone assumes that u're an Ah Beng... Sorry bout that but i can heard many things about you that you're very friendly and such...well...i think i can learn more if you turn up more often...its seems that the Guitar and Cars are what you love...and we're similiar...i also wanna do a eye-brow piercing but it seems to troublesome and we both look beng BUT we're not..thumbs up for that!!

Delwyn : Either nv come, come late or never come...delwyn always so sleepy in class..at nite dun cheong too much la... u got spilt personality rite...i heard from someone in other class...outside like siao siao..in school transform into EMO-Ranger...GO GO EMO-RANGER...

Eugene : OMG...It's EUGENE...U're the perfect guy in every aspect of life...absolute sense of humour...I think i'm so in love with you... Your ever so evil heart has a soft side... which makes you a Romantic Lover to Possess... I shall now Brand you.. Mr. Perfect!! CLAP CLAP!!!!

Guhen : Abang Guhen...have enuf of my racist jokes?? haha...the nicest indian friend i ever had...infacti dun even consider u indian..u're just guhen...the ultimate singapore sport fan...mulitple facture sportsman and tons of hard work...i cannot imagine people enjoying singapore's sport so much... u nuts huh??

This is getting hard coz i realise i dun really know everyone well...

Hui Ling : Guitar Guitar Guitar...seems like its your life...how can we have so many guitar freaks in this class?? sorry i dun now well of u but i'm positive that u're a good person...cheers

Hui Yan : HAHAHA..fun hor??kena bullied by me then in the end u bully me...LOL... hui yan ah hui yan...can use some deodorant?? sorry didn't mean to say this but...muz be frank...dun be angry hor... regrets...should have bullied u more!Anyway i don't think u can tolerant much of my lameness anymore...ain'tu like glad the semester has finally ended...later u kena the same class as me again than i shall do what i miss out...BULLY you...steal all your sweets, switch on ur lappy plug and everything evil...WHAHAHAHHAH!!!!

Iszuan : joker!! u damn joker la...fucking hell..u and ur nonsense was what makes the class fun sometimes...(most of the time is me) stop sleeping in class...u remind me of a sherpard...esp the way u sleep...u back flip rocks...and i didn't know u can ride a Bike...stunning... catch u ard in sch... stop eating french fries... (they ain't french to start with)

Jackeline : Hello fellow IG member...don't be so angry about the 'green' jokes...i dunno why but it seems that u dun really like me saying u but u seem to have more tolerance towards jun xian and fishy...anti me izzit...a Motherly figure...haha...dun always be so nice nice to people coz they will end up on top of u ( juz like jun xian) but it can't be help coz jac jac ( that's you ) is too kind hearted... The person with the best impression in the class after u scolded me bastard...image ruined...so i guess i'm still the best then...oh well..it can't be help i suppose...i'm juz too perfect...u very modest hor...always saying u're not smart and always working so hard...i like that attitude...keep it up!!! LIVE GREEN...no la....sorry sorry...dun beat me or scold me ok...will hurt my feelings and the impression i have in you (-_-")

Jeremy : Another Da ge...hey lor mee... u idolise me izzit... always trying to come and pei he me...wanting to learn what i learn and do what i do...come on...show some originality...u can do it...however...i'm still better...i'm Mr.perfect...don't u get u...u'll always be a fake...not even a mirror image..DA GE...u got bad breathe leh...try to freshen it up....i dun tink u noe it...SWIM ON...SWIM ON...SWIM ON...SWIM ON (dream on by aerosmith)

Jing Yee : Pish is ur newest nick ( pig + fish) see la...who ask u act smart...use pig as a nick...now got new nick...whahhaa... hey fishy...u voice is quite unique hor...a mix blend of kiddy voices...i got so confuse that i dun now when u're acting cute and when u're not...coz they all sound so cute...haha!! Come on..hit me...i like to kena hit...i think i'm sadist... with you around...times flies coz when people are happy....time flies... ur sudden karate chops are really very sudden and seriously when u drink something next time... DON'T sit infront of me...i do not enjoy merlion spraying stuff at me...dun bite me too...i know u got extra teeth...first part of sem...i tink u quite anti me...see me bo song...luckily now never...if not u wouldn't have known how perfect i'm...did u chose the same elective as me...hope i can kena whack by u again...damn fun...OUCH!!!!...dun hit face...i earn money using my face!!!!

Jun Xian : We can spot u in almost everyone home, u're the basic element in the periodic table...who are you?? SODIUM...hahha jun XIAN...i think my house got some of u in...i think its the head part coz its looks so ah beng...haha...somehow...we got closer and closer as we share more to each other in class ( not in a gay way) my toilet mate...NO NO..we ain't doing anything funny in the toilet...but we click well...why??? we damn talk cock... U always seem to have girl problem hor...relax la...there's so much into life than girls like. . . .er . . .hmmmmm...ok fine..girls are almost everything in life...if it gets too fucked up..maybe it is time to let go...and PPl...when he say he cannot play pool..ITS A LIE!!!! but also true...coz he kept losing to me...HE sux!!

Kevin : Wassup Amporphous... i thot we would never go well ( i sort of stereotype ppl) but it seems that i was wrong...u're a nice guy to hang around with and ur cold jokes are not to be reckon with...thank you for your contribution to global warming...( from the members of conservation IG..... ME) that day i saw u playing rugby...u look like tinman in Wizard Of OZ running...LOL... dude..u're so stiff but u got a very funny face and i bet the Lion is Sherman and Guhen is someone else...dun gay around with sherman to much...i bet u join rugby so u can touch guys rite...gay shit...LOL!!!!!

Kat : meow? moew? moew? moew? moew? decipher yourself ( will decipher upon request)

Mardia : All i rmb is copying ppls's slide and complaining my music is bad when yours is worse!! we builded a treehouse???? love ur audio cable... This mardia comments must change...Mardia is a very nice person actually but because i'm too blind to see thus came out the last entry...my bad!!! seriously...u came from a religious school?? i still cannot believe it leh mardia...being the only malay girl in class must be hard and yes...the tree house songs have been stuck in my head...see la...all ur fault...!!!

Peggy : Seriously...ur dog is so full of happiness being love by you...until that day u said u always treated me as a human... u mean u always think that i feel that i'm like a dog?? haha... ICE QUEEN...dun freeze me up ok?? show ur warmth aura which u actually possess under the cold skin...u skin is very fair rite...muz be lots of girls envy...which all blends well with ur ICE QUEEN image... cute la u...when i praise u always so happy...but i wonder is it real??? or u juz pei he me only... HAHA...!!!!

Rohinee : try not to be so anti-social...haha...

Sarina : Professor...u like to come late rite?? i also....hahaha...i duno how u manage to absorb so many information...u got a sponge brain?? ( i meant that in a good way) u're just so sweet la...haha...sorry if u feel neglected in class...but its hard to convert from chinese to english sometimes esp when i get use to speaking chinese to some ppl...hehehe...have fun in ur holidays

Sherman : Mr.Lion... ROAR!! sherman ah sherman...say wanna drive me back until now i haven see ur car even once yet...Second Funniest guy in class ( i'm the funniest...i'm the JOKE) but i also realise something...u're quite smart right...u smart alec...but too clichy on ur previous class frenz...neglect us....sad la... dun touching me pls...my nipples are not meant for u....u sick bastard...damn talk cock too...which is a totally cool qualities...thx for the money in maple...LUBCHU ( love you but dun touch me)....

Ying Xiang : Ok...this is the last 1 le and this is a truly valuable friend i made in class...Chao Ah Lian...u're the first friend i made in class...BITCH!! don't ask me to STFU coz i won't and you know it...emo emo emo...but with me around...you can forget it la hor...i so bloody funny...my jokes and me...will miss our lame picture taking moments...T_T feel like crying...if you got anything to share with me by all means...and i hope if i wanna swine...u better get really hor...u and ur zhang dong liang damn funny and the way u portrait ur life is like damn sad but u'reactually luckiler than me leh...u like so concern about people ard u hor...come and gimme some concern la..i got financial crisis leh..go find a job and work to gimme money la BITCH!!!! haha...i hope u know all the Bitch i scold u i dun mean it... but somehow i mean it abit...got new friends then dun want me already rite ( SHOUTOUT TO ALL...THIS IS MY FRIEND BACK OFF!!! OR DIE DOING SO) u can never escape my clutch...u can run but u cannot hide de...no point doing so...i will hunt u and lame u till u buay tahan...nabe stop stressing me...i'm trying to type mushy stuff here...Tan Ying Xiang...I love you( as a friend,dun think too much) ...U're the BEST!! (after me that is).

I'm MR.PERFECT

BYE BYE

2008-07-24T01:49:00.000-07:00

I shall abandon this blog for now.

Lets educate the public

2008-07-12T07:25:00.000-07:00

Today i'm gonna teach you all a lesson in life which has been taught to you many times before...nv judge a book by its cover... i was at work at AMK courts today...and to my horror YY was working that...that idiot...always so talk cock...till the extend that he's not fucking funny anymore... we went for lunch together then he started to ask me why i nv smoke? so my reply was...juz because i have a few earhole and a outrageous hair style doesn't mean i smoke...lol...then we went back and the canon promoter also ask me the same question...he commended that i look fierce when i nv smile but when i do i look cute...fuck...he's a guy for heaven's sake...if it's a girl then its will be pleasant but a GUY?? Omg...let me stab myself tonight...ouch....

YTD went to party world with 5 girls and only me 1 guy...hehehe...

From left to right...Cindy...hui ling...Amelia...Peggy...Hui yan...

With me being the only guy...i sang all the duets with them...but sometimes i end up singing the girls part...which was damn gay...haha...had to use 'jia ying' all the way..and guess what?? we actually have hidden talents on our class...omg...peggy and cindy can actually sing very well... and i realise the older i get the worse my singing gets...oh crap...hehehehe...all the girls actually have the '自 high' ability...especially when we sang...你最珍贵...when i gave the watermelon to peggy instead of the rose which were all red then she wanted to return it to me but i ate it from her hands and everyone started clapping...LOL?!?!

Then there was the super mono tone duo of hui yan and hui ling...maybe coz the names got 'hui' thus they are monotonous...hmmm...muz be...but then Hsu hui xin can sing well lei...hmmm...so i shall conclude all the 'HUI" in rp are 'monotoners' hehehe...and Amelia...was quiet all the way..i dun rmb hearing her sing except a japanese song...which she dun even enjoy the MV...

Of course there was me...who sang almost everything...damn bad boy...i mean man...yup i'm a adult now... =)...i wanted to sing alot of songs but got no chance =( muz go again soon...train up my voice...RAWR!!!

Long time no blog

2008-07-10T04:35:00.001-07:00

Long time no blog...today a 'fan' came up to me with a disappointed look asking me why i nv blog...well my thought flow ain't flowing very well recently and all the stuff i wanna blog about are too brief...making it bored for me to blog...so...u know the rest of the story...

Last nite i went to cut my hair at hair mechanic and i muz say i really like to get my hair cut there...lots of surprizes everytime...haha...but not everyone will agree so if u guys got whatever comments that i do not like to listen...SHUT THE FUCK UP!! if u wanna make noise...go cut a hair that is fucking unique and looks good then come and comment me...if not seriously just...

SHUT THE FUCK UP!!! I dun take No for an answer!!! U're in no position to comment me coz u're not much better...for people who are with the hair style...thinks that its a 'unique' or outrageuos look...u're welcome to come up and say...'wow, ur hair is really one of a kind'...

Anyway...after i cut my hair...i met up wth julie...and we went to coffee bean for coffee...this time i was out to try new flavour and i spotted the ice blend name "Black Forest" the below reads...cherry with expresso beans...so i was like...hmmm...wth...lets try this shit...ok...it taste like coffe but with a pinch of strong cherry taste...not very nice...the cherry was the processesed type used for baking....u know? the type for cup cakes which we usually use as topping...for some reason me julie and i dun have much in common but we got lots of rubbish to talk about...let intro her abit...she working as a full time promoter for panasonic...she around my age and she a ah lian...hahaha...no la...but then again yes...she half lian, half not lian...halfing...haha...anyway saw a fucking rat when we were at the bus stop...scare the shit outta me...i fucking hate rats...

I forgot to add this part... shit...ok...i saw this thing looking like a lamp post so i ask julie what was it...as it contain a yellow fluid inside...turns out that it is the target beer barrel which i muz say looks really good...but the taste of beer is not very 'enjoyable' so i ask julie why people wanna drink beer...and guess what she answeres...'因为穷'....WHAHAHAHA...i was laughing my ass off at the coffe beans while the malays kept staring at our table...i dun know why but we keep surrounded by malays...( re-added on 12.7.08)

The cherries i had were red...The cherries i Hate are BOTH...this cherries SUX!!! Artificial!!

Side A..style as per normalSide B...shave bald this part...T think i looks like Edison Chen...If only i could repeat his scandal...T_T

X marks the spot =X...now find the treasure!!

I love my new hair...why? coz i design this myself...WHAHHAHAHA!!!

Its was my birthday on monday and for my 21th birthday...my classmates gave me cake...they didn't really got a Cake cake but at least i got this...which i'm so touch and they all sang a happy birthday song for me...which i was so touched...haven heard that shit song from frenz since 7 years old...so what presents did i get this year...hmmm...i bought myself a I-pod Touch and my sis gave me a crumbler laptop bag...i wonder if she share the cost with my elder brother...

W16L...went to eat steam boat with me at tian tian steam boat...which was quite good...but they haven give me present and b'day cake...after organising some many for them i didn't even get 1 lor...haiz!! SO i shall conclude...W55D is better!!! to be exact..the GIRLS of W55D are the best...hahaha...( esmond and xiu zhen gave me a treat already...so they are one of the best too! )

Meet Ying Xiang...My best friend in class...1st to buy cake for me... =) whoa...we both wearing earphones...so got 'mo qi' hehe...too bad she got bf...

Kena Bash By Goldfish (Jing Yee)NOOO!!! ARGH!!

My birthday cakes/tarts...whatever...love them

My new Crumbler Bag...WHAHAHAHA!! all black...not very pleasant..I love the green inside...WEEE!!!

Meet my I-Pod Touch...My love for now...

Anway i down the tart in one mouth...I've got a big mouth...

Victory...!!

Signing off!!

The stunning truth!!

2008-07-02T04:00:00.000-07:00

News was on channel 5 about Anwar sodomy charge...

my dad, younger brother and me was watching/ listening it...

Stan commended : he sodomise his chauffer and another man...

Dad : how did u know??

Me: pointing at stan, he's the other man...

everyone laughed out loud!!

WHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHA!!!!!

Names?

2008-06-30T18:26:00.000-07:00

So we give names to babies, pets, our gadgets or anything that u favour...I like cool and ususally names...names that people usually do not possess...HAH!! but i'm not talking about those names like papaya or durian...( u nv noe if some ass decides to be funny, however its more retarded than funny...) then there are the very common names which people seldom would want to name their children after...eg. Peter...John...Mary...Jane and the ever so 'WHORE' name Lulu...HAHAHA!!! who calls themselves Lulu...tranvetites maybe...since they have names like amy and such... so what's ur name?? yes...u reading my blog...ever wanted to be name differently out of the crowd??

People have adpoted japanese names nowadays...spanish... french or other european country names...but the worst names have to be from asian...

1.Tan Ah Kow - (dog) very common name in malaysia before it got ban

2.Lim ah huat - huat ah!!

3.Si ah lian (haha!!)

4.park blar blar ( HUH!?) korean

5.Mutu

6.Mohammed

7.Ali

A list of the most abuse names in Asian...then went english names came over to singapore...we have the ever so abuse name of ALVIN...so many people with this name..haha commner name...sad rite...to all the alvin in the world....u're so common...

so in order to not have a so common name...i suggest s'poreans having spanish names like miguel or fernando which is considered common in spain but not in sg...dun try anything funny and give ur kids wierd names like atomic or acid like the people in HK...whenever u watch a hong kong movie at the end of the show and the crew names are up...u'll notice wierd like those that i've just mention atomic..yes...atomic was what i noticed and i was thinking what!? an atom made this shit!? Whahahahaha!!!

I've already decided the names for my children =)

Ludavic for my boy...coz it sounds evil
Elizabeth for my girl...the name sounds graceful...

No chinese names for them...lets not ruined their lifes with chinese names...i made fun of tons of people's chinese names and lets not let karma get its way...so no chinese names..much as i hate mine...yuan szen (sheng) i feel retarded when i'm call by my chinese name..WHAHAHAHA!!

never take things for granted

2008-06-29T17:54:00.000-07:00

I got relieve off my duties at work, its very shitty, never did i expect it to happen, i was thinking i will work there till i graduate but now its seems that it not possible...now to move to higher scapes of lifes or lower...financially dried out now...ouch!!

Before today i have some things i wanna blog about...its not about myself but some issues instead...however i completely forgot it so i'll forget it...

Inner Peace

2008-06-27T11:35:00.000-07:00

ohmmmmmmmmmmmm........i need to find inner peace within myself...my mind is running wild...ohmmmmmmmmmm....peace be with me....ohmmmmmmmmmmm...

Nusery Rhymes

2008-06-26T05:26:00.001-07:00

Ohhhh....welcome back to childhood...the youngest years of our lifes are filled with grandmother story, nusery rhymes and lots of police scaring cases...your parents would always threaten you that the police uncle will catch you if you do so and so...ok...let goes...stop 1 : Jack and Jill... =)

Jack and Jill went up the hill
To fetch a pail of water.
Jack fell down and broke his crown,
And Jill came tumbling after.Jack and Jill went up the hill
To fetch a pail of water.
Jack fell down and broke his crown,
And Jill came tumbling after.

see...this is bad...jack broke his head must have bled badly infact there's more to it..there was dark humour in this...

Then up Jack got and home did trot
As fast as he could caper;
To Old Dame Dob who patched his nob
With vinegar and brown paper.

ok this verse is still alright...but next we had...

When Jill came in how she did grin
To see Jack's paper plaster;
Mother vexed, did whip her next,
For causing Jack's disaster.

Pain and suffering in this...why is nusery rhymes custom to this??

Now Jack did laugh and Jill did cry
But her tears did soon abate;
Then Jill did say that they should play
At see-saw across the gate.

WHAHAHAHAHA!!! BLACK HUMOUR...love it....

and even others too like...Humpty Dumpty...

Humpty Dumpty sat on a wall.
Humpty Dumpty had a great fall.
All the king's horses and all the king's men
Couldn't put Humpty together again.

see...its all so torturous...he broke into many pieces...shattered so we actually are cultivated by dark tales since young...which explains my evilness which i'm proud of...HAHA!!

Little Peter Rabbit had a fly upon his nose,
Little Peter Rabbit had a fly upon his nose,
Little Peter Rabbit had a fly upon his nose,
And he switched it and he swatched it and it flew right away.

Here now we have a rabbit which tried to kill a fly...evil evil...but NICE!!! so can anyone explain to me why i'm not evil...WHAHAHAHAHA!!! loved it... anyway tribute to George Carlin who pass away recently to a heart failure...sobz...will miss his humour...

VISTA!?

2008-06-25T01:44:00.000-07:00

omg...ytd i juz reformatted my lappy to vista and guess what...yes...its completely suck...my diablo 2 cannot run...some nudgy problems here and there...geez i wonder why it sucks so badly and the only thing nice about vista is that it looks like the mac...haha...other than that it compelety suck...so people if u wanna get Vista...dun bother...

Tell me why

2008-06-22T17:42:00.000-07:00

Dun ask me why..but it seems that the girls around me seems to be more beautifully/cuter/everything nice...are my eyes playing trick on me?

Ain't the opposite sex just lovely...of course... then there are the socially wrong group of people who are the gays and butch...i've got nothing against gays but yes to butch...
Disgusting bunch of people...female to begin with...halfway through the process something went wrong...and its not just me who have something against them...but lots of guys too...as if it isn't hard enough to compete with guys for guys now these THINGS also wanna come in...social rejects of the modern day society...ok enough say...talking bout IT pisses me off badly....

Regarding my eye vision of seeing things much more beautifully...lets hope i dun make the wrong judgement...sekali i see bettina then eyes play tricks then bett become very beautiful...then siao liao...so i shall not believe what ever i see for these few days...also i'm hearing is not improving...still feels block but there is good points to it actually...i'll stick out my right ear to whom i dun wanna listen to then i need not...so if i stuck my right ear when trying to listen to u...i hope u get the hint...

Mr.M

2008-06-21T07:16:00.000-07:00

Well...i'm turning 21 soon...but i feel like i was 30...maybe its due to me not shaving or the fact that i'm pretty deaf in my right year...oh well...ok...something funny happened at work today...i'm not suppose to disclose the person's name coz the person dun want me to do so...actually as a friend i should not have laugh bout this coz he could have been seriously injured in the process...

Ok...here's what happen...Mr. M and i was going to but dinner tgt...so we went down the escalator tgt...suddenly Mr.M started running against the escalator...he run and run but it seems to take quite sometime due to his slow speed and size...we're quite BIG in size...while he was running and running suddenly he lost his balance...i was halfway through the ride and i saw Mr.M swaying to the extreme left then to the extreme right...then all four on the escalator...here's the funniest part his shoe dropped during the process...and the shoe went down the escalator...i picked the shoe up and tried to throw it back...but i miss...haiz...luckily it nv got stuck between the gap...if it got into the gap then it would have been a really comical incident...
And the reason why he went against the escalator was becoz Tania paged for him then he started running but the worst is that when he got there Tania said its was ok...WHAHAHAHAHA...the moment i rmb the swayying part i kept laughing...omg!!
WOW...my dear Heti decided to quit smoking...there's nice...cheers babe...I feel like i'm ready for my next relationship...so girls out there...whoever is my next target..you're such a lucky girl =)
After deciding for some many phone...i've finally decided on the F1 motoroa razr2....YEAH!! I-touch on its way too!!